Whispers Of Love, Jāē Goddard [best non fiction books of all time TXT] 📗

     There we lay no insight or hope of tomorrow, just faith in right now. Happiness within the minutes, the moments of his eyes, smile, touch. It was there, right there and then as we were lain beneath the starlit skies, I knew, I knew I was in love not infatuation, not beneath a lust full spell, I knew it was real. I looked at him trying so very hard to not show the very over bearable presence of excitement. I wondered ‘Did he like me? Did he know I liked him? And if so could he, would he ever consider me as a choice?’ I was scared to even speak, scared it would've ruined this very so perfect moment.

       Soothing, assuring warmth came over me as his hand came gently on mine and intertwining our fingers together. I looked at him with a very, deep astonishment. He smile, touched my hair and kissed me on my forehead so sweet and gently. Like he knew just what to do how to have me on my toes questioning all the truth I once knew. My heart stopped and only resumed till after that slow, perfect moment ended. He looked intensely within my eyes, my heart and my soul I shied away feeling ashamed and incomplete thinking he would be able to see, feed off of my insecurity. He sat up, holding my hands and pulling me up also, he then asked me, “Do you know what I see when I look at you?”

I thought to myself ‘A girl who would never be able to live up to your worth, would never be pretty enough stylish enough, a girl inexistent in your perfect world, your world of fast cars, short skirts, high heels and blonde (Wow I feel like I described a show there fast cars we’re 15 we’re not even allowed to drive well I got caught up in the moment). A girl who isn’t anywhere secure and trusting within herself so how could she be with anyone else.’ Instead I answered very nervously, “Umm….No...what do you see?”

 He sat up pulling, me up, my eyes were caught in gaze ‘Oh he was soo perfect his brown eyes had gold flecks splashed all over in them I could see Mardi Gras in them all the colors, expressions, happiness and innocent bliss.’ I brought myself back to reality as his eyes caught mines. I turned my head watching my legs; I bit my lip as he began to speak. “Skye I see beauty beyond words, beyond knowledge when I look deeper I see a broken girl someone scared to trust, to love, I see someone different not caring about the status quo but breaking all expectations and precedents. Setting your own standards, what you believe is perfect for you….and I hope that somewhere down the line I could be the reason why you smile.” He spoke with such confidence, conviction. My cheeks were on fire, I felt light headed. ‘How was I going to respond to that…but wait he liked me right, or is he just being friendly, maybe this is a prank a set up, my birthday was coming up maybe my mom planned this…..but he did find I was beautiful or he just wants to have sex with me.’ How was I going to respond could I look at him, face him he would see right through me right through my, don’t give a shit façade.

      He raised my chin before even giving me, a chance to speak ‘Although I might’ve just stuttered getting nothing out.’ He kissed me ‘My first kiss by the most incredible hottest guy ever.’ I melted, he kissed me so soft and gentle ‘OMG this was it, I felt like I was under a spell everything was just forgotten, erased I only thought one thing knew one thing. I wanted more of whatever this crazy drug was and I was madly deeply, head over heels in love with Giovanni Affini. He pulled away ‘Nooo I wanted more!!!!’ He ran his finger down from eyes to my lips. His touch was something electrical, mystical something I wanted to belong to me; only me. He bit his lip watching me, just then a bright flash of light passed over our heads. It came back to me that’s what we were here for…a science project on the Meteors. I smiled, “Gio I think we just missed our meteor and half of our grade.”

      “I don’t really care for it I got something way better.” He smile grabbing my hand and playing with my fingers. ‘Gosh what was this boy doing to me!!!?’ “I just poured my heart out to you and you never did tell me…What do you think of me?” He said smiling looking straight at me, through me I felt naked…and cold. ‘I think you’re a God I’ve been lusting over you since you transferred to my shit hole of a school, your body is breaking the scale out of whatever number. Your brown curly hair looks so cloud like soft I just want to forget about everything around us and rush into you running my fingers through them. Your lips are just so pink, kissable and bitable. Your tan sun kissed skin is just soooo inviting, the thought of your body touching mine is enough to last the rest of my lonely cat filled life. Your touch sends shivers up my spine and wetness to my panties every time.’ Instead I said,” Umm…well…I like you which I think is obvious...but I’m sure you don’t have space in your life right now for me…I mean a boy like you, you’ve been in this school under a year and….well anyway I’m sure you have a girlfriend and I’m sure that I can’t say anything that would interest you or that you haven’t heard before.” I looked away he was perfect, I couldn’t even pretend I was anywhere near his standards.

      He raised my head to his; his eyes showed disgust ‘Finally he was seeing me how everyone did.’ “Are you mad? How could you say that!!! You don’t need to say anything to interest me you interest me; your presence consumes my every thought, being. You are….” Before he even finished his sentenced our lips were together, our tongues intertwined. It was intense, passionate like those scenes on those movies your mom would block your eyes from. He held me his hand on my waist and the other in my hair. ‘Whoo this was my chance I would finally get to feel those curls run my hand on his body!!!’ He bit my lip then resting me back down on the blanket, him on top of me kissing my neck, then my chin, my lips then gently he broke our heated tongue fight and kissed my forehead. I was breathless ‘Did that really just happened? Whoa it was awesome!!!!’ My body tingled all over from his soft touches. I smiled one night had changed my boring dull life into one of excitement, love and hunger for more. He held my hand, then began, “I truly have feelings for you, I want you to know, I need you in my life need you to be mine, I know I don’t really know you but I want to whether it’s as your friend or more I want to be in your life.” He blushed a little as he said or more. It was my choice ‘Duh I want you you’re soo sexy and caring’ but he was right we didn’t really know each other ‘I knew everything about him in a stalker sense’ but I didn’t really know him his likes and dislikes.

      “I want the same thing…yeah I think we should be friends first.” I smiled my cheeks still red. ‘Yup I had finally lost it be friends, friends with this blessed creature’ I wanted more…but I didn’t want to show it. He kissed my forehead and held my hand tighter like he didn’t want me to leave. 

      He walked me home his hand in mine, his burning gaze never leaving my face. We talked about small, silly, stuff. Because he said the small stuff makes up the memories the person, that you remember the small stuff, you yearn for the simple things when you don’t have the whole presence around anymore. So we talked about our family though my side was pretty boring. “I was born here I’m the only child my mom and dad has they’re separated now so I have two step brothers. But I always feel like an only child because I’m the only girl. I’m bi-racial so that’s kinda cool yeah I think that’s it.” I said, “What about you?”

      “Well I’m from Italy (‘Wow that wasn’t a shocker’). We moved here because my father is a business man and he wants to expand, so he decided to take America ‘by storm’. So we’re here now. It’s me my mother, father and Luca my brother, Nella my sister and our newest addition Antonio. But my family is huge when everyone gets together. Christmas, Thanksgiving, Birthdays are always…interesting. Italy is beautiful it is…. I don’t even know where to begin but it is maybe someday I’ll have the honor of showing you there.” He said so smoothly.

      Wow this boy was good how could we be just friends and again I’m so boring in comparison to that, but his baby brother is probably sooo cute just like a mini Gio aww. We reached my house; I prayed silently that my mother would be inside watching TV paying no mind to come outside or open the door of course I was wrong. She opened the door her face lit up, she began to open her mouth what was it with mother’s these days so chatty gosh. I shoved at her gently but firm saying “I’ll come inside soon mom” stressing on the mom and plastering a smile for emphasis. He waved at her saying goodnight thank god she understood me and didn’t take that as an invitation for a conversation. She just smiled and went inside. I knew she was probably plastered by the window though. So we exchanged numbers he promised to text me when he reached home. We hugged; thank God he didn’t go in for a kiss that would’ve been uncomfortable and disturbing to talk to my mother about. Then he kissed me gentle on my forehead and left.

      I came inside slowly in my own world just repeating the events of tonight his words, his touch, his kiss, damn him!! My mother interrupted my thoughts with her school girl squeals, “What was that? You didn’t tell me you were doing your science project with such, such…such a fine young man.” She looked upset while saying young she probably realized there that we were discussing a 15yr old and she was no longer young, poor her she got caught up sometimes.

      “He’s my friend. His name is Giovanni. Yes he is a fine young