What if i love you, brea isomee [highly illogical behavior TXT] 📗

felt . My body got completely taken over by lust and want and i cann't stop . It's wrong , so wrong , taboo even , but i can't bring myself to stop .

He pulled away enough to look into my eyes . And i can't help but wonder what's on his mind . The way he looks at me is like i'm the only girl in the world , the only one he'd ever think of . . . but i'm his sister , he can't be thinking like that .

" move ."

His face turned from lust to confusion but he didn't move , he just kept looking down at me . He doesn't want to move , i can tell and i don't want him to either but , it it what it right , right ? I won't have sex with my own brother , it is bad enough we kissed and felt the way we do .

" why ? "

" why what ?" He asked as he slowly kissed down the side of my neck .

" why do you want me ? I'm your sister -"

He rolled his eyes " don't you think i know that ? Do you think i want to feel like this ? "

" no , but -"

" but nothing . I see you walking around here everyday and i know you know what's up . I'm trying so hard , so damn hard ."

I believe him , it looks like it's paining him not to be able to do what he would do to any other girl to me . And i want him to , it's unbelievable how bad i want him to .

" be mines ," he mumbled against my lips as he kissed me again . " please , be mines ."

What am i supposed to say ?! No is out of the question . I want to be his , but it will bring along too many different things . Like , what if somebody finds out ? We'd both be labeled . I'll lose the sanity i have left and he'll just shrug and continue on about his day like nothing ever happened . I want a relationship , to be happy , to show public affection , i can't do those things with him .

So i opened my mouth to tell him no , i want to tell him we can't be together because we are brother and sister , i should want to push him off of me , but in reality i want to do none of that so i did it . I said the answer that i know will bring about the most problems but make us the happiest " yes ," i whispered " yes yes yes ."

He smiled down at me and began to lick my neck causing me to moan in pleasure , it felt so good but it wasn't supposed to . Oh no .

I pulled his face back up to mine " don't ."

" why not ?"

" because , " i don't have a reason , i'm supposed to be his but i can't get over the fact that he is my brother , no matter how deep my feelings are for him we can't go that far . . . . not yet anyways " just because ."

He backed off of me and sat on the end of my bed " wanna go get breakfast ?"

I smiled down at him for more than one reason " sure , i would love to ."

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-Damon-

" sure i would love to ." She said as she smiled at me , showing her dimples and her eyes brightening just a little .

I asked her to be my girl , i groaned internally , i know it was the wrong move . I should have just let it be and let my feelings for her slowly fade away , but they never had . Over that past few years my feelings for her have only doubled , making this way harder . But i felt helpless , i want to call her mines and i can now , even if it is just in the privacy of our own home .

Through out breakfast i watched Destiny eat . I watched how her lips curled onto the glass when she drinks making her dimples sink in a little , i watched how she opens her mouth to eat each bite . Man , everything is turning me on . She is doing it on purpose . When she caught me looking at her she just blushed and ate even more seductively . She knows what she's was doing , and if she doesn't watch it i'll have no choice but to take her .

" you two are awfully quiet " my mother said halfway through breakfast " you're usually cutting eachother's thoats by now ."

We both laughed and i spoke to my mother without taking my eyes from Destiny " we made a deal , no more fighting , right ?"

Destiny shook her head " right ."

" well , i'll say , i can live with that , at least you two aren't driving me up a damn wall ."

I chuckled and finished off my food then i took a quick shower and got ready to go out . Me and Jessie have a lunch date in a few hours and i have to go to the mall and pick up a new pair of shoes anyway .

" where are you going ?" Destiny asked as i was standing at the front door on the phone with Jessie .

" hold on Jessie ," i took the phone away from my ear and pulled Destiny's body close to mines " i'm going out with Jessie . "

" oh ."

She began squirming trying to get out of my grip but we both know well enough she isn't going anywhere .

I laughed " it's just lunch ."

She shrugged " that's your business , not mines . I guess i'll just go out with Tj then ."

I let her go and pinned her body up against the wall and said right before i planted a long wet kiss onto her lips " you ain't going nowhere ."

She rolled her eyes and mumbled under her breath as she walked away " watch me ."

All i can do is laugh . Destiny is one of them girls who doesn't like to be told what to do , who thinks she's right all the time , who thinks everyone is out to get her when that's never the case .

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Chapter one - part 2

-Destiny-

I slung my book bag over my shoulder and began to make my way into the school building . Good thing this is the last week left of school before summer break because i'm sure i can't make it another month or 2 . School is like an ultimate low for me . Don't get me wrong , i've got quite a few friends but school just isn't my thing . I only go because of my mom , if she wasn't in the picture school wouldn't be either .

" was supp ?"

I don't turn to see who's behind me because i know whoever it is has a big grin on their face too early on this Monday morning . I continued to stuff my jacket and book bag into my locker , grabbed a notebook and 2 pencils , and then i decided to turn around . It's Jamal . The cutie Jamal . He's Damon's friend but he's really cool . I've know him since forever , i guess i was about 4 or 5 when him and Damon met each other , and with me and Damon it's like a package deal : if you meet him you meet me not long after . And i'm very love-able !

" hi Jay ."

" what ? You finally decided to turn around and acknowledge me , i'm shocked ."

I cracked a smile and locked my arm with his so he could walk me through the crowded halls to my class " because , you're always so happy on Monday morning . It makes me sick ."

" oh , so you hatin' now ? I'm not all grumpy like you ."

" grumpy ?!" i playfully punched him " i'm not grumpy . I'm just a little , not happy all the time ."

We both laughed as we swerved in and out of the crowd and i said hi to a couple people i know . High school , it's not as exciting as i thought it'd be . When i was in 8th grade i couldn't wait till i could finally get to 9th . But now , in 11th i can't wait for this last year to pass . High school is nothing but boy problems , backstabbing friends and drama . Lots and lots of drama .

" here you are ," we stopped in front of my class just as the first bell sounded signaling we only had 10 minutes left to get to our class rooms " see you at lunch ."

" okay , bye ."

I watched as he walked away back in the direction we'd come . He is truly a nice person , although i know he has a bad side , i know that for a fact because i've seen it . But he never lashes out on me at all . He walks me to class every morning and every time i see him outside of school he gives me candy of some sort . I know , i know , i'm not a kid but i love candy with an absolute passion . And he takes the time out of his day to make me smile , i actually think he has a crush on me . And i can't deny , i might feel something for him . Might !

I sat in the row from the back of the class by one of the only girls i truly trust , Jasmine . She's a very sweet girl if i must say . She's always there when i need her , she's smart in class and she's funny too . We're like , best friends , only we're not best friends . Get it ? Got it ? Good .

" hey Jass ."

" hey , girl . " she looked through her glasses at me " you okay ?"

" yes , i'm perfect ."

She rolled her eyes but kept quiet .

I rolled my eyes too " come on Jass , when have you ever known me to be happy on a Monday ."

She thought are adjusted her glasses on her face " good point ."

She bothers me with the glasses . She doesn't even need them ! They're the glasses that Chris Brown wears , you know , the over sized ones . I've even seen Kanye West and Jay-Z with them too . I don't get it though . If they're not prescription then take them the hell off ! End of story . You will never catch