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Sat- 19. October 1977

A week had gone by and today Marlene and Sirius would have their second first date. I had done an amazing job helping him apologize to her. Firstly I told him not to flirt with any girl, best not to speak to any girl in private. Then I made him send her roses with his owl every morning with a note : 'From your lover' and then I even got him to write an apology letter on that Friday and also sent it with his owl. After she had read it at the morning table, she almost cried and walked to Sirius and kissed him on the cheek, saying that she might forgive him. At that time, Sirius was getting really annoyed and almost gave up, but when he asked her to go on a date with him on Saturday, she actually said yes. 

And now here we were, waiting for Marlene to come downstairs. I sat next to Sirius with Peter and James, all very excited about their date, because this was the first date with a girl that Sirius actually cared about. 

When Marlene finally came downstairs with Lily, I had to smile because she truly looked beautiful. She wore a long, pink dress with a leather jacket that had white leather at the arms and a long necklace. When I looked at Sirius, I did feel a little upset for a second because he had never looked at me the was he was looking at her now, but then I remembered, that I also had never looked at him  that way and that maybe, it was better that way. 

"Wow, Marlene. You just look stunning!", Sirius said and I could feel that he meant it. He smiled at the blonde girl like she was the only girl in the room and I wished that Remus might smile at me like that one day. But who was I kidding? He just told me that we were only friends, and maybe I should finally get over it. 

"Hey, you look sad.", my best friend said , who just came into the common room with her boyfriend. She had let go of his hand and walked over to me to hug me. I just managed to hold back one little tear that wanted to leave my eyes when I thought about her and Fabians relationship. It was so perfect, they both seemed so happy. 

"Yeah, I'm good.", I lied and freed myself from the hug. "I am looking forward to the party tonight.", I then said to change the subject, but I could see that Aya wasn't very happy with my answer. She gave me a disapproving look and with arms akimbo, she shook her head: " I know that somethings up and I think I know what it is."

"Maybe. But I really don't want to talk about it now.", I brush her off and get a worried look in return: "You should just tell him. I am on Sirius side in this one. Remus does love you." I roll my eyes and now I shake my head: "Didn't you listen when I told you that he said that he only wanted to be friends or that he kissed Isabella?"

"Maybe he just did that to make you jealous?", Aya suggested, but our conversation was interrupted by Fabian, who hugged his girlfriend from behind and then tickled her. 

"Stoooop it!", Aya screamed and tried to escape, but Fabian was just too strong. I giggled and pulled my wand out of my backpocket: "Rictusempra", I whispered and Fabian instantly began laughing. Aya could escape the hands of her boyfriend and looked for the source of his sudden laughing. "Scar! You are my hero!", she then exclaimed when she saw me pointing my wand at Fabian. 

"Please, hahah, stop!", he laughed and I could see tears forming in his eyes from all the laughter. "Apologize to your girlfriend!", I demanded and in between all his laughing, he managed to say sorry to Aya. Just when he had done that, I released him and he breathed heavily, pressing his hand on his side. "I hate you, Katherine.", he then said and sat on the red couch next to the sofa, where James and Peter were sitting. They had both watched us and laughed loudly. "She really got you there, Fabian!", James laughed and Fabian send him a death glare. 

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After chilling in the common room for another three hours, Aya got up from the sofa and smiled at me: "Let's get ready for the party tonight, Scar."

"Ugh, I really don't feel like a party tonight.", I said, because I had just seen Remus come through the portal with Lily, Marlene and Sirius. I knew that it was probably stupid, but when I though of a party, I always had to think about the drunk Remus kissing Isabella. 

"The party in our dorm is officially starting now!", Sirius announced when he and the others reached the sofa and everyone got up to go upstairs to the boys bedroom. Only I stayed behind, and when everyone was gone I saw that Remus was also still standing at the end of the stairs. 

"Come upstairs with us!", he said and smiled at me. "Naw, I really do feel a little bit sick, you go tell the others that I will go to sleep.", I said and walked towards the girls dorm. 

"If you say so. But you are going to miss something!", Remus said and winked at me, then he turned around and walked upstairs. What did he mean with 'you're going to miss something'? Was he maybe going to kiss me? No, I was being stupid, he clearly said that he didn't have feelings for me so I should just let it go and go to bed.

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After I had changed into my pajama, I crawled into my bed and turned the light off. In the darkness, I thought about what the others were doing now. Were they drinking, dancing, kissing? While I thought about the party, I got more and more tired and soon I drifted off into a weird dream. The dream included Remus pressing me against that wall again, smashing it with his hand and then kissing me. It felt so amazing and I wanted it to last forever, but then somebody pulled him away and kissed him instead. It was Isabella, of course. 'Get away from him!', I screamed at the girl, but she just laughed and then Remus turned into Dalton, coming back to me and smashing the wall again, and then he was kissing me too.  I tried to escape, but when he pulled away again, he smiled at me with an evil grin: 'Do you want to save your brother? Then you have to join us and come to the dark side.'

I woke up in my bed, without my blanket. It seemed to be really early, since the light that came into the window was red and golden, from the first light of the sun. I looked around and saw that Aya was in her bed, in a deep sleep and that Ash was also still sleeping. I pulled my blanket up from the floor and then I stood up, not wanting to fall asleep again. I put some clothes on and then grabbed my broom, walking down to the common room. I was going to fly around the grounds a little, maybe clearing my head with the fresh air. 

The common room was totally empty and also in the halls was nobody in sight. I smiled, because being alone was what I really needed right now. 

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After I had flown about half and hour, my hands and feet were frozen and I was shaking from the cold, so I decided to go back inside. While I mad my way back to the Gryffindor tower, I met some students who were having breakfast already. I greeted some of them, but didn't stop for a chat. 

Back in the girls dorm I found Ash, who was just getting ready to go to breakfast and Aya, who was looking like a zombie. She probably forgot to take her make-up off last night and so it was all around her eyes. Even with all that makeup smudged over her face, I could still see that she had huge bags under her eyes, making me assume that she didn't sleep very much last night. 

"How are you awake? It is so early!", she mumbled, putting her blanket over her face to fall back asleep. 

"It's half past eight. When were you home last night?", Ash asked while she brushed through her hair to give it that messy look that James also loved. 

"At four, but even if I had been to bed early, half past eight is still way to early in the morning!", Aya said angrily. 

"Was everyone so late?", I asked, curious to find out what happened yesterday and kind of sad that I didn't go. Damn, why didn't I go? I didn't get any answer from my best friend and so I decided to wait downstairs for her. When I walked into the common room, I saw Remus tumbling in through the portal. Had he been up all night?!

"Remus, what on earth is going on?", I asked him after walking over to a chair next to the door that he sat on. 

"Yup. I think I might still be a little drunk.", Remus said and I nodded. I could have figured that our myself anyways, since his eyes were half closed, trying to concentrate and he definitely smelled like Firewhiskey. "Where were you all night?"

"Well, first we were in the dorm, drinking. Then we though that it might be a good idea to go outside and on our way we met Isabella and her friends.", Remus said and my stomach flipped upside-down. WHY THE FUCK DID THEY HAVE TO MEET ISABELLA? "So we all went outside together and looked at the stars. And everyone was kissing, really fun."

"With everyone, are you including yourself?", I asked, afraid of the answer. If he said yes, it would probably break my heart again and I would be so jealous of that stupid Isabella. My throat tightened and it felt like it was harder to breathe. 

"Yeah, I kissed Isabella again."

"Good for you.",  I said, but I almost didn't hear my own words anymore.  I felt like a huge wave of emotions was crashing down on me, hate on Isabella, hate on myself for crushing on my best friend, hate on Remus for kissing Isabella, Jealousy, and surprisingly, love. I felt that I loved Remus more than I had admitted to myself and I had a huge urge to just kiss him here and now, to show him that I was a better kisser than stupid Isabella. 

"Well, I have to go to bed now, I am tired as fuck.", Remus said and I could see that he was almost falling asleep while he was standing. I nodded and watched him as  he walked to the stairs and then disappeared. 

Fri- 31. October 1977

"Come on, this is going to be fun!", Aya said excitedly as she checked her vampire outfit in the mirror. 

"I don't like parties.", I said, and I didn't really lie because every time I thought of a party, I had to think about Remus and Isabella kissing as well. Aya rolled her eyes and put both her hands on my shoulders: "Kiss him, tell him how you feel, merlin's beard, do ANYTHING!" 

"But he clearly- "

"- is too afraid to tell you himself? Yes. But you have to get this off your chest, Scar. This is making you more depressed than you usually are!", Aya said and smirked. "Hey, I am not usually depressed!", I exclaimed and laughed. Okay, maybe I would give this party a shot.