My Savior Alpha, Jessie Marie [book recommendations website .txt] 📗

put her through that, I would stay to please her since it was at least what she deserved after staying with me for all those years.After I had finished I winced as I flushed the chain, hoping to god that it didn't wake him as I tip—toed back into his large room before sighing out in relief when I saw that he hadn't moved. I didn't know what was wrong with me but I knew it had to be something serious to be causing me to act in such a way; the scary thing was that I didn't mind. The comfort I felt, the brief moments when I felt myself starting to smile seemed to be worth the fear that he would soon get bored and toss me aside; hopefully when that time happens he would kill me, I knew neither me nor my wolf could take another rejection and the last thing I feared was death.So with that on my mind I couldn't help myself as I walked back in front of him, drying my still slightly damp hands on the shirt I was wearing as I found myself nervously staring at him again. I couldn't help but fidget from where I stood making me thankful for his thick carpet, though why I was so nervous was beyond me.Slowly I approached his sleeping form, his breathing even and I wondered why he hadn't woken up yet. Even though it pained me to even think it I couldn't help but realize how easy it would be so end his life, I would never do it but why was he putting so much trust into me? Not to mention why was he sleeping on the couch when he could have just kicked me out of his bed? Chapter 16

 What I did next I couldn't help but feel was stupid of me, my thin hand reaching out towards him slowly. I didn't know why I had the sudden urge to touch him, to feel his skin on mine but as I reached out to try and satisfy my wolf I couldn't help but scream in fright when suddenly a hand was wrapped around my wrist in a tight grasp. Pain rocketed through my arm starting from my wrist due to my bones still being fragile, my form collapsing onto my knees in seconds as I tried desperately to pull away from whoever held me in my grasp."Shit, oh god I am so sorry sweetheart" was all I heard a pained voice say before the pressure on my wrist was instantly gone, all of this happening in less than a minute as I found myself backing up as fast as I could as I tried to ignore the slight throbbing which was now directed at my wrist.Looking up through my messy locks I flinched when I saw how close Adrian was, pure pain in his eyes causing my wolf to howl in displeasure at seeing such a look on him. My breathing was harsh and sharp as I felt my back hit the wall, thankful that he stayed put and didn't try and approach like I knew he wanted to. While I was pleased he was keeping his distance my wolf wasn't, but I couldn't help but feel myself growing more and more agitated as he continued to stare at me with that same pained expression on his face. "It's fine, I shouldn't have urm…it won't happen again" I whispered as I looked away, gently holding my wrist in my other hand as I did so. His grip hadn't been what most would have considered tight, but due to me not being as healthy as most it felt as if he had tried to break my bones as he did so. I couldn't help but swallow back a sob as I curled up against the wall, why did the thought of not touching him again hurt so much?"No, no sweetheart you did nothing wrong I just…." He seemed to trail off frustrated, my knees pulled up to my chest as I couldn't help but stare at him. I knew I shouldn't get so attached, but I also knew that my wolf was far too smitten with him to even try and think of running away. She deserved some happiness, even if it meant I would have to put up with these strange feeling which I seemed to be having around him.I didn't interrupt him as he seemed to continue to stare at me pleadingly, a few moments later my eyes watched his form as he seemed to sit on the floor in front of me, crossing his legs as he kept a safe distance away which I was thankful for. Even though my wolf was trying to tell me that he didn't want to bring any harm to me; I didn't trust him easily with good reason."Can I at least know your name?" he asked me after a few minutes of complete silence, both of us just staring at each other as I soon found myself relaxing when I realized he wasn't going to approach me all of a sudden. I was foolish when I had tried to touch him; a mis take which I didn't want to make again so soon.It was the pleading in his tone which made me cave, the fact that a vicious and well—known alpha was sitting in front of me pleading to know my name was surreal enough for me to find myself speaking before I could stop myself."Holly" I whispered gently, but I knew he would have heard me as clear as day as his whole face seemed to brighten up with the new knowledge he had on me. I couldn't help but smile softly, pressing my face against my knees in an attempt to hide my reaction but I knew he had seen it anyway. Why else would his smile turn into a full—out grin?"Holly" he seemed to say to himself, the spark in his eye making my wolf purr and my form relax almost completely. Why did he seem to have such an effect on me?Even though I knew it wasn't a question I nodded gently anyway, pressing my lips against my bare knees as my bare toes curled into the soft carpet seeking the soothing sensation I had found previously. It was nice I found, being on the receiving end of such a soft gaze."Such a pretty name" he muttered causing me to blush. I knew that he was only saying that, that it wasn't true but still it was nice to pretend that I know someone that wasn't completely disgusted when looking at me.We again seemed to lapse into silence, neither of us saying a word as we continued to stare at each other. It wasn't until my stomach rumbled that I found myself wincing slightly at the loud noise, ignoring it with ease like I had done over the years as the un—comfort I felt with the feeling of being hungry was one I was all too familiar with.I flinched slightly when Adrian jumped to his feet, his face giving me an apologetic look as he took in my startled reaction to him. I couldn't help but shrug gently, it wasn't like it was his fault that I was as jumpy as I was. I was brought up with having to flinch away from hits and beatings so now it was simply an instinctual reaction, even if I wished it wasn't due to the pain and regret it brought to his eyes."You hungry? Breakfast?" he asked quickly, the regret still in his eyes making me frown. I didn't like the fact he seemed to be regretting something that wasn't even his fault, it made my face fall and my wolf howl in displeasure and pain. So to please him I gently nodded, watching his face light up making it seem worth it somehow.It didn't take him long to get back, carrying what looked like a tray with more heavenly food placed on it. I knew he must have rushed since food took time to prepare and he was barely gone minutes before returning, making me think that he might have just grabbed whatever was out. I didn't mind, knowing it would be a struggle for me to eat a few bites since the last thing I wanted was to bring it back up again.

"Here" he smiled as he slowly returned to his sitting position, putting the tray on the floor but I didn't look at it. No, my gaze stayed on those hazel eyes of his which looked so much like my own, as if we were made for each other. I knew it was impossible though, he deserved so much better.Seeing him give me a reassuring look I slowly looked down towards the tray, seeing two plates of what looked like French toast and fried tomatoes on it. I strangely found I missed cooking I realized, I think the only reason I had resented it beforehand was the simple fact that I was constantly cooking food that I was never allowed to even try, let alone eat."Thank you" I whispered, my eyes never leaving his hands as he unhurriedly reached for a plate before making a move to approach me. His eyes locked with mine as he gave me a hopeful gaze, as if he was asking me for my permission to approach the few steps which separated us. While my wolf thought this was unnecessary I couldn't help but be thankful for his caring nature, even though he was one of the last people I would expect it from."You have absolutely nothing to be thankful for sweetheart" he said softly, cautiously approaching me but other than tense my form slightly I didn't comment or move, watching him with keen eyes as he moved to sit in front of me instead of moving back like I expected him to. But I did, I had so much to thank him for since I knew that I could die happy right now, knowing that at least one person would care that I was gone.

 

Chapter 17

 Adrian's Pov

I was a fucking idiot! It was the bluntest and most honest way I could put it, repeatedly kicking myself internally at both gaining and losing so much progress with my mate in seconds. Why did I have to react like that to her? It was my own foolish fault but I had been snapped out of my