Life - Generation, K. Green [a court of thorns and roses ebook free TXT] 📗

idiot. I hate her. I take even more feelings from Alec’s side and makes me even more tired. I pinned my look in him and something pulled me, and now I was watching Fiona. She was literally glowing. Like she had an aura around her.

“Jess?” Rayon said, now I was watching myself. I looked even paler and my nose was bleeding. I blinked few times and I coughed returning into my body. I leaned forward and Ray caught me with one hand. “Are you okay?” he said and I nodded for yes. Maria handed me the box of tissues, and caressed my back

“Anybody of you… feel attraction to his girl?” dad came to me and raised my face to him. I pushed his hands and looked Alec “Move a step forward.” Silence. The little boy doesn’t have balls for this?

“So scared of Stanley huh?” I said “Pussies” Alec stepped forward looking at me and I raised my eyebrow.

“I do” he said and Fiona raised her head and looking at him

“Describe it” Kody said. “I am not talking about your sexual... things.”

“She pulls me to her. With a chain. I want to protect her…”

“PROTECT HER?” I laughed interrupting him “Oh wait, why didn’t you tell me. Let’s make a drama”

“I wanted to be sure… and you don’t understand.” His annoyance and madness flew into me.

“Excuse me? I am not a monster like you, as everybody else here… I don’t understand you? That’s disgusting, brother”

“Jess nobody said that” tried to say Rayon

“This little idiot just did Ray. It’s officially a fact, and everybody shows it” I stood up from Ray’s leg and stood up front Alec

“Jessica, stop talking like this. You are part of us” Grandpa said.

“To talk how? Look their faces, they expression is the same. I don’t understand what Alec? May I ask you?”

“Everything that happens with me right now” my mouth opened and I looked Maria and Erik, I pointed him with my thumb snorting.

“You think, I don’t?”

“Yes”

“Then…” I looked my mother “Please Alec tell me, why did I felt the scared feeling in your body, depression, feelings for suiciding, when our mother was in hospital?”

“What?”

“Why…” I looked Grandpa “I felt all the pain when your Alpha made the tattoo? Every line he did on your body? Why did I see everything front your eyes? Daniel smiling at you, holding your hands, talking about cars?”

“You… how…”

“TELL ME…” I looked my father “WHY I FELT ALL THE TIREDNESS INSTEAD OF YOU? Why I have all the wounds that SHOULD BE ON YOUR BODY?” Nobody said a word. “Why I felt your pathetic and miserable happiness while you look at this girl? Confusion mixed up with happiness plus the sexual stimulus you felt while watching her? ”

Maria and Erik moved away from Alec. I was going to hit him. I turned around. They started removing the bandages, slowly. I felt all the pain from the wounds.

“Explain to me, why do I accept all your feelings doubled in my chest and body? It hurts Alec. You little brat ruined me. And now your little bitch will ruin your pack, because of her stubbornness.”

“Your wounds are still not healed.” Maria said “Do you eat properly?” I shook my head

“Not it last 50-60 hours.” My dad came to me and pushed me on the chair. He kneed front me and started looking at my wounds.

“What’s all this Jessica. What you did to yourself?”

“What YOU and YOUR ALPHA did to me?” I asked him and he raised his head.

“What you mean, we did nothing to you.”

“Think twice father. The wounds never lie” mother came next to dad looking worried.

“What’s wrong with you Jess?”

I pinned my eyes one of the books on the bookshelf. I tilted my head a bit.  That’s the book. “Wolves behavior”, the book that says the truth about me. I smiled and laughed.

“If I stay here…” I looked her without blink “I’ll get even crazier. He rejected me. I feel lost now, which means… I should leave”

“Jessy…” Alec started

“I don’t know what to believe in. It’s like a dream for me.” I looked the book again. “Sorry, but I can’t handle it.”

I stood up and ran outside of the Hall.

I am going home.

I won't stay here.

 

Maria’s P.O.V

 

“I don’t know what to believe in. It’s like a dream for me.” She looked the book again. “Sorry, but I can’t handle it.”

Jessica stood up and ran outside of the Hall. I took deep breath and left the bandages on the table. It’s time to repeat it again. I went to the bookshelf and took the book.

“Everybody sit.” I said “Now.” Everybody sat slowly in their seats. I heavily placed the book front my place and opened it.

Poor child got crazier than usual. Hope she won’t do anything stupid.

“That’s the magic of the Twins.” I said loud, and everybody looked me. “The wolf twins are always female and male gender. Hurt or disrespect they will take it too deep” I read three sentences. “Connected physically, spiritually, and emotionally.”

“You mean Alec and Jessica?” said Kody

“Yes. As it is said in this book, Jess is the engine of their relationship. Alec you hurt her, by expressing your feelings. She absorb your feelings and makes them double. She felt all your happiness, madness and pain, everything since you are a wolf. ”

“That’s why she… was with Antony?” Daniel asked himself.

“Probably yes. Emotions is the most confusing part for her” I read. “She made the difference between Alec’s and her own, but his feelings dominated over hers. So she had to express them somehow, so she went to Antony.”

“Physical situations” said Erik “I saw your training at the field here Alec. You were weak and distracted. Why? Because Jessica wasn’t here. You went back at your house and you felt immortal and strong. Jess fills you up, by giving her own powers to you. Styles and Alex. Every hit you did on Alec, effected on her. If Alec right now remove his shirt, he won’t have a scratch. All the pain of the tattoo was on her.”

“That’s insane” Alec said. “I...”

“She can see through your eyes, when she’s tired… literally exhausted. Nothing more you can be said. Whoever wants to read it personally, he’s welcomed.”

“How you both know this?” Styles said

“You were busy with Cath and Alec. I didn’t know anything I swear, but when you all left… I heard a scream. It was her. She looked terrible. Her screams were awful…”

 

Jessica’s P.O.V

 

You are little, you don’t understand. You are not a wolf, you are not this, you’re not this either. Unfair and stupid.

Now I am walking on the street, middle of the forest. I hope a wolf or vampire to come, attack me so I can die in peace. I’ll walk all the way home. I don’t care I want to be alone. I’ll burn them all. One by one.

I’ll start running until I fall unconscious.

 

Four hours later

 

It’s around 8pm, I looked my phone. 24 different missed calls. It started to rain.

If I stay under the rain, all those feelings will disappear. They are still inside me. Or he’s following me, or the distance is not long enough. No he’s not following me. He’s running somewhere near or training.

I started to cry and sat in middle of the road, I sat on the wet road and hugged my knees, crying.

 

I woke up still sitting in middle of the road. It’s raining heavily. I’m cold as a dead body. I stood up. Time to get going. Breathe and walk. You don’t need anything else.

Two hours later I went into the town. Its 8 am in the morning and it’s time for school.

What’s happening with me? I don’t like to be like this at all. I am emotional exhausted also physically and spiritually. To go somewhere and rest. It’s insane. I don’t want live like this. Now I don’t even recognize my own feelings because of his.

Too many emotions comes in to me. Pain, embarrassment, proudness, disappointment, enjoyment, happiness, curiosity and a lot more. It makes me cry even more. Since when I became so miserable? To be weak.

I walked into the school, the halls were full with students, everybody with dry uniforms. I went into the room and I saw my bag still on my desk, where I left it yesterday

“Where have you been? You are soaked wet.” Alec said

“What do you mean? It’s raining outside and I didn’t want any umbrella with me.”

“Answer me”

“You won’t understand. Normal people does.”

“Alec?” Stanley said

“Look your precious is here. Go to her and leave me alone.”

“Go home Jess.”

“I can take care of myself alone!” I raised my voice. “Get out of my sight.”

Daniel ran into the room wet too. His pants and shirt were wet.

“Jess why you disappeared like that”

“You were with her?” Alec said

“I was following her, but when I woke up she wasn’t there. Something might get you killed!”

“Just get out of my sight.”

“Jess!”

I pulled Stanley and then pushed her into the wall

“You know what Stanley. You had to stay with your miserable family.”

Chapter 5 - Important decision

Jessica’s P.O.V

 

Dear diary,

I told them what happened with me. Everybody were shocked. I don’t know what’s going on really. If Stanley stay here… the whole Stanley Pack will come here. There will be a war. They count on every female wolf they have. I am not going to apologize because the feelings are real. SHE came and Alex hurt me bad by his rejections. It eats me inside.

Help me. What should I do, every feelings of his are hitting and hurting me badly and I am getting more and more crazy... I’m losing my mind. This power is a curse. I hope nobody feels like me. Even to me my biggest enemy…

22.03.2037

 

Staying in the bathtub all day and thinking. Hot water and a lot of bubbles. I feel like an outsider, I’m not going to lie. It’s awful. Doubt anybody will feel so lost like me.

Alec is home. His worriedness is here. Hitting me again. I leaned my head back on the tub and closed my eyes. Was I too harsh to them? To the pack… I don’t think so. I went too far I suppose. Everything I do is wrong. What should I do then?

I think have an idea how to fix the situation. If I go to Stanley’s Alpha and talk to them, they might let Fiona to stay here. Talking to them, fixing all the mess that the love birds made and coming home. Should be fair enough. Alec is important person to me… and I am going to do such a stupid thing for him and his mate…

The stupid little ginger girl. She way too stupid, don’t you think? She disappeared from her home… because she don’t want to marry her brother? What a coward. She had to make a drama, to fight for her rights. Instead of that she escaped the prison, making other people to fix the mess for her. She’s a wolf. We are ree creatures but we don’t escape when we see challenge.

I got out of the bathtub and dried myself. I dressed up in my sport suit and went downstairs. Ugh feeling dizzy I went into the kitchen. Mom and dad were