Worker, Tyrone Vincent Banks [intellectual books to read .txt] 📗

Luke 10:2 These were his instructions to them: “The harvest is great, but the workers are few. So pray to the Lord who is in charge of the harvest; ask Him to send more workers into His fields."

May 07, 2009

Where is my family? Are they alive? Did she leave me? Why would she leave me? I've been a good husband and father...I've been faithful to her...I never hurt any of them....

I was taking a shower; I don't know why I had this feeling that I had to stop. But when I came out of the shower and called out to them, there was no response. I searched every room in the house from top to bottom. I checked closets and even areas where no one can hide. I wanted to call her cell phone - but there was no dial tone on any phone. I called from my cell phone and there was no response...not even a signal! I called 911...they weren't there!

How could they leave the house? You have to lock all of the doors from the outside with a key...but the doors were locked, the keys are here, the car is here. Her cell phone, purse and wedding band...all still here.

My kids' rooms look normal...like they were in the middle of playing and then they just stopped...

I don't know why I'm writing this journal. Maybe I believe that you'll read it when you come back to me my love.

If I hurt you, I'm sorry...If it’s another man...I'll forgive you, just come back to me...

Love, Lee...


May 08, 2009

I woke up this morning feeling numb and out of touch with reality.

I don't even know why I would want to live...

If I'm dead, I won't feel the pain - but, if they're alive I would not see them again.

I spent the entire day searching for my family, but there's something going on...

I went to the homes of every family member, friend and coworker - but no one was home.

I should have been in a panic, but there was no one to talk to or a place suitable for me to let go...

I travelled throughout Connecticut and then as far as New York City, not a person in sight! Businesses were open but there were no cashiers, waitresses or attendants - no one! Unlocked doors, free gas, free food, free everything...but it means nothing without my family.

If the world had ended, where was the smoke, fire and brimstone?

Where were the ruins?

Was this to become a new Jericho? Is this a city established to be given to someone else?

I went into my favorite restaurant. No waiting and no service. I had to prepare my own food...thank God that there's still electricity, gas and running water. However, I don't know how long that will last.

I thought to myself, maybe she went back to South America! I left the house and went to the airport - but there were no pilots. I thought about trying to operate a plane, but decided against it. Crashing and burning wouldn't help the situation!

I have to prepare for the worse, I need a contingency plan...tired now, will work on it tomorrow.


May 9, 2009

Couldn't sleep...I left the house this morning to draft a contingency plan.

Went into Borders, made myself a thermos of coffee and grabbed a leather binder with a strong, braided rope to secure it and a handful of pens. I feel that I need to write what I think, say and do. I have to keep these thoughts safe.

After my fifth slice of carrot cake I thought about eating myself to death…maybe not.

I thought about the essentials...broke them down into two categories.

If the electricity stays on I'll have one plan, if it does not, another plan...

I grabbed a map and planned out my route. I will drive as far north as possible and work my way down.

I will then drive from the east coast to the west coast.

I checked the cash register and there was plenty of money - but I would have no one to "pay". I grabbed all of the batteries that I could find, box loads of books and box loads of Bibles. I'm not trying to go all "book of Eli" but the Word of God is important.

I went into the mall...literally; I drove right through the extra wide doors and grabbed random clothing and shoes. I went to an outdoors supplier and obtained climbing gear, lanterns, flashlights, radios, miscellaneous camping equipment, first aid kits, canteens and water testing equipment.

I even found a book about various survival skills - that could come in handy.

I filled a large shopping bag with matches in waterproof containers, grabbed awnings and camping stoves.

I rode the empty escalator to the second level and scanned the area from that vantage point. I am feeling so alone...being apart from my family is hurting me a lot, but I have to keep moving.

I am thinking of the solution while trying to push the emotions involved with the problem aside. For a flashing moment I thought about the possibility of spending the rest of my life alone - not a good thought.

I thought about the apocalypse...I thought about those who were left behind when Christ returned.

I don't know what to do...with all of this planning I still just don't know what to do!

Tonight I will pray and ask the Lord for guidance...I have no one else to ask.


May 10, 2009

My car is too small...today I'll get a new one.

I drove to a dealership and still I couldn't find the one that I needed. I need space, gas is not a problem, and I need a versatile vehicle that can travel across any terrain.

I'm going to the military base - I have an idea...

I drove into the base and entered the oversized vehicle bay. I found a large truck...some kind of ten wheeled type of deal with a large canvas covering the back. Thank God I have a CDL! I transferred all of the contents from my SUV to this beast. I found MRE's, first aid kits, larger water containers, additional clothing, and several handguns, explosives and ammunition.

I filled both tanks on the truck to maximum capacity and filled a few containers with additional fuel.

I didn't want to plan for the worse but I had to be prepared for anything...

I drove over to the Wal-Mart and filled the boxes attached to the inside of my truck with rifles and ammunition...if not for protection for hunting if necessary.

I went to a motorcycle dealership and grabbed two All-Terrain Vehicles.

I went to my church...it was empty, but it felt like the right place to be.

I walked in and I could sense that someone or something was there. I had a handgun and I entered cautiously. I felt ridiculous but I was determined to avoid shooting anything.

I was almost at the alter when I felt something touch my leg.

For 3 days I searched and searched for my family or just anyone to talk to.

I found a friend today...a young Chocolate Lab that I named Mike.

I just realized that I was looking for humans but there were none. I didn’t even realize that the animals were gone as well! Mike and I went to the pet store...no dogs, cats, fish, frogs, snakes, mice...nothing! Needless to say, I loaded up on dog food and other essentials.

Just Mike and I and I will take care of this little fellow to the best of my ability. Right now, he was all that I had that was actually alive...

I went back to the military base and found a little jacket for Mike - just like the ones that the search and rescue dogs wear.

We slept under the stars that night and I thanked God for sending Mike to me!


May 11, 2009

Mike woke me up early this morning and we started our trip. The truck had a scanner in it and I scanned all channels continuously for the sound of a human voice.

Mike and I stopped at a restaurant today and we prepared a quick meal in the kitchen. I made coffee and offered Mike a cup. He tasted it and didn't like it...maybe dogs shouldn't drink coffee.

We rode up and down every street looking for anyone that we could help while searching for my family. I thought about all of the people that I missed. I hope that they know that I love them and I hope that they're okay.

Mike stares at me sometimes...it's like he wants to talk to me but he cannot. What was his story? Was he also...left behind?

I didn’t want to think or say those words, but I cannot help thinking that I was left behind for some reason.


May 12, 2009

We've been driving for several hours and we're in Canada. I crossed the border and headed towards mountains that I could see in the distance. I was lead to move to higher ground.

Mike and I had a quick lunch. I was drawn to the mountains...in times of distress people usually head to higher ground...We had plenty of daylight and I didn’t want to waste any…

There has to be something up there…I can feel it!

As we headed up the mountain the scanner began to pick up something…it sounded like a human voice! I fine tuned the scanner and heard the tail end of an automated message.

“… prison is without power as the backup generator has failed….gates unlocked…dangerous criminals…do not approach….”

With that to go on before the transmission ceased - I began to worry. If the prisoners were “taken” just like my family, then there will be no problem. However, if some of the prisoners were left behind, there could be a problem.

I am a Born-Again Christian…a little rough around the edges but I try to do what’s right. If there’s an escaped prisoner out there without morals, values or Christ in their life, they could be a potential threat. Here I am in a military vehicle, filled with supplies and weapons but still unprepared for violence.

I asked Mike if I should be worried…he just looked out the window, at me and barked once…excellent conversation!!

We’ve been driving for hours!

Why is it that mountains look so close but as you go towards them they seem to move further away?

I stopped in a nice town and found another restaurant. The rolls were hard like rocks and the soup tasted like laundry water. I found some Crepes in the refrigerator. After eating one, I wished that I didn’t…

I thought that it would be a good idea to find shelter for the evening.