Mates..., unknown haha, society sucks, secret heres my name, denia nevarez [good book recommendations .TXT] 📗

been living for..."

"What ive been living for saf.." i opened my eyes.. She looks weak, so fragile... 

 

"stop feeling so sad for me, im okay, just tired" A voice said in my head. ITS HERS, ITS HERS!!!!!

 

"SAFFF!!!!!" I yelled embracing her kissing her all over her face.

 

"shh.. t-tired.." she croaked yet smiled

 

"Baby im so sorry. so so sorry, i promise nevr again. Only you. Only us, i dont know what i was thinking I-i"

 

"shshsh... Its okay, you look weak... Tired." she sat up worried. I couldnt move, i had no energy.

 

"Can you even walk ?" she asked

 

"Y-yes, just get very tired, i collapse alot. I layed in bed the past 3 months." i saiy sheepishly

 

"Shower now." she commands, shes about to get up

 

"No, its okay lay down."

"Idc, i am fine. Lets go."

 

She led me to the shower half way collapsing, i managed to keep myself awake.

 

Saffires p.o.v

I felt his hand, i felt his feelings, and this song just makes everything ten times worst like sheesh. I was ina good mood for some reason, i felt tired. But okay, i looked at him, his heart beat was slow, extremely slow, worry over powered me, i couldnt talk much, so i decided to send him a mind thingy, lol. He instantly started kissing me, shivers from head to toe. God. I cannot get turned on not now. Good, hes not reading my thoughts. I wanted to ask how he was taking care for the pack, but i didnt bother. Hes been miserable. Weak, practically dying but how, why? I led him to the bath, knowing damn right he hasnt taken one ina while, and even if he did not right . 

He was falling asleep as i led him up the stairs.

 

"Sit." i commanded. He sat on the toilet. 5 min later m back with a towel and hes asleep. Great.

 I took off his shirt, i can see he had no energy in him. I took of his pants, than his under wear, for some reason i didnt really mind, it felt normal to me.

 

"Hey, wake up, get in babe." I tapped on him, and he awoke.

 

"Did you undress me?" he asked containing his laughter. 

 

"Yes, since youre lazy ass was asleep. Now hurry in." i said tring not to laugh but failed miserably

 

"I love it when your in charge" He whispered seducivly in my ear, sent shivers down my spine.

 

"Not now." i said knowing im turned on

 

He got in, and god how i wanted to join in.

Than get in, the dirtyer your thoughts get, the more i wont be able to contain myself.

"Reading my thoughts, really." i told him, he smirked at me

 

"Are you smirking at me, mr. Kingston" I said

 

"I dont know am i, soon to be Mrs. Kingston" He winked.

 

I bit my lip and began to wash him.

 

"Stop." he said

 

"What?" i say

 

"Stop biting your lip." he said

 

"aha why?" i  didnt notice i was stilll doing that.

 

"because-" At that moment he just kissed me, he took off my hospital dress ew. How un attractive. Lol. He pulled me in the water, and i laughed.

 

"You dont know how badly i missed you." he whispered in my ear.

 

Thats it, i began to kiss his neck, i ran my fingers through his hair, i and kissed him hungrily, i wanted this as bad as he did, believe me. I felt his erection against my stomach, oh god..

 

"Im going to have you" He said

 

He kissed my neck and sucked on my collar bone i immidietly started to moan. Damn, i would love to wake up like this every morning

 

"mm that can be aranged" he said, damn my thoughts.

 

He slipped in side of me, and oo i cant explan how i felt, everything i desired. Feels like forever. God damn... We both were at our finsihing points.

I turned on the radio, while we began to bathe.

I sang loudly not caring

"lullaby lullaby lullaby, aint nothing wrong falling in love. Aint nothing wrong,lullaby lullaby lullaby, im gunna be im gunna be everything youve dreamed. Im gunna sing oh so sweet, boy you make my heart skip a beat." I changed it. Eh song gets annoying

"babe, your singing at the wedding right?"  he says

"nah, im not really comfy with that" i laugh

"hmm" he says i turned off the shower and got out, as did he, i felt hands on my hips, and a kiss on my cheek

"i missed you" i said

 

"You missed me, i was awake suffering, hating life without you" He chuckled... 

at my desires

 

"Ilove you" i close my eyes

 

"I love you." he said kissing me...

 

arrival yet dissapearable

 I got to school, with adrian hand in hand, the day went by quick full of welcome backs, glad youre okay. Andrew avoided me. Ive seen miranda and Adrian talk a couple times, ive kept my wolf down. 

 

2 weeks later

 

Me and adrian got into an argument. So im walking to school alone. The argument was miranda. Theyve been hanging out a lot lately i mean come on... I got to school and saw miranda and adrian hugging she saw me and smirked. reading her lips 'hes mine' she said lip syncing. I got pissed, i could tell adrians feelings were symapthy, she probably pretended to be sad. Than she flipped me off. I got over there

 

Grabbing her by the hair she fell outta adrians arms onto the floor me pinnign her, i growled, as did she. Shes a wolf. I hear adrian yelling at me but i dont wanna hear it.

 

"You know what bitch, i am tired of you, he is not yours you whore deal with it, no matter what he'll always love me. Deal with it." i screamed. 3 punches later and shes on the floor bleeding and crying

 

I turned around and walk away, i knew adrian was gunna help her up

 

"Help her up and its done." i turned around

 

He helped her up.

"Rejection." he said he looked away.

I smiled the best i could turned around and walked away.

 

I started to run a while after, i felt the rejection hitting. I tripped and fell into a grassy area. I saw one flower. It was a Orchid... it was bent broken and torn

 

"So pretty, so delicate, yet so misunderstood, and so unloved." i whispered.

 

I got to the house..

 

"Uhm Saffire, i am sorry, but the weddings off and uhm, your going to stay here still because uhm, your moms outta town and we have no idea where.." she said. I nodded 

 

Trying to comprehend, i knew my world was tearing down... I walked in the room and boom.

Adrian on top of Miranda. I smiled and walked inside holding the tears inside. I got my bags and started to pack, I dont know where im going. But i know its far far from here. Adrian was pulling up his pants, while miranda was sitting on the bed smiling.

 

"uhh.. where are you going?" he said in a bored way. 

 

"Does it matter?" i snapped

 

"i know youre moms outta town"he said

 

"as for that, you have no where, so where are you going." he snapped

 

Ugh i swear. Im pissed

I turned around and faced him

"somewhere, your not." i say

 

He couldnt read my thought no more since we broke apart. I was done with my stuff, he followed and grabbed me in the hall way.

 

"where" he said

 

"as if you care" a ttear slipped down my cheeck. His feelings were full of worry..

 

I pulled away and ran down stairs

 

"Thank you mr and mrs kingston but i cannot stay here. I just cannot" i said givving each of them a hug

 

They nodded tears filled in there eyes, , i felt them put something in one of my bags, i didnt bother to check i just walked out the door. I turned into wolf form and ran into the woods... disappearing.

 

Adrians p.o.v

 

                                                              "where" i said boredly trying to sound whatever bout it when really i was worrying, i knew she could sence it. 

 

"As if you care." she said. I saw the tears. Damn. she pulled away.

 

What the hell was i thinking bringing miranda in here to yanno... Shit. I saw miranda on the bed smiling. I cant let Saff get to me. I shouldnt care.

'shes your soulmate' my wolf said

Ugh. I dont care, i walked in the room to finish what we started.

I tried, and i tried, i felt no pleasure in this, my heart pounded and dissapointment hit. Why did i do it... Oh yea to prove i was a fucking man. To prove, she didnt own me... Thats why i left her. But i heard jelousy in her voice. Man i already went thru hell with out her, why do i keep doing this I reached my finishing point and told miranda to get out, she stumbled, and just to be  nice i walked her to the door.

My parents stared at me hard core.

"What.?" i said. shit.

 

They ignored me. I just went to bed fuck this.

 

.....................................................................................................

 

I walked in the school to notice only miranda by my side, no sign of saffire. Ugh i dont care.

                                                     "hey guys" i said sitting down at the table, miranda voluntarily sits on my lap. really.

They stared hard core at miranda, in disgust.

 

"Uhmm is there a problem" i say.

 

"Wheres saffire" alex says. damn.

 

"She left" i said

 

"where?" they said

 

I shrugged my shoulders, i know they liked saffire, not like that but they all treated her like a sister, they didnt like miranda but i didnt care.

 

"What do you mean you dont know" alex growled

 

See alex cared for her most, so did dallas, hes quiet, tho i can sence he wants to rip me apart rn.

 

"She left." i say

 

"with her old fam?" alex and dallas say hopefully

 

"no one know where her family went." i say smiling

 

"So your trying to fucking tell me, you just let her go, alone!!!!" Dallas yelled. This surprised me

 

"i fucking offered her to stay, she didnt want to." i yelled right back

 

"Oh baby,