What a Feeling, Katrina Burgin [self help books to read txt] 📗

it was like pulling teeth. I could tell they didn’t want to be here. Hell I didn’t want them here with me. My brother and my dog are literally the only ones I miss back home. And now I’m here, in this room with you of all people,” I laughed, and Calvin laughed as well. “And I told you my whole life story. Which I don’t normally do ‘cause I don’t trust easily. So whenever I get into a mood don’t take it personally. I don’t mean to be like that, it’s how I deal with shit. I bottle everything up and one random day I blow up and lose my shit. I’m literally like the hulk. Just don’t get in my way and you’ll be okay,” I laughed as I wiped a tear away. Calvin jumped off his bed and pranced over to mine and sat down next to me and put his arm around me. “It’s gonna be okay Kacey. You got me here with you to push you into the right direction. I’ll be your biggest fan Kacey, as long as you’ll be mine?” Calvin asked pulling away from me and looking me in the eyes and smiling. “I’ll be you’re biggest fan Calvin, forever and always,” I said sniffling. “You know what would end this amazing night?” Calvin asked. “What?” I asked in return. “Watching the Fault in Our Stars,” he said jumping out of the bed and grabbing the movie and putting it into the blu-ray player. “I absolutely love this movie!!” I jumped up and down while he got everything ready. “Good cause this movie is my fucking life,” Calvin said getting comfortable in his bed and all snuggled into his covers. We then watched the movie, we laughed and we cried and then we fell asleep, just as the sun was starting to rise.

 

Chapter Three

 

By the time I woke up, it was already 3:30 in the afternoon. I looked over at Calvin who was still asleep. I got up and looked in the mirror; I was horrified at what I saw. My hair was literally looking like a lion’s mane. It was horrible and I had drool in the corner of my mouth. I was just looking a hot mess. That’s when I heard sleeping beauty wake up and stretch. “Good morning Kacey,” Calvin said in his sleepy voice. I grunted and then took a sip of water and answered him “Good morning. One thing about me, I’m not a morning person.” I said and laid back in bed. “Good cause I’m not either. I hate the morning which is why I’m taking only afternoon and night classes,” he said laying back down and pulling his blanket over his face. “Me too, I can’t stand morning classes and morning people. There is literally something really wrong with morning people. I just want to punch them in the face,” I said balling my hands into little fists. “Well it looks like its party day; do you have anything to wear?” I asked looking at my closet, debating on if I wanted to get out of bed and see what I have to wear. The struggle was too real. The mention of the party, Calvin sat right up and started freaking out. “Oh my god, Kacey, I completely forgot all about that damn party. We need to go shopping and get outfits,” he said jumping out of bed and throwing on running shorts, a t-shirt, and running shoes. His sense of urgency made me nervous. “Okay give me a sec, I need to brush my teeth and do something with this damn hair,” I said putting on my Nike sports bar, tank top, and a pair of yoga pants and my favorite black vans with the purple laces. I went to go brush my teeth and when I came back Calvin was sitting on the floor trying to figure out when we should arrive and when we should leave. “Calvin you okay?” I asked stroking his beautiful golden blonde hair. “Yeah girl you ready?” he said looking at me with his emerald green eyes. “Okay lets’ go. But first where the hell do we go? This is literally our second day here in La and we know no one. Better yet we don’t know where anything is,” I said starting to lose my cool. I hate not having a set plan to go off. I need a plan or I just shut down. It’s very OCD of me. “I know the perfect place to go shopping. I saw it on my here to the campus,” he said with a gleam in his eyes. “Okay lead the way my friend,” I said through a clenched jaw. I hate not being in control of things. It’s just one of the many things that bothers me. We walk down the five flights of stairs with ease, and leave the building within minutes. By the time we get to the parking lot I already have my keys in my hand and we walk to my car which is a 2014 black ford mustang gt with tinted windows and black rims. “Get in,” I said. “Whoa girl, this car is fucking sexy. Remind me to always drive with you, always!” Calvin said touching my car like it was his boy toy. “Okay, okay stop touching the car like it’s a virgin. It’s just a car, by the way you will call my car by his name,” I said with a straight face. Calvin looked at me like I was out of my mind and started laughing. When he saw that I wasn’t laughing and being serious he asked “What’s this gorgeous cars name? Do I even want to know?” he asked. “My cars name is Tony Stark aka Iron Man,” I said. “After my favorite actor aka my future husband and the father of my children, Robert Downy Jr.,” I said. After I said that, I told him to buckle up and hold on. I then peeled out of the parking lot. We got to the stop sign and he got out his phone and googled the directions to the store, once he had them up he told me to make a right and we were on our way.

 

Chapter Four

 

We were driving for maybe twenty minutes. I had my AUX cord in and we were just jamming with the roof down and our hair blowing in the wind. We had our ray bans on and at that moment we were on top of the world. When we arrived at the boutique, Calvin was literally jumping out of his seat with so much excitement. It was so infections that I started getting really excited, although I hate clothe shopping and never find anything that looks right on my boobs or hips. It’s such a hit or miss when it comes to looking for something sexy, I either look like a nun or a slut. There is no in between with me and clothes. Thank god I had Calvin with me though; he knows how to dress and said he was going to make me look like a bombshell without showing all my goods. When we walked in it was like a little kid’s closet with all the pink in there. If there is one thing about me, it’s that I absolutely hate pink! “Kacey you look like you’re about to vomit,” Calvin said walking up to me with this hideous pink ruffled dress in his hands. “Calvin what the hell is that in your hands?” I asked feeling appalled that he would think I would wear that. “Oh, god, Kacey this isn’t for you! I saw it and was disgusted that they would even have something like this here. It looks like the 80’s threw up all over this dress,” Calvin said laughing. “Oh thank god that wasn’t for me. I was about to punch you in the throat and leave you here,” I said rolling my eyes. “Well aren’t you just the violent one today,” Calvin said winking at me and laughing. We finally walked over to the black and red dresses and started looking at some. “So Kacey, with an ass like that and tits like those, what size do you wear?” Calvin asked while picking out some red dresses. “Well Calvin it really depends on the dress. I normally wear a size six in flowy dresses but when it comes to a more fitted dress that shows my curves I go up a size,” I said picking up this really cute black lace dress. “Okay perfect, no flowy dresses tonight sista. We are going to slay this party and all eyes will literally be on us, just how I like it,” Calvin said while putting the lace dress I picked up back. “I have four dresses for you to try on. They are formfitting and we will pick the shoes after we pick the dress for you,” Calvin stated handing me the four dresses. “Well I have shoes already, so no need to get shoes,” I said taking the dresses form him and started walking to the fitting rooms. “Fine whatever you say Kacey,” Calvin said, while flopping down on a couch next to the fitting rooms. “Now go and try these damn dresses on, I can’t wait to see your hot body,” Calvin said winking at me. “Ugh, fine Calvin I’m going to try them on. But I’m warning you, I hate trying on clothes and prancing around like I’m on display for these people to gawk at me,” I said in protest to this whole shopping trip. Calvin started laughing at me, “Kacey you need to just try them on and show me so I know what I’m working with here. Now shut up and try the dresses on. If you need help zipping them up just call and I’ll be glad to help you.” As I was undressing myself and putting the first dress on, I heard Calvin talking to someone out there and it seemed like he was having a better time than I was having trying on this damn dresses. I was annoyed ‘because I didn’t want to go dress shopping for this stupid party. I slipped into this red and black skin tight dress that pushed my girls up and made my ass look great. I stared in the mirror, I was shocked because I’ve never seen this side of myself and as much as I would hate to admit it, but Calvin was right, showing my curves in the right way made me feel sexy for the first time in my life. The dress was so pretty, it came a little above my knee and the black part of the dress was mesh and it was actually easy to breathe in it. “Kacey are you ready to show me the first dress?” Calvin asked me. “Uh, yeah I’m ready to show you the first dress. But don’t get all mushy when you see me okay?” I told him. “I won’t my dear, I promise. Plus I want you to meet someone when you come out,” Calvin said to me. “Okay, here I come,” I said shyly to Calvin and his new friend. When I drew back the curtain, Calvin’s jaw dropped and his new friend was eyeing me up in down in an approving way. “Kacey, holy shit! You look fucking amazing!!! Who would’ve thought that, that banging body was underneath all those loose fitting shorts and t-shirts?” Calvin said while staring at me. “Girl you are looking all sorts of hot in this dress!” Calvin’s new friend said. “Oh I forgot to introduce you guys, Kacey this is Simi, Simi this is Kacey,” Calvin said to the both of us. “Hello Simi, nice to meet you.” I said to Simi. “Oh honey the pleasure is all mine. You are working that damn dress. You have an awesome body! Flaunt that