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calm down, she was only mad that you rejected her, and than she comes home to find us making love." miranda says, putting her hand on my shoulder. Shit. Dumb bitch.

 

"YOU WHAT!!!???" all the boys yelled standing up

 

"I cant believe you, were going to look for her" alex said

 

"No your not, im alpha, Obey!" i say, my wolf coming out.

 

"Alpha, really knows how to treat his damn pack." alex says

 

"remember shes omega, and luna. Part of the damn pack. Understand ALPHA" he says.

 

"Yes i do know, she chose to leave the pack." i say

 

"No she left you." Alex had balls.

 

"I left her" i yell " i am man." i say. damn wolf.

 

"Says the man that dont know how to treat a woman. A man is a guy, who has respect, not going round fucking hoes." and that was it, he walked out

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The guys still ignoring me, barely went to school, to damn busy looking for Saffire... I know, i was wrong... My own parents are ignoring me. Shit, where the hell is saffire. I know i fucking miss her ass so damn much. Ive looked for her time to time, but never wandered to far, there was a very new powerful pack in the woods, that worried me for saff. If i dont find her. The boys will find her.

 

Alex's p.o.v

 

I am so pissed at Adrian, i mean ive been pissed for a fucking while, who the hell does that, dont get it twisted, me and saffire, are close... Ive been out looking for her, for A  year now, all the guys are worried. I know shes not dead, because than adrian would be crying like a bitch, and his body aching. He seems fine, tho i can tell hes hurting, he has bags under his eyes, like hes hopping bitch to bitch. I dont want that. I needed a story, a track something to know where she went, Shit, How can i be so stupid. Sence....

I ran to Adrians house

Banging on his damn door

"WHAT THE FUCK!?" I heard him say He opened the door pissed than confused to see my face

"Oh uh.. Wassup foo? he says

 

"Did saffire leave any things here?" i say

 

"Uhm i dont think so, but you can look" he says blankly. He looks like hell

 

I ran up stairs and looked in all his drawrs, I found one of her shirts, i smelt it, weird but yes. lol, she smelt like flowers and love. She really did love his dumb asss. I caught her sent and ran out the house, howling...

 

the life i made.

 Saffires p.o.v

I ran into the woods, not looking back, the memory hitting me as hard, ive never felt this pain before, something inside feeling so physical, my stomach an empty pit. My heart ripped and burn to ashes with no savior. I ran...

 

1 year later

 

I made a life for myself. I once an omega, now an alpha... how? hah, well see this is how, on my run, ive met hundreds of wolfs that were rejected, or kicked out of the pack. I formed a pack, called it, no called us, The toska pack, it stood for  its deepest and most painful, it is a sensation of great spiritual anguish, often without any specific cause. At less morbid levels it is a dull ache of the soul, a longing with nothing to long for, a sick pining, a vague restlessness, mental throes, yearning. In particular cases it may be the desire for somebody or something specific, nostalgia, love-sickness. At the lowest level it grades into ennui, boredom .It basically stood for the hopeless. Some called us the lost ones, others called us the wild ones. We were the largest, most powerfullest pack in the world, may i say dangerous. Deep inside the woods, i reconstructed, all of us did, making a home for us, as for that no one went thru the woods, afraid. I was heartless. And i showed no mercy to the ones who wanted to hurt me, or any of us... I grew in the past year. My frizzy hair now beach curls. Once brown hair, now a light bronze. Blonde in sunlight. My heigh. The same. Curved a little more in my body, my eyes grew bigger once a brown, now a hazel. I have 2 best friends the ones that know everything about me. Aurabella, and johnny. Dont get me wrong, i missed my old pack, i missed alex and dallas the most. Lies... I missed adrian the most. On the full moons where mates called eachother, i heard him call. I never went, trust was a hard thing to earn from me now a days. I ran to my wood house, back from a morning jog, i got into the shower, closing my eyes while memories flashed through me.... Pain yet love.. so complicated. Aurabella and johnny, were out casts, they left there packs and came here, they also found there mates here... I smiled at there hapiness. 

As for me, i am strong. Happy, no. Strong yes. I got out the shower put on a jump suit, it was a silk black, long sleeved, stuck to my body showing my curves. I walked outside. Called a pack meeting.

As for the life i formed myself and houses, have a look.

Im sure its not what you expected, im sure you expected somthing dark well nope. We cleared a part deep in the woods. I continue on expanding. These pasts few months have been harsh, a few. No many of our wolves had died. Fire... Right now i onky have 203 members in my pack. And the second largest packs is 198, Thats adrians....

In the center of the field, my wolfs stood. I stood on a higher hill, given the fact that i am short.

 

"Wild ones" i smile at the words

 

"Or for some call us the lose, i perfer the found" My pack smiled

 

"We lost a lot of members a couple months ago we were at 245 now to 203..." I looked down

 

"I am sorry, i failed-" i was cut off by a howl. A familiar one. Alex.

 

"No guys, no attack, everybody inside the cabins, ill continue later, i know this wolf." i say smiling

 

They all respect my wishes, and do as i say, i run to the howling, oh how i missed him,, i felt joy and i knew it was him. I was happy, yet disappointed it wasnt adrian, than again. No.. I say to myself. I see Johnny and aurabella following me.

 

"I can handle myself i know this wolf please. Leave" i command.

 

"Saff please le-" i cut bella off

 

"Dont call me that" i growled

 

"please go" i say wishfully. They do as i say.

 

I ran faster, and saw him in wollf form, i attacked him with a hug

 

"ALLEEXXX!!!" i scream laughing, startled his face went from horrid, to joyful.

He changed to human form, naked. He grabbed some clothes from his bag and put them on, this no longer bothered me. Ive seen men change lots, when my pack hunts. ust something you have to get used to.

"OMG, Saffire!! How the hell did you survive out here, this is toska territory" he says hugging me

"Well of course you wouldnt know about it, the packs new, sorta" he says

 

"Uhm.. Thats because im alpha. Hah" i say sheepishly

He looked at me in amazment,

"Youve grown sis, in features of course" I hit him playfully

 

"Not funny you ass" I giggle... How it feels good to laugh

 

"How did you manage to form this pack." he asks

 

I took him by the arm pulling him back to where my home is, explaing everything the way there.

Once i got there, his face was priceless.

 

"This is the place i built for me and my pack, would you like to meet them, there very kind" i grin

 

"Oh really, from what i hear there wild, and heartless. They kill with no mercy" he says

 

"That isnt my pack, they bring me the people who try to hurt any of us. I give of course the people to explain why they were here. They want my place. I kill. Ive changed" i say lifting my head.

 

"I can see that" he says nudging me

 

"would youu like to meet them?" i ask again

 

"sure" he says

 

I howl, they come out growling

 

"Play nice" i shout

 

"Not an enemy, a visitor" i say smiling

 

"why didnt you just say that" aurabella and john both say, i laugh

 

"Im aurabella but call me bella" she says giving him a hug

 

"Im johnny but call me john" he shakes his hand

 

"Its been a while since i seen saff so happy, who are you to her" john says

 

"Some what of a brother"he smiles looking at me

 

"These are my best friends, and this is the rest of the pack" i say

 

They all wave and returned to there usual day lives.

 

"They really are nice" alex says

"why yes, they are, so what did you need to find me for" I say

"Adrian." he says whisperly

"He sent you" i say in disbelief

"Sorta... hes been miserable. I see bags under his eyes, he always smells like liquor, please help him, please saff, tonights a full moon, call to him" he says

 

"No way in hell is she doing that" bella yells

"That bastard hurt her." she says, i look down

 

"Hes still my mate, bells..." i say in defeat. I need him.

 

"No." she says

 

"Are you commanding me" i say in shock

 

"Listen, it is her mate, leave it to her" alex says. i nodd

 

"Listen bells, i havent been happy in a year, i need this,.. I need him, if all this time i knew he didnt care, than i woulda left it alone, but bvious enough, hes been miserable." i say

"Alex, hows the pack going?" i say

 

"Terribly. We on have 104 now..." he says

 

"shit. Would you all like to join the pack" i say smiling

 

"You know adrian, would never let you be alpha" he says. True.

 

"We can both be alphas, i sure there can be some kind of agreement." i say

 

"mm, we can try" he says

 

"If not than, i sure as hell aint leaving this pack, and all my hard work for him. If he damages me even more, i will have to start over. I do not want that" i say

 

"Now that sounds like the saff i know" john winks, i laugh

 

"Well... Nights coming... Start the bonfires bae" i say to bella

 

"Im on it" she