What a Feeling, Katrina Burgin [self help books to read txt] 📗

crazy. We were talking about all the craziness that went on last night and laughing like there was no tomorrow. We had two more days before we started out classes, and were not looking forward to starting school. We got to our building and started walking up the five flights of stairs. “You know I don’t think we’ll ever get used to walking these damn stairs,” I said to Calvin. “Girl ain’t that the truth. I feel like we are going to lose weight from walking up and down these stairs every day,” Calvin said while taking slow and steady breaths. We finally reached out floor, and walked to our room. I took my key out and we unlocked the door. We walked in and literally the first thing we did was go to our beds, and take a deep sigh. I was over wearing my dress, so I unzipped it and kicked my shoes off and lay back down in my bed in my bra and underwear. Calvin had the same idea and took his clothes off and was in nothing but his boxer briefs and laid back into his bed as well. “You don’t mind that I’m laying here in my bra and underwear, are you?” I asked feeling self-conscious. “Girl you are fine. I’m too tired to even care about that right now. I need some more sleep. Nap??” he asked. “A nap sounds amazing. I just need to shower before I sleep. I can’t take the smell of beer anymore,” I said sitting up and reaching for my shower caddy and towel. “Okay, leave the water running for me,” he said getting up and walking to the fridge to grab a water bottle. “Will do,” I said to him and walked into our bathroom and closed the door and started running the water to right temperature. I took my bra and underwear off and got in the shower. I was just letting the water hit my face and I started thinking about last night and how amazing Ty was. I wet my hair and got my shampoo out and put some in my hands and started massaging my scalp. I love washing my hair, after I rinsed the shampoo out I got my conditioner out and applied it to my hair and started washing my body. When I was done washing the soap of I turned around so I could rinse the conditioner out of my hair. Once I was done I jumped out and left the water running for Calvin. I wrapped my hair in a towel and then dried my body off, put lotion on me. I wrapped myself back into my towel and opened the door, and walked to my bed. Calvin was up and eating gold fish just waiting for me to get out. The minute I reached my bed Calvin got up and got his towel and walked to the bathroom. I went over to my drawer and got boy shorts and a sport bar out and put them on before Calvin got out of the shower. Just as I was fixing my bar Calvin walked out of the bathroom and threw his towel on his chair. “Dude you have no idea how good it feels to be sleeping in my own bed,” I said to Calvin as I sat on my bed. “Girl, who you telling, I missed my bed so much last night. Speaking of last night, how’d it go with Ty?” Calvin asked wiggling his eyebrows up and down. I started laughing, “well to be completely honest, it went amazing. Ty and I just talked and got to know each other. We drank a couple of beers and ended the night with him pulling me towards him and we cuddled and went to sleep,” I stated. “So, what are you guys going to do now? Are you going to start dating? I mean you guys are so cute together. And the way he looked at you was amazing. He looked at you like you were the only person in the room last night. I was telling Simi that if I could get a guy to look at me the way he looked at you, then I would be set in life,” Calvin said holding his pillow to his chest. “It’s fun. Maybe something will come out of this maybe not. I’m just gonna take it literally one step at a time, and hope for the best.” I said to Calvin. “Well just know that you guys look great together. Oh you were amazing when you sang Sweet Talker by Jessie J. like you slayed! Everyone was talking about how amazing your voice is. Simi got hella jealous at how much attention you were getting. That’s why she was all over Tim.” Calvin said rolling his eyes. “She was jealous of me?” I exclaimed. “That’s crazy, if anyone should be jealous of someone it’s me of her. She’s absolutely stunning and all the guys were literally eye fucking her every time she walked past them,” I said to Calvin. “Oh girl I know. You know girls can be insecure when they are used to getting all the attention and when they don’t get it anymore that’s when they start acting crazy,” Calvin said to me. “It is what it is. I was just trying to have a good time and forget about everything,” I said feeling myself get irritated. “Oh I know. It happens to the best of us. I just don’t get why girls get like that,” Calvin said starting to get irritated himself. “It’s whatever, let’s just take a nap and when we wake up go find something to eat,” I said lying down and pulling my covers back and wrapping myself up. “That sounds amazing. I need to catch up on some much needed beauty rest,” Calvin said laying down and facing me. I turned over and started drifted to sleep. “Goodnight, Calvin,” I whispered quietly to him thinking he hadn’t heard me. “Goodnight Kacey,” he whispered back.

 

Chapter Eight

 

When I opened my eyes I looked over to see Calvin still asleep. I slept for what seemed like forever. But it was only a couple of hours. I went for my phone which I kept under my pillow for some reason I don’t know. I had three missed texts and a missed phone call from my mother. I saw that my little brother text me asking how I was liking it there so far. I had another text from Ty telling me that he had a wonderful night and hopes to see me for round two tonight. My third text was from Simi, saying that she made it to her dorm safely and will be over to our dorm around seven. I looked to see what time it was and it said 5:45pm. I looked back to see if Calvin was still sleeping, he was. I was dreading calling my mother to see what she wanted. She never called unless it was something important. I unlocked my phone and replied to everyone that text me and then I called my mother. The phone rang three times and then she picked up. “Hello,” my mother said into the phone. “Hello mother, I saw you called. What can you possibly want?” I said. “Don’t be rude Kacey, I am your mother,” she said defensively. “Yeah I’m fully aware that. You and dad make sure I know who’s in charge of me every time you get. So what it is? Why’d you call?” I asked feeling myself getting irritated. There was just something about my mother that just set me over the edge. She can literally turn my great day upside down. It never fails. She was quite for a second. “Well I’m waiting. Have things I need to do so can we please just save the dramatics for a day when I actually care?” I asked. “Kacey, how dare you talk to me like that? I’ve done nothing but be there for you and this is the thanks I get?” she asked. “Oh yeah that’s right. You and dad were so supportive of me going to school for music that you guys ripped my check for this year’s tuition. I mean if that isn’t support then I don’t know what is. You and dad win most supportive parents,” I said raising my voice and waking Calvin. I looked over to him and mouthed sorry. “Kacey stop it this instant. You know your father and I love you very much and we support you with whatever you want to do with your life. Even though we believe you won’t get far with this degree we support you,” my mother said. “Wow mom, did you just hear what you said. You don’t believe I’m going to get far in life with this degree? You amaze me each time you open your mouth. Do you ever just sit and think before you say something like that? I want nothing to do with you or dad. Keep your money; keep your speeches, save it for someone who actually gives a damn about what you and dad have to say. Now again, what did you call me for?” I asked feeling my anger get the best of me. “I can see you are still upset with the whole tuition situation, and I do apologize for making you feel a certain way. We just don’t get it. Explain it to us, explain why this is what you chose. And I called to tell you that your brother is now following in your footsteps and is wanting to follow you to California. I just wanted to let you know that if he moves there we will be moving with him. Therefore you will be seeing a lot of us,” she said. “You’ve got to be kidding me. You and dad made such a fuss that I wanted to move here and now that Briah has decided to look at schools here you want to jump that bandwagon? What happened to this is a hippy state and no one here is going to amount to anything?” I asked. “Kacey, just get over yourself. I’m tired of hearing you make excuses for everything in life. You say you want a certain life style then you get that. We can’t make you go down the right path. You chose to do this to yourself, not your father and I,” my mother hissed. “You’re right mother. I chose this, and I’m sorry I messed yours and dads perfect fucking picture up. I’m sorry that you feel the need to talk down to me when you aren’t getting what you wanted,” I said hanging up the phone. “Ugh I’m fucking pissed right now! How dare her! How fucking dare her?!” I screamed. “Kace, calm down. What happened?” Calvin said walking over to my bed and holding me. “Calvin, I swear to god my family is so fucked up. So fucked up. I hate my mother and father so much! They aren’t picture fucking perfect! How dare they sit there on their pedestal thinking that I owe them! I owe them fucking nothing!” I said crying from frustration. “I need a fucking drink like right now!” I said pushing past Calvin and going to the bottle of Jack I had. “Kace, I don’t think drinking is going to make the situation any better. Let’s go for a walk and maybe meet up with Ty and Ben and grab something to eat,” Calvin offered. “Fine get dressed. I’ll be waiting in the car. I need a little time to cool the fuck off,” I said throwing on my vans and pulling my hair back into a messy bun. “Uh Kacey, did you want to put on some clothes?” Calvin asked looking me up and down. “Fuck my life!” I said looking down at just my bra and underwear. I looked for a pair