I Sing My Poems to You, Amanda [top reads TXT] 📗

away?
     Is this the forbidden kiss?

I'll miss you in my heart. 
     I'll miss you in my soul.
     Go ahead. Throw the dart.
     Maybe it will fill this hole.

Fear

Have you ever known fear as I have known it?

Fists clenched, eyes wide, teeth chattering fear

Blood drained from your face

And your heart hammering, ready to burst from your chest

Your head spinning, your mind racing

Eyes looking at you see that you're frozen

You want to run away but you can't

The voices swirling around you

They're in a hands held circle around you

Chattering loudly around you

Their words are unheard like a blur

You're confused, alone and afraid

That's the fear I feel every time I close my eyes

The nightmares come and I can't stop them

Do you know this heart gripping fear as I know it?

Pain

Pain I feel, can't close my eyes to the pain I feel deep inside- hurt and lost, confused and angry. I don't know what to do.

So I clench my teeth and get through one more day, living my life day by day. When I'm on my own, it's a scary place. 

Liars all around, lurking in the shadows waiting for some excitement. I might not e pretty, but I must account for something.

They want your trust so they can wrap you up in lies and envelop you iinto darkness, but they look oh so good on the outside. 

Enticing and devilish, cute with a twist. It looks so nice. Can it possibly be? Am I right? It lures me in, but I got a bad feeling.

I close my eyes and my mind to the rest of it. I don't want to know the horrors of it. It'll only knock me down again. 

My Diamond Ring

If I'm married, you're my diamond ring. A circle to go and lean on eternally. You're all I am and ever been, you make my life complete. I want you to be with me, through the good, and through the bad. You're always in my heart, even when we're miles apart. You are my love, my life. I thank the Goddess for you at night. You are my diamond ring. 

The Color of Flying

Wish I could see what the world looks like

From way up high, high up in the sky

Wish I could touch the sky

And feel the rush of wind in my hair.

This world is holding me down right here

I wonder what is way up there. 

I want to feel a new kind of rush

The kind that won't make you blush

Right now I feel kind of crushed. 

I want to hold your hand. 

I want to start a band. 

Will you hold my hand?

Don't let me fall

Don't make me call

Don't say that's all

How much you want to bet

It's not over yet?

Today of All Days

Today of all days is in its own way perfect.

Everything happens to its own accord

No one really notices it, but I see it

That girl who looks so happy

Deep inside she's crying, her heart's broken

She lets herself get lost in a crowd

Of rebels, just like her

So that way no one can see

The feelings she's holding in

Until she's alone in her bedroom at night

She cries herself to sleep

Feeling broken and ignorant

She prays no one will notice

The new cuts on her arm

She don't want to have to explain

How it happens

The gaudy bracelets and crazy outfits

Hide the fact

But on today of all days

She opened up to me

Let herself free.

My Talisman

My amulet is just a simple faith, 
    That good will surely come
    Justice will be served
    Blood no more will run.

My talisman is God's beauty
    See His divine creation
    Feel the love He gives
    Be cleansed by His salvation.

My lucky charm is love
    Love for where I am.
    Love for where I'll go.
    Love for who I am.

My amulet, my talisman, my lucky charm

Confusing Battles

Love is a battlefield. 
     Don't let me get started on how.
     But what I will tell you,
     You really should listen.
     Don't let past experiences
     Ruin the relationships
     You have right now. 
     You have to learn, 
     And move on. Yes, 
     The healing takes time, 
     But please, 
     Don't confuse your battles. 
     Because, 
     Usually, the one you love
     The most and least of all
     Want to hurt, 
     Is the one you hurt 
     The most, because
     Like so many people,
     You confuse your feelings
     With the truth.
     Don't do that.
     Please, please, 
     Please, 
     Be careful
     Not to confuse your battles. 

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Publication Date: 02-15-2013

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