Through all the tears..., Kerry Elisabeth Waddingham [epub ebook reader .txt] 📗

so this is the guy that you made out with?” he asked.

“yes.”

“and this is the dude who broke your heart.” Josh asked
“ditto.”

“what do you mean ditto? Are you trying to say that I broke her heart before?” josh asked getting in Alexander’s face.

“yes, and I fixed it.”

“maybe so but then your dumb ass had to go and break it again.”

“it was a fucking mistake that no one will ever let go.”

“no one will let it go, when you made Annie cry!!”

“you made her cry to josh, you don’t have much room for speaking, who the hell do you think you are pretending to love Annie? And then just fucking leaving her.!”

“I never pretended to love Annie, I do love her, I always have and I always will. I am 16 and she is 15, she was to young before!”

“look we could sit here and argue about who loves her more, which it would be me, but that wont do us any good, because in the end… it all comes down to who she chooses.”

“you guys are acting so fucking immature! I cant stand this, Josh I love you! Alexander I love you! And right now it’s a fucking mistake.” Annie says storming off into the house. “bree you might want to go stop josh and Alexander from killing each other.”

“are you going back out?”

“ya…, I guess.”

Bree walk out with confidence in her walk.

“Alexander, you fucked up. Josh, you fucked up… quite frankly I don’t think either of you deserve her. But because she loves you guys, give her a break. This is probably a really tough choice that she has to make.”

Annie begins crying. “it actually is… Josh, you’ve always been known as a player and my fake husband and Alexander, I’ve always loved you… but now your known as a cheater…”

“Annie, I am not a player.. honestly.”

“how are you not a player?? You wanted to make out with me and Maloney at the same time.”

“ok. Well then I’m good at the game, but I can stop.”

“why would you give up your fabulous life as a player?”

“Annie? You seriously don’t get it, I am umm… in love with you.”

“josh… you don’t mean that do you..?”

“ya Annie, I mean that. I am in love with you, and I have been since the first kiss.” Josh whispers.

“AHHHHH” Annie screams.

“Annie what’s wrong?” Alexander and Josh ask at the same time.

“you guys don’t understand this, I am in love with both of you, and you are both in love with me… you are both amazing guys that give me a special feeling… that I love, you guys make me feel important here.. but Josh, you don’t know the half to me… Alexander knows, he knows it and he understands and… he doesn’t judge me for it.”

“Annie, what are you talking about? I know a lot about you.”

“maybe so Josh, but I neglected to tell you half the mistakes.”

“Annie everyone makes me mistakes.”

“josh these ones, they almost cost me my life.”

He glances at her covered wrist, and gently grabs it. He slides her sleeve halfway up her arm, to see if this was what she meant.

“so you’re a cutter?”

“….yes…”

“I’m not going to judge you for that Annie, but I do wish you would stop.”

“I can’t…”

“well, I will keep trying.”

“ok.”

“Annie?” Alexander says

“ya?”

“…did..did you cut your vein?”

Annie looks down in shame and shakes her head yes. Alexander runs to wrap his arms around her and starts crying, she lets a few tears escape from her eyes. Alexander stands there holding her.. while Josh stands there feeling awkward.

“obviously there’s a lot more to you and Annie.” Josh finally says.

“there is, but there’s more to you two I guess as well, if she’s so in love with you.” He says resting her head under his neck

“Annie we don’t want to cause you anymore pain…, I guess ill go now.”

Annie pulls away from Alexander and starts crying. “I don’t.. don’t… want to hurt you and Alexander any more… you.. you guys deserve someone who wont hurt you..” with that she starts to walk away.
Alexander and Josh just stand there and call her back.

“you guys deserve better…” she shouts behind her.

“does she not get she is better? The best?”

“she feels bad, seeing you cry Alexander.”

“I am a very sensitive person…. So she shouldn’t.”

“ok, but what are we going to do?? Your in love with her, as am I”

“I don’t know Josh… maybe she needs to move on a find someone better.”

“was that said against me?”

“no me, find someone who won’t cheat…”

“I’m sorry, I had to come and fuck everything up.”

“maybe it’s a sign, that Annie, needs to let me go…”

“Alexander I don’t get it… tell me about you and Annie…. Exactly everything that happened…”

“ok, we meant a while ago through Autumn, she was my girlfriend at the time. I didn’t think much of Annie when I meant her, in fact she kind of seemed like a stuck up bitch so I kind of pushed her away. Then she sent me a message on face book, because me and Autumn were having relationship issues or something. But honestly I had broken up with autumn and she threatened to kill herself. Then I gave Annie my number, because she actually seemed pretty cool and when we were texting I kind of started to like her, then she was going to go meet me up at the school… I was in summer school. But autumn showed up with her and ruined everything because even though I was with autumn again, I was going to kiss Annie. Autumn was keeping me and Annie from being together with her suicide threat, she had actually came to my house and sat in the middle of the road… I asked her to leave and stop being so dramatic about everything, and I told her that we were over officially and I didn’t want her back. I was going to get with Annie, but she felt bad because autumn was talking about death, and said something like if Annie were to date me, she would kill herself and then we could make out at her funeral.”

“ouch.. that’s on hell of a story bro..”

“yes I know… so we went out finally, I got drunk kissed my ex becca and maddie… told her and she gave me another chance and then I was at school and Becca kissed me, and I didn’t stop her…”

“why didn’t you stop her?? Don’t you know how lucky you had it with her??”

“I guess I took her for granted…”

“that was the wrong thing bro. Annie is the best girl and she would never do anything like that, she is to forgiving and the fact that you were able to cheat on her with this becca and maddie chick, to be honest pisses me off…”

“I don’t deserve another chance with her, do I?”

“I told you, she’s a forgiving girl… you guys have obviously been through a lot together… so I guess it must be worth it. Go talk to her.. tell her josh wants her to be happy.. and if being with you makes her happy… then I hope you guys are happy together.. oh and ill be here, if she starts to fall, I’ll catch her.”


Chapter 8

Josh then turned and walked back into the house, trying not to cry and wiping tears away. He sits on the couch and Bree runs over to talk to him..

“josh what happened? I have never seen you actually cry…”

“I told Alexander that him and Annie, have been through a lot.. so I told him to tell her that I just want her to be happy… so if being with him makes her happy… then do it. And I told him to tell her, that if she begins to fall, ill be there to catch her.”

“you really love this girl don’t you?”

“ya I honestly do.”

“I hope everything works out for you.

“thanks Bree-Bree..”

At the moment Alexander walks into the house, it looks like he was just wiping tears from his eyes. When he looks at Josh crying and whispers, “I am so sorry…” he walks into the kitchen.


“Samantha, where is Annie?”

“um upstairs I think…”

“can I please go talk to her.?”

“ok, I guess…”

“thank you.”

“mhm.”

Alexander walks up the stairs and knocks on the bathroom door. “Annie?”

“go away!” she yells from the other side.

“please Annie, I need to talk to you..”

“Alexander, there is nothing for us to talk about…”

“wrong Annie, there is a lot.”

Just then the bathroom door un locks and Alexander pushes it open He see’s Annie sitting on the floor, so he sits across from her, with his back to the door.

“are you ok?”

“no Alexander, I am not.”

“look Annie, I know this is your choice not ours, but after you left me and Josh had some time to talk… and he wanted me to tell you that he wants you to be happy” he pauses when she sniffles back tears. She doesn’t wipe them away, just lets them fall down her face.. “um anyway he said if you and me being together makes me happy, then do it… but he’ll be there for you if you start to fall… and he’ll catch you.”

“but you don’t get it… I have always been in love with Josh, since I first meant him… and I can’t date him and be in love with you, or date you and be in love with him, because that just isn’t fair for either of you guys… when I seen him today I made out with him, and I know I told you that… but what I mean is, if I am dating you and I see him and I make out with him.. I am going to feel like shit for cheating on you… and… I just can’t hurt you like that.”

Alexander then notices that Annie is holding a cloth tight to her wrist.

“I wont hold you against it” he whispers. He then reaches out and grabs her wrist he slowly moves the cloth and see’s nothing but blood. “oh my god Annie……”

“I told you, I don’t want to hurt you two anymore.”

“no Annie, you are not going to kill yourself. JOSH! He screams.

A minute later, they heard footsteps coming up the stairs. Annie looks up and see’s a horrified Josh standing in the doorway. “Annie what the fuck did you do??!”

“well I’m not causing you two any more pain.”

“wrong. Very wrong… Annie, this is causing us more pain.”

“its fine, its not deep enough.”

“Annie….”

“yes Alexander?”

“pick Josh… he’s never cheated.. and you’re the only girl that he’s ever cried for.”

“but Alexander… I love you and him.”

“Pick him… and if you guys don’t make it… ill be here…”

Annie begins to cry. “I cant do this! Knowing that it is hurting someone I love!”

“Annie, trust me..