I Sing My Poems to You, Amanda [top reads TXT] 📗

Just Because

Just because you’ve never seen me cry, it doesn’t mean I don’t.
Just because you’ve never heard me scream, it doesn’t mean I don’t.
Just because you’ve never felt me love, it doesn’t mean I don’t.
Just because I’m silly, it doesn’t mean I don’t care.
Just because they say I’m pretty, it doesn’t mean I’m a slut.
Just because they think I’m stupid, it doesn’t mean I’m not smart.
Just because I like to have fun, it doesn’t mean I can’t be serious.
Just because I don’t sing like a superstar, it doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy it.
Just because I can’t dance to save my life, it doesn’t mean I won’t try.
Just because I smile, it doesn’t mean it’s real.
Just because I push you away, it doesn’t mean I don’t love you.
Just because I ignore you, it doesn’t mean I don’t want you.
Just because I never said I love you, it doesn’t mean I don’t wish I did.

Your Memory Makes Me Crazy

You took a chance on a bruised and battered heart, knowing I would never be able to understand you. I would never understand why you didn’t let go or give up on me. I would never understand why you loved me in the first place. Everyone I ever knew always used me; I couldn’t help but wonder if you were even real. I held onto so much hurt and anger from my past that I didn’t even notice the amazing thing I had right in front of me. I got scared and let it slip away. You weren’t the weirdo or the creeper or the maniac. You weren’t the bastard or the sex freak or the man whore. You weren’t even the one that got away. You were the one that saved my heart, and you taught me to love again. I know I will never truly be able to forgive myself for letting you go. It was so fast, so sudden; what was I doing?! I let someone scary cloud my judgment, and I told you that we were through. I didn’t know how much it would hurt me. I didn’t know how much it would hurt you. I didn’t know how much I’d cry. How much I’d miss you. How much I would hate myself. Was I out of my mind? Sometimes, I catch myself thinking about you, and I wonder why. Do you ever find yourself thinking of me? I catch myself when I least expect it, and it feels like a knife through my heart. And every time I hear your name, I turn around to look. Even still. I don’t know why. Maybe I’m just crazy. Maybe I’m just tired. Maybe I’m just sad, angry, sorry, confused, desperate, lost, depressed. CRAZY!!! Your memory makes me CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Will Always Adore

Have you ever stopped to think what hearing your name does to me?

Have you ever stopped to think what reading your words mean to me?

Have you ever stopped to think how special you are to me?

I’ve wondered for a while what you really thought of me.

Now it don’t matter anymore.

You want to know why?

I’m hopelessly lost.

I’m stupidly drunk.

I’m insanely happy.

I’m irrevocably in love with you.

You’ll never know what losing you did to me.

You’ll never guess how much I hurt.

You’ll never understand the pain I feel.

And right now, I don’t care.

I just want you back.

You’re my lover.

You’re my best friend.

You’re my present to unwrap.

You’re the one who saved my heart.

You’re the one who gave me strength.

You’re the one who loves me best.

You’re the one who knows me best.

You’re the one I will always adore.

Rip Me Apart

They can take a knife and cut me up.
If they love me, they won’t stop.
They’ll see the blood flow thick and red.
They’ll remember every word I ever said.
As I fall hopelessly to the ground
My veins will rip, my head will pound.
My life will flash before my eyes
All they’ll remember is my deceit, my lies.
They can take a knife and cut me up, rip me apart
Take my life—but they’ll never reach my shattered heart.

Annihilated

Oh bring me the rain.
Drown out these fears.
Deceive these broken tears.
Break my empty pain.

Oh hail to the sea--
Dirty hands fill the earth.
Annihilated souls feel the myrth.
Was that really me? Did he?

I'm calling on thee
I'm leaning on thy power
You dark one, I cower--
My life-- your gift, from me.

My trust you violated.
My heart you broke and burned.
Your bloody hands filled the earth.
My soul has become annihilated.

Silence

They say silence speaks legacies.
If that's true, I should be mute.
Noone wants to hear my opinion.
Maybe I should keep it to myself.
Do what I'm required and nothing more,
And certainly not less.
Quit making people mad.
Quit not meeting the bar I set for myself.
Expet required, Achieve exceptional
I apologize for everything I've ever said.
It's my turn to be silent.

I Cried

I cried the day you said goodbye.
I cried when I seen how you stopped caring.
I cried when you were mean to me.
I cried when I realized you hated me.
I cried when I saw how easy I was replaced.

I Loved You

I loved you
until the day you
left me broken and
crying and hanging
to life by a thread.

Then I closed my eyes
and let the pain
drown me-- let it
suffocate me--
let it tear me
apart.

Then I watched as
you took her hand
and left me crying. As
you left, my heart
shattered-- And I

Finally-- Finally gave
up. On you, on me,
on love, on life. I
gave up because of you.