What a Feeling, Katrina Burgin [self help books to read txt] 📗

of sweats and a tank top. I threw them on and grabbed my keys and walked out of the room to the stairs leaving Calvin to himself. On my way to my car I kept thinking about how much my mother pissed me off. I wanted her out of my life for good. I needed to do something that would wreck their picture perfect image and show that they aren’t who they claim to be. I breezed down the five flights of stairs. I walked outside and to my car, just in time to see Simi walking towards me. She saw the look on my face when I stormed past her. “Whoa girl, slow down,” Simi said running to keep up with me. “Simi not now. I’m not in the mood for anyone right now,” I mumbled. I got to my car and let the top down. I was waiting for Calvin to hurry the hell up. “Kace, what is going on? Calvin called me saying that you were going insane and I hurried here. So do you mind telling me what’s gotten you so worked up,” she asked. “Simi not now, I just don’t feel like talking. It has to do with my parents and I’m just not in the mood to go through it all,” I said sitting on the hood waiting for Calvin to hurry up. “Okay so give me the short story and we can get on with it,” Simi insisted. “Fine you want the short story, here ya go. My parents are pieces of shit who contradict themselves into thinking they are the picture perfect family. I didn’t want to be a doctor or lawyer so they cut my funding. They think I’m not going to go anywhere with my music degree. They make you feel like you’re two feet tall when they talk to you, and now all of the sudden because my younger brother wants to move here to be with me, they decided that wherever he goes they go. But when I wanted to move here I was told that this was a hippy state and no one here ever gets where they want in life,” I yelled. “There, ya happy. You now know my wonderful life and my amazing family,” I yelled while throwing my hands up in the air. Calvin finally arrived to my car and looked at me and then at Simi. Simi and I were sitting in silence for a good five minutes. I wasn’t the least bit cooled off and Calvin was sensing that. “Well I called Ben and him and Ty are waiting for us at the house,” Calvin said to me. I looked up and started the car. I waited for him and Simi to get into the car before I peeled off. It took us all of five minutes to get to Ty’s frat house. When I pulled up I saw Ben and him waiting for us. Simi got out of the car and walked up to the house to see Tim. She looked back before going into the house and waved to us. We waved back and then I turned to see Ty and Ben walking towards the car. “Damn Kace, I didn’t know you liked cars like this,” Ty said coming around the car and giving me a kiss. He must’ve seen the look on my face. “What’s wrong? Did I do something wrong?” he asked with a worried look on his face. I had to admit that he looked cute when he was worried. It was actually nice seeing someone besides Calvin and Simi care. “Yeah I’m fine,” I said with a fake smile. “Kacey, what is going on? I know I just met you but I can tell when something is bothering someone. It’s like a gift of something,” he said. “Ty nothing is wrong. I just don’t want to talk about it. Just get in the car so we can go get something to eat,” I said getting annoyed.

 

Chapter Nine

 

I wasn’t really in the mood to be around people, let alone Ty, Ben, and Calvin. I was still pissed about the phone call with my lovely mother. Calvin and Ty wanted Mexican food, so we went to this little hole in the wall place to eat. We got out of the car and Ty came over to me and pulling me in for a bear hug. I couldn’t lie, this was a great feeling. I like being in his arms, it just felt right. He held me for a while; Calvin and Ben went inside and got us a table. Ty stepped back and looked at me with a worried face; he asked again what was wrong with me. I didn’t want to tell him about everything that was wrong me and have him look at me different. I told him he had nothing to worry about, and that I was just having an off day. I locked my car and we walked into the restaurant. Calvin had his hand in the air for us to see where Ben and he were at; we sat down and ordered some drinks. Calvin looked at me and whispered if everything was okay. I winked at him and nodded my head in a yes motion. I looked down at the menu and asked what Ty was going to get. “I think I’m going to get a couple of tacos with rice and beans. What’re you getting to eat?” he asked me. “I have no idea, I’m not really that hungry but I know I’m going to have to eat something before I get sick,” I said matter of factly. I looked at Ben and Calvin and just smiled; they looked so content with their lives and had not a care in world. I envied that so much. I wanted what they were starting to have. I looked back at Ty and he was talking and laughing with the both of them. Everything was in slow motion, at that moment I didn’t feel mad or sad, I didn’t feel empty. I told myself that I will never let my parents get the best of me. They didn’t even deserve that much from me. All I could think about was how can I tarnish their name and make them look like shit. My wheels were starting to turn and I had a few thoughts but nothing concert just yet. All I know was it had to happen when they come down to see me during homecoming weekend, I’ll have to get Calvin (which won’t be hard at all) and Simi on board. It’s going to be great. I snapped back into reality when Calvin called my name, “earth to Kacey, is anyone in there?” he asked looking me over one time to make sure everything was in the right places. All I could do was laugh at him, “yeah I’m fine, you know me, I like to gaze off and just get lost in my thoughts,” I said at him. He looked at Ty and Ben, who in returned looked at me like I was an alien. “Guy’s I promise I’m okay. Just have a lot on my mind,” I said trying to convenience myself that everything was okay. We finally ordered some food, and about ten minutes later we were chowing down on some good ass Mexican food. We finished up out food left out tips and paid for our food and got back into my car. Ty called shotgun and Calvin was just fine with that. Ben and Calvin got nice and cozy in the backseat and started making out. Ty looked at me and smiled and leaned over to kiss me, I kissed him back and laughed. He made me feel like a kid again. I got butterflies every time he touched my body or looked at me. We smiled at each other and then I plugged my phone into the AUX and blast my music and we went cursing downtown LA. By the time we got back to campus it was already twenty past two. We drove back to Ty and Ben’s frat house where we met up with Simi and Tim. They were laughing when we walked up to the house. We all decided that we didn’t want to go to bed just yet. We all hopped back into my car and drove to the beach. When we got there, I let my hair down, took my sweats and tank top off along with my shoes. Ty just looked at me and grinned, he took his basketball shorts and shirt off and kicked his shoes off and chased me to the ocean. Calvin and Ben stayed behind for a little while doing god knows what. Simi and Tim followed in our direction and splashed in the water with us. I couldn’t believe that this was my life. I was literally on top of the world. Maybe thirty minutes later Calvin and Ben came to join us, they must’ve gotten into my trunk and synced my phone to it because they came up jamming to How Deep Is Your Love by Calvin Harris and Disciples, I couldn’t help but dancing with Calvin and Simi. The guys decided to join us and we were having a grind fest and started to mix out body sweat with one another. My heart was pounding along with the beat of the song. Ty surprisingly kept up with me and we were in sync and I loved every moment of it. We got lost in our own little world and didn’t bother with the others. After the song was over we finally looked up to see Calvin, Simi, Tim and Ben looking at us. Not even two second later we were all in the sand laughing. That night was probably the best night of my life.

 

Chapter Ten

 

Calvin, Simi, Tim, Ben, Ty and I were still awake when the sun was starting to rise. I couldn’t help hold my breath at how beautiful the sky looked in the morning. I turned back and looked at Ty, “don’t make this a habit Ty. Once school starts no more late nights that turn into early mornings,” I said laughing. He looked down at me and just kissed me tenderly. I looked back out at the sun rise and the ocean. About five minutes later we all decided that it was time for us to go back to school and get some sleep. I made everyone make sure that all the sand was off of them before they got back into my car. Once we all cleaned up, we jumped in the car and I let Ty drive this time, I was tired and he was begging on our way back up to the car to drive it back to campus. He was off to the races and was speeding like a motherfucker. I loved the way the air hit my face and I peeked over at him and he was staring at me. I started to panic, “uhhhh Ty what in the hell are you looking at me and not the road?” I started to feel my heart race and he just smiled and winked at me. I sat back into my seat making a mental note to never let him drive my car again. He placed his hand on my thigh which shockingly calmed me down. We arrived back to campus and Ty drove us back to his place. He parked the car and got out. We all looked relieved to not be dead from his driving. We all walked up to the house and upstairs into our own rooms. Ty closed the door behind us and threw me to the bed. My heart raced but I was ready for whatever was coming next. Ty looked at me with hungry eyes and climbed on top of me and started kissing me passionately. I reached up to take