Life - Generation, K. Green [a court of thorns and roses ebook free TXT] 📗

roommate. Actually he didn’t showed up. I looked around the other bedroom. It’s a guy…

Two weeks passed. My pack came here to look for me. Harry made them leave making an excuse that I came here for a while and left. So for sure, he will protect me. You know… today is the full moon and I am scared. I don’t know if I’ll transform or not. Stanley still don’t know my brother is my twin. I even read their generation book. They had twins few times, but they are all dead now.

I rolled on my other side in the bed. It’s middle of the night and I’m thinking about death. How pathetic am I to think this?

I stood up from bed and went to the kitchen. There’s mini cake still. I took it from the fridge and started eating when I sat on the countertop.

Now I feel my own depression… actually I still feel Alec’s feelings but… I make the difference better. His feelings are not that strong as before. I sighed. I have a lot of time, making up my mind. It’s good. But I still don’t know what to do, I have no ideas in my mind.

The good part is… Stanley removed the rule for incest. Everybody are free now and one by one some people are coming back to the pack… with or without a mate.

I placed the cake next to me and hugged my knees, putting my feet on them on the countertop. I leaned my forehead on my knees. With or without chocolate cake… I feel the same. I feel empty without Alec. This sucks. A lot. I want to go home but I don’t want to, because… I feel replaced and rejected. I closed my eyes.

“You are so tiny and cute sweetheart…” I heard a deep voice. Did I fall asleep?

“W-what?” I raised my head. Front me was staying... literally huge person. 6’5 tall with wide shoulders… and his arms and legs were in muscles. I could see the shirt was going to tear up soon... and his veins were going to explode in any minute.

“Cute” he raised his eyebrow “What are you doing in my room?” I looked him… long dark ginger colored hair mixed up with bright drown and dark blue eyes. 

“My room is over there…” I said pointing the door next to balcony one.

“And since when I have roommate? And who the fuck are you? You are not even a wolf.”

Why he has to be so rude… and huge… and… so fucking handsome?

“Yeah... excuse me for not being a wolf.” I jumped off the countertop. So my roommate has to be big badass? And here we go again for-not-being-a-wolf thing. Why people think I am too stupid to understand what they are doing? I don’t think it’s something different and difficult.

I passes him and went outside of the balcony. I leaned my elbows and looked the big field at backyard. There were some wolves training, I could hear their growling, isn’t it little too late for trainings? the weather is nice and warm, with just small wind.

I saw two hands leaning on my both sides and taking a deep breath.

“Not from our pack… but in parts smell of us. Who are you sweetheart?”

“Human and a girl as you can see.”

“With huge boobs, I understand that. You smell…” I heard a low growl near my ear. “Amazing…”

His hands moved on mine… and I felt something like electricity through my body. What’s with that? Another deep breath. He turned me around facing him.

“Who are you” he repeated again

“Jessica White” I said, I was literally tiny… against him. I couldn’t see up from his stomach with a normal look. He moved one more step closer. I placed my hands on his stomach.

“White… I remember this name, so his son has a kid. Axel Stanley on your service, my lady.”

“Nice to meet you Stanley, now can you please… move?” I said looking up to him. My neck will start hurting me like this... if we always have to do that.

“Sure”

“Thank you” I said and he moved away from me… now I could see his face normally.

“Let me take you out today? Show you around” I nodded “Sweet. Go take some rest.”

I nodded again and passed him going to my room. Geez. So cool and huge. I thought I’ll die. I shook my head and took my phone. And looked the messages. One from dad. Voicemail. I turned it on.

“Jess I talked with everybody… and they want to keep looking for you. Daniel is always pissed and I have no idea why. I know you both had feelings for each other, but now the situation is way different. Alec… yes they did it. They mated completely. He is blaming himself for everything that happened with you. Tattoo and all the feelings you felt…” Yeah… I still feel them… “Your mother is nervous all the time, can’t sleep and eat properly. Look Hun, come back when you want, and take care of yourself. And if you are still in Stanley’s territory, look around for dangerous people, mostly of the pack. We all love you.”

I placed my phone on the nightstand. Yes to do something good about your family you have to sacrifice something.

 

Dear diary,

You can’t imagine what just happened! My roommate… is huge, and fucking hot and handsome. I feel jelly already of his girlfriend, if he has one at all. Today we are going around the town. It’s good, now I have a ‘friend’ to talk with at least.

08.04.2047

 

I got out of the shower and wrapped the towel around my body. I got one towel and for my hair. I looked myself in the mirror. I seemed different than before. I looked happy. Yeah, why not. I deserve some happiness too.

Axel opened the door and went in, and looked me confused.

“Oh excuse me… forgot there’s a woman living with me” he said

“I’m done, come in.” I said and passed him I heard the door closing quietly. I went into my room. Even sleepy he’s cool. Dammit. I can’t have such thoughts in my head.

I took matching panties and bra and wore them. Then the clothes came. What should I wear?

After few minutes I took black skinny jeans and white tank top. Why should I even think it so much for one meeting… come on? I wore them, and started drying my hair. Knock on my door came.

“Jessica are you ready?”

“Almost, come in” the door opened and I looked him. He had black jeans on, white shirt, and leather jacket on. It that coincidence?

“Nice clothes” and he bit his lip. Why I have the feel that’s not the proper way to say it? Only by his look I can say he want to have sex with me. I sat on the bed and took my white shoes on platform and putted them on.

“Thanks, you too” I said and took my black leather jacket “Where do we go?” I said following him outside of the apartment.

“Where do you want to?”

“Somewhere far?”

“Take these” he threw me a pair of leather female gloves. “Bought them for you.”

“Thank you, but why do I need them?”

“The only vehicle I have is a motorbike.” I gasped. “What? Scared?”

“Not really… I always wanted to be on a motorbike.” I smiled. He took deep breath looking at me

“Sure.”

We walked down the stairs and we met Harry at the front door with his wife seems like. Is that his wife at all?

“Oh Axel I was looking for you.” He said “I have to ask you a favor.”

“I’m going out, as you can see.”

“I can see that. I want to look after her while she lives here.”

“What? You know I can’t do this… I’ll hurt her more than help her”

“I count on you” Harry said “If it’s needed you’ll take her with you on your missions.” He said only and went outside.

He sighed and looked at me. He shook his head unbelievable and walked outside. I am not that hard for protecting you know… I know some tricks too. I followed him outside. He went to his vehicle. Motorbike Yamaha 1000. Black colored, I don’t know much about, cars, motors or other vehicles but this one looked… kind of sexy.

I wore the leather gloves while walking to him. He sat on the motorbike and patted the place behind him.

“Thank god you are with jeans, not a skirt. I love the speed.” I sat behind him getting comfortable. “I don't know what you're thinking, sugar. So hold on tight.” I wrapped my hands around him. “Next destination, the beach.” He started the engine. I looked Harry and I saw him smirking and winking at me before Axel go.

 

Speed. I love the speed already. I want to feel the speed for rest of my life.

We are walking along the beach. I still feel the adrenaline in my blood and body. I could feel how Axel was smirking next to me. There was a lot of people on the beach. Not in swimsuits but clothes for spring. There was couples mostly.

“You love the speed” I said. “And what you do for a living?”

“I’m a racer.”

“I can feel that, you took all the turns so easy.” I said smiling. “What competitions actually?”

“With motorbike of course.” He said. “I wish I could try the one with a partner”

“Partner?”

“Yes a partner”

“Take one then, what you are waiting for?”

“Inspiration. Dedication to the competitions. It’s hard to find one.”

“There’s guys all over the country Axel.”

“The 2nd partner has to be a woman. She’s the one who makes the cascades behind the guy.”

“I can’t understand you, rephrase everything” he laughed

“Rules are simple. For this competition, partners should be man and a woman. Usually the guy is driving the motor on high speed, and the woman is doing cascades behind, on and front him.”

“You mean like standing up behind him and other things?”

“Yes exactly.”

“And how like that you don’t have a woman until now, I bet you can find one.”

“It’s easy to be said from your mouth. She need to be strong physically and mentally. There should be a trust between the people. Without it it’s impossible. It’s dangerous you know. There’s no seatbelts sugar, if she falls… she might get hurt. If she falls front the motorbike… she might die.”

“Oh… that’s true.”

“She has to be tiny and small too” he stopped walking and looked at me “Something like you. You are not really tall but I am sure you are flexible enough for the cascades”

I nodded. I’ve always played safe because of my brother and Daniel, maybe now it’s time to break the ice.

“I can try” I said looking the sand.

“What? You are not even a wolf. I can’t put you in this kind of danger…”

“You know… I am little different than others. I can change anytime. The 18 years, doesn’t mean anything to me. And I know… my transformation will be tonight.”

“What? You don’t have 18 right?”

“No I don't.”

“Then it’s impossible, no wait… there’s only one way. You have a twin brother?” I nodded “Why you escaped from him!” he raised his voice. “You two can’t be separated!”

I stopped walking and took my leather jacket off. And looked him in his eyes.

“Look Axel… It’s hard a lot for me. I still absorb his feelings and I don’t know which one to express first. I thought I should fix this mess with Fiona and make up my mind, but it’s not happening.”

“All our twins died Jessica. First time one male died in a battle for territory, his sister suicided after him, not even 24 hours had passed from his death. 2nd twins… both suicided. 3rd twins… the female was killed. The male suicided. It’s connected… everything. He dies, you suicide. You die, he suicides. You both need each other”

“I know that Axel! He rejected me, because of his stupid mate Stanley… You don’t know what pain I have inside… I want to get distracted. I accept that everything is against me.”

“You’ll be good at the