Morning Sunset, Daniela D. I. [good books to read for young adults .txt] 📗

... .. I looked at him, just to make sure I was in his arms.
Convinced of that, I was relieved, and again pressed to his chest. I had no idea where we were, but I just knew that we stood embracing, somewhere in the middle of nowhere. Around was complete emptiness and complete darkness, but for some reason I wasn’t afraid. I knew that I was with him and it made me invulnerable.
I so wanted him to say ... I wanted so much him to hear me, but every time I tried to say a word, my voice came out too weak, and it simply dissolved in the air, not allowing the silence to disappear...
At the moment, I closed my eyes and clung to him more strongly in the hope that he will understand me without words. It was so nice and peaceful in his arms, and I felt so protected and loved, that I could stand like that an eternity.... eternity in darkness.
Having opened my eyes, I shuddered. The darkness vanished ... however, as he did. I stood alone in the scorching rays of the sun and I could talk again. But what I say now? What can you tell when it's too late...?

1. The Return to the Forgotten

On the street was raining, it was a cool spring rain. The whole city was plunged into a romantic and, at the same time, a sad mood. Small drops of rain fell on the buildings of the city, surrounding them with an invisible veil of which were reflected, almost imperceptible, the rays of the sun. A large and beautiful rainbow hung over the city.

I was riding in a taxi and was watching all that beauty. Seeing the rainbow, I could not help smiling. That beauty for a moment filled with joy and happiness my soul troubled by doubts. At least for the moment all anxiety vanished and I felt the same easy and carefree as a child, when the world was like a beautiful fairy tale.

"Here is a small traffic jam, perhaps, something happened on the road," I heard the voice of the driver and returned to reality. A sense of joy from seen rainbow disappeared, and I again began to suffer from the torment of doubt. Thousand of thoughts have pierced my head and were tearing me to pieces from the inside. There were so many questions and no answers. "Why should I believe him again? Why don’t I have the strength to leave him, forget him once and for all?" After all, deep down I knew that he had deceived me again, that he can’t be trusted. I wanted to hope that he broke up with - the other, but for me it was from a number of impossible missions. At this thought, I shuddered and tried to get rid of it, though I knew that it would return again and again.

"Other" - with pain, with anger and hate I thought, but the next moment I thought - why with hate? I didn’t know her and have never seen her. Maybe, she doesn’t even realize that she was also being cheated, that her feelings were also played, as well as mine.
"God, let the fact that I forgave him again, wouldn’t be the biggest mistake of my life," I begged silently, knowing that my pleading will be followed by silence. My thoughts were interrupted by the ring of my cell phone. Seeing on the phone's screen the name "Lucas", I couldn’t help smiling. My soul sank into joy just like the moment when I looked at the rainbow.

- Emma, where are you? We all are, already, in Amanda's house, waiting for you - I heard a pleasant and beloved voice coming from the phone.
- I will arrive, soon. There is a traffic jam on the road, it seems some kind of accident - I replied with a smile.
- Are you okay? - Lucas asked with concern, whether due to the fact that I said something about the road accident, or because he felt the anxiety in my voice.
- Yes, everything is well ... honestly - I said automatically, though I knew that he wouldn’t believe me. He knew me too well for the eight years of our friendship and he was already able to recognize any note in my voice.
- Okay - a bit mistrustfully, he said - let's talk, when you arrive. I kiss you.
His last words sounded so gentle, that I almost felt his kiss on my cheek.
- I kiss you, too - I smiled.
After this conversation, the rest of the road, I tried not to think about my problems and to forget everything, even for a few minutes. So, without realizing, I was already standing before the closed door and was waiting when someone will open it to me. When the door opened before me appeared a thin, red-haired girl with blue eyes. Her little red lips stretched into a broad smile.
- Emma, finally you came - almost with enthusiasm, she said, and hugged me as if we haven't seen for ages.
- Happy birthday - I said into her ear as she hugged me. At that point, I something realized,
- Oh, - I said guiltily, and Amanda immediately took a step back.
- What happened? - Almost frightened, asked Amanda.
- I forgot the flowers in the taxi. Sorry, I’m such a mess - I said, feeling like I'm starting to burn with shame.
- Come on, important thing is that you didn't forget yourself - she said with a smile and then added – Come in. Besides, Lucas congratulated me on behalf of both of you.
- What would I do without him? - I asked myself, thinking that Lucas asked me to buy just the flowers as he bought the gift, but even the flowers I managed to forget in a taxi.
- I don't know. Which year, I tell you that he's your happiness, that you have to be with him. But you don't listen to me, and you date with someone, who then breaks your heart - Amanda's speech was so hot that I couldn’t insert a word - You already know each other for 8 years - continued Amanda - What are you waiting for? Are you waiting for your teeth to fall out? Maybe then you'll decide? She turned to me and stood in front of me, closing the road. Caught unawares, I even winced.
- So, what do you say? - She asked seriously.
- What can I say? In my defense I'll say that we have chosen the gift together with Lucas - I said jokingly.
- There! Well, with whom I speak, anyway nobody listens to me - with anger, she almost cried out and turned to leave. I was amused by her reaction. I grabbed her arm, trying at the same time not to laugh.
- Wait a minute! Well, no offense! You know that this topic is closed. We are very good friends, almost like brother and sister...
- Yeah ... brother and sister - cut me off, Amanda - better shut up or I 'm not responsible for myself.
- You know, for such a small and fragile girl, you're too angry and aggressive.
- You haven't seen me in work - she said proudly.
- Okay ... ninja, tell me better what John gave you on your birthday? - I asked, hoping to change the subject. At my question Amanda's eyes lit up. She smiled broadly and enthusiastically responded,
- Remember I told you that I saw earrings with pearls in a jewelry store, that I liked very much, so, John bought them for me. Can you imagine? They are so beautiful! I'll get them and I'll show them to you - and with those words she almost disappeared out of my sight.
I walked into the living room and looked around. In the apartment was quite a lot of people, and I knew almost all of them, but I still felt strange until my eyes fell on a man who was standing near a table with drinks and was talking to an unfamiliar to me, girl. He was standing with his back to me, but I could find Lucas anywhere, because for eight years I had studied him well. I looked at him and wondered who that girl was with whom he was talking to. Also, I tried to imagine what he was telling her, as she was listening to him with such interest that, seemed that she was even glowing.
I involuntarily smiled, because it wasn't the first time I ever saw such a gaze of women, when they were talking to Lucas, and I understood them perfectly. After all, a handsome tall brunet is the dream of almost each second girl. Besides his black eyes and a piercing gaze which sometimes was breathtaking, could conquer a lot of female hearts, but at the same time, they could also break them.
- Well, here - I heard the voice of Amanda's. Turning, I saw that she was holding those same earrings, about which she spoke.
- They are beautiful. Why are you not wearing them? - I asked.
- I will put them ... later - with a sly smile, Amanda said.
- I see… - I smiled - then maybe we all should go?
- Don't worry! I won't show you to the door - she said, while was transferring her glance from me to someone behind me. As soon as she finished speaking, I felt like someone put his hand around my waist and I instantly turned my head to the side where, I felt that someone was standing next to me. I wasn't surprised to see Lucas, as I get used to the fact that he, frequently and without a word, embraced me. His big eyes were looking at me with interest.
- Hi, beautiful. You came and haven't even approached to me to say "hello" - he said, a little reproachfully.
- Simply, I didn’t want to disturb your sweet conversation with the beautiful stranger... In any case, she is a stranger to me...
- Are you jealous? - A bit prickly, he asked, having time to wink at Amanda, which, obviously, was enjoying my conversation with Lucas and was burning with impatience to find out my answer to the Lucas' question.
- Of course - calmly and confidently I replied, as if it was a natural answer to his question - You're my best friend and I need to know who she is and that she won’t hurt you...
- I'm not a little boy to hurt me - immediately replied Lucas. - But you are small and defenseless.
I wanted to object, but when I was with him, I really felt like a little girl. I wasn't sure why that was happening - whether because of his high growth, whether due to the fact that he was four years older than me and he always took care of me and protected me ... but, maybe for both of those reasons.
- I have you to protect me - finally, I said.
Our conversation was interrupted by John, who came