Chasing Away the Demons, Kayla Stiles [book club books .TXT] 📗

   Because of Seth’s harsh words, Dana constantly hides her natural beauty behind dark and heavy makeup. She hides the beauty of her sparkling blue eyes by ringing them with heavy black kohl eyeliner, turning her eyes grey. She wears lipstick red enough to stain her lips the color of blood. Her hair is always long and in her face and her body always shrouded by black clothing and jewelry, as well as chains. She tries her hardest to go unnoticed and blend into the shadows at school. At home, she stays cooped up in her room day and night. She only comes out to eat, talk to her mom, use the restroom, or go to school. She has no friends. She is a loner by definition.
     One day, however, someone does notice Dana at school finally. His name is Esai Randall. He is a freshman at the high school. He is tall, with long shoulder- length dark brown hair, gorgeous twinkling brown eyes, and tan skin. He saw Dana trudging along to school, carrying her guitar as usual, wearing her usual black clothing. Today, she has on knee-high female combat boots, black fishnet stockings, a black and red Tripp skirt, and a black corset-style spaghetti strap shirt. Over this outfit, she has on a black jacket that is a couple sizes too big for her. Black shades hide her eyes from the sun.
     Suddenly, Dana’s guitar case falls open and out pops her red and black acoustic guitar and all of her sheet music. Dana falls to the ground and begins scrambling to get all of her music before the wind does. After a couple of minutes, she sits back on her heels and begins to cry in frustration and pain. She clutches her side and winces as the pain races throughout her torso; her stepfather had slammed the door on her while she was entering the house the night before and had ended up bruising her ribcage.
     A tap on her shoulder startles her and she jumps with a gasp. Esai reaches down and hands her the rest of her sheet music, the very music that she had feared the wind had gotten.
     Removing her shades, Dana wipes away her tears and looks down at the ground as she accepts the papers from Esai.
     “Thank you,” she murmurs as she places the papers and guitar gingerly back into the case.
     “No problem,” Esai says. Then, “You’re Dana…right?”
     Dana, startled, looks up sharply at Esai and replies, “Maybe. Who wants to know?”
     Esai raises his arms and replies, “Hey, I’m just the guy who saw a beautiful girl in trouble and came over to help her out.”
     Dana sighs and says, “Sorry. It’s just, I’m not used to people knowing who I am. I try to avoid that.”
     “Well, I would like to know you more. I have like half of my classes with you and you always sit in the back and look so depressed. I’d like to help, if I can.” Esai offers Dana a hand and she takes it, reluctantly, and lets him pull her to her feet.
     As they start waling to school again, this time together, Dana mutters, “I’m not beautiful.”
     “Hm?” Esai says. “What was that?”
     “I’m not beautiful,” Dana says again. “I never was. And I never will be.”
     Esai grabs her arm and stops walking, pulling Dana around to face him. Looking into her eyes, he replies,         “Yes. You are beautiful. Never say that you’re not. Cuz you’re wrong. You are absolutely gorgeous.” It is at this point that Esai truly falls in love with Dana. Looking into her beautiful big blue eyes, he feels entranced and becomes lost in her eyes.
     Another tear falls from Dana’s eye and slides down her cheek as she shakes her head and whispers hoarsely, “No. I’m really not. I am a monster.”
     Shaking his own head, Esai says, “No.” Leaning in, he lightly presses his lips to Dana’s. It is the sweetest thing that Dana has ever tasted and her heart skips a beat in a swell of emotions.
     As Esai pulls away, he mutters softly, “I like you…a lot…maybe even love you. Please don’t turn me down. And please, let me show you that you ARE beautiful. Please, will you be mine?”
     Without thinking, Dana nods her head and breathes, “Yes.”
     Smiling from ear to ear, Esai takes Dana’s hand in his and begins walking again.
     At school, there’s a big hullaballoo about the new Emo couple. Whispers surround them as they walk around the school together, hands clasped together, oblivious to everyone else.
     Dana is on Cloud Nine the whole school day.
     But then she gets home and everything crashes down to earth again. She tells her mom about her new boyfriend, unaware that her stepfather is just around the corner, listening to every word she says. Seth charges out from around the corner and towards Dana with murder in his drunkard’s bloodshot eyes. He begins to beat and pummel on her, bruising her body.
     By the next day, the town has heard of Dana’s misfortune and all believe her to be dead.
     That evening, Esai, depressed and broken hearted by the news of his love’s death, goes to the school yard and drives a knife into his heart, literally breaking it in half.
     Dana, having left her house to get away and come to the school yard to think, emerges from the bushes then at that moment and sees the corpse of her dead love. She races over to him and holds him in her arms, crying hysterically over his dead body. Her eyeliner runs down her face in streams. She feels completely in the dark now that her only light is gone, completely and totally devoid of life now that her only life boat has died. She cannot go on anymore now that she has lost the only thing that truly mattered in her life, the only person who truly loved and understood her. Then she sees the knife, and she knows what she must do.
     Taking the knife out of her lover’s chest, Dana drags the razor sharp blade down her forearms and across her wrists and watches as the blood pumps out. She then lies down next to Esai, puts his limp arms around her, and dies moments later.
     Within minutes, Dana awakens to a bright light. She is in a green meadow, wearing a white cotton dress. Esai stands across the clearing with his back to her. As she calls out and rushes up to him, he turns around and smiles. She jumps up into his waiting arms and kisses him passionately as he spins around with her. Finally, they are truly together forever. Nothing can ever separate them or their love. It is forever eternal. They are now together in their Dark Love for the rest of all Time.

The Beautifully Dark End
I Love You, Always and Forever

I Love You, Always and Forever

9/17/10

     As soon as the car pulls up to the building, you hop out and jump into Neo’s welcoming arms. You go to kiss him, but he whispers, “Don’t. The facilitators are all mega Christians. I could get in a lot of trouble.” You heed his wish and ascend the stairs to his room, walking side by side. The second the door closes, he’s kissing you and caressing your face, your neck, your torso. The second his lips meet yours, all your earlier fears of today, of what might happen, are obliterated. His tongue plays with yours and tickles your mouth. You instantly become an epicure and forget about boundaries. You lean back against a bombastically-colored couch and relax your whole body. Neo’s lips suddenly move down as he begins to gently kiss your neck and chest. His tongue darts out as it playfully tickles your neck and leaves a damp trail, going from your chin to a little below your collarbone. His tongue traces circles along your shoulder and as he reaches the joint where your shoulder and neck meet, he lightly begins nibbling at your throat. He trails over and bites your shoulder and works his way over and up, from your shoulder, then on up to your neck.
     You feel his muscular chest straining at his black spandex tee shirt. Your bodies clasp together and you can’t help thinking, Bliss. Peaceful bliss at last. His hands stroking your hips, your stomach, your neck. His lips pressed hard against yours. You sigh with contentment, causing him to pull away and look at you questioningly.
     “I’m happiest when I’m with you. All my troubles always seem to go away when you’re with me,” you reply.
     He smiles warmly, and then resumes kissing you more passionately then before. Suddenly, before you know it, it’s 6:00, and you have to go home. Your friend comes to pick you up as you give Neo one last passionate kiss before climbing into the passenger seat. Janeen gives you a cryptic smile and raises her eyebrows.
     “What?” you inquire with a smile.
     “Oh, nothing,” is her reply. You don’t worry. All you can think about is Neo’s soft lips on yours, his tongue caressing yours, and his hot sweet breath on your skin. You're in Heaven.

Journal Entries

Journal Entries

9/24/10

     As a chronicler records historical events, I write down in detail all that has occurred in the last couple hours in my trusty journal. I end up writing several pages full and unfortunately I have to turn it into my therapist, so I just create a short summary:
     “My boyfriend had asked me to meet him. He was only visiting for the weekend and we both miss each other tremendously, so I quickly finished my chores and left early so I could get there in a timely manner. Suddenly, a shadow was cast about me from behind. I turned around and there was a man dressed completely in back. His back was to the sun and he was so tall, I couldn’t really see his face. Before I could react, he had usurped me and dragged me into an abandoned van sitting idly by the curb.