Renesmee, L.Perez [the first e reader .TXT] 📗

did he intend on leaving me, he intended to leave me today. Dad looked at my Mom and hissed “Forget him seeing her. He’s hurting her and he’s not even here! Imagine how it will be if she is there!” Mom nodded and sniffed. “He’s here.” After she said that she looked at me, sighed and kissed me and said “Do what you think will be easier,” and got up and left. Dad looked at me and said “Love, your suffering so much…is there anything I can do?” Before Dad finished his eyes were haunted and his voice pained. I looked at him and said “Dad….tell him...that I would like to see him…before he…leaves.” My voice cracked at the end. Dad stared at me with wordless eyes. He seemed to have to take a few breaths to calm down. He looked at me and said through his teeth “He is hurting you so much and yet you want to see him? “ He was definitely angry now. “Dad,” I said. “Please?” He stared at me and then nodded once. “I will tell the dog but if he says one word that so much as makes you cry again I will rip his insignificant- “Dad…please, “I said. I didn’t want to imagine Dad and Jake fighting. He nodded and kissed my cheek and left. As soon as he left I ran to the door and closed it. I had to cry myself out before Jacob came. I would not let him see me shed one tear. I had been hurt again and again and now it was his turn. I cried for five minutes and then decided it was enough. I got up and walked to my bathroom. I went in and looked at myself. Ugh. I looked exactly like I’d been crying and sleeping all day. I took a brush and started brushing through my hair. I brushed my hair until I could put my fingers through it without getting stuck. Then I brushed my teeth. “Why am I doing all of this?” I questioned myself. This was no special event. But I couldn’t help it. After I had brushed my teeth, I went and sat in my rocking chair. Mom had given it to me; she said it had been hers as well. I sat rocking and thinking. Would he come? Could I handle it? Could I handle seeing him turn his back and disappearing into the forest? I inhaled deeply and let it sit there for a minute, and then I had to breathe so I blew it out. I rocked and listened to the voices down stairs. Aunt Rosalie was hissing at -wince- Jake. “So, dog you think going up there to see her is a good idea when you’re just going to turn right around and leave?!” Aunt Rosalie nearly screeched. Jacob spoke then. “I have to see her before I leave. I have to make her see that I will come back and I have to apologize for doing this to her…I have too,” he whispered. Aunt Alice broke the silence hissing “The hell you do, you stupid mutt! Rosalie is right. You need to leave now!” I heard someone move forward and someone pulled them back. “Dad,” I thought, “Send him up here… I just want to get this over with.” He heard me and hissed at Jacob “She wants to see you now, but before you go mongrel understand this; if she so happens to shed a tear, I will rip your miserable head off.” Jacob sighed and said “Sure sure,” and started up the stairs. As I heard his footsteps coming towards my room my heart spiked. Why was my heart trying to jump out of my chest? To show the damage he was causing me perhaps. Then I heard a low knock. I didn’t know if I could answer but I tried. “Come in” I whispered; my hands turned sweaty and a cold sweat clung to my back. I expected to see his beautiful dark skin but was surprised to see Dad. His eyes were anxious. He came and sat down next to me and looked me in the eyes and said “Love, if you feel that you can’t handle anymore, I’ll be right here. Do you understand me?” I sighed and moaned “Dad, I’m not six anymore.” Dad chuckled and said “You will always be my little Renesmee.” I smiled but then grimaced. “Dad,” I thought “please go get him.” Dad sighed and then got up and left and was back in the same second. I could hear Jacob’s heart beat behind the wall. Then I heard him take a deep breath and I heard him take the four necessary steps to enter my room and then there he stood, looking so beautiful it shattered my heart. I swallowed loudly. Dad looked at him with unfriendly eyes and said to me “Love, I’ll be here if you need me.” Obviously a warning to Jacob. He turned to glare at Jake for a second then left, closing the door behind him. I didn’t look away from the door. I heard his breathing speed up at the same time mine did. I didn’t know what to say, but I had to get this over with. I was so hurt, my voice came out sharp. “Let’s just get this over with. Say what you have to say.”

I heard him hesitate then he sighed. “Renesmee…I didn’t know how to tell you…” he trailed off letting his pathetic answer hang in the air. “Then what would have been better? You just disappearing?” I whispered. He sighed and said “I don’t know Nessie. I don’t think anything would have made this easier.” I knew then that I would break my promise; not shedding a tear in front of him. I felt his eyes on my face, watching me. I felt the silent tears come down my face. Next thing I know I was in Jacob’s warm arms. My head was on his shoulder and he had his arms wrapped around my waist. That on a regular day would have made me blush but it didn’t now, this was a parting embrace. I felt his warm hand stroke my hair from top to bottom. “Renesmee I don’t want to leave but I have too. We need to solve it…we need to help,” he whispered. “Jake,” I whispered “I can’t deal with not knowing wither you’ll come back,” my voice cracked on the end. He pulled me back to stare at him. His eyes blazed with determination and spoke each word through his teeth “Renesmee. I .Will. Come. Back. I will come back to you. I promise I will.” I stared at him and said “Jake…what about when you’re not here?” His eyes softened and said “Renesmee…every moment I’m away…I’ll be wishing to be here, just like now, holding you like this.” I looked at him and couldn’t help but be speechless. He was telling the truth. He would come back, for me. He would. He stared at me and I stared back and then something changed, but in truth nothing had changed. We were still looking at each other, but there was a low burning in me. The atmosphere was electric. His head was tilted towards me to look into my eyes and my arms where around his strong warm shoulders and his arms were wrapped around my waist. Our heads started to incline towards one another, I felt his breath coming closer and I felt a sudden panic; I didn’t know how to do this! Sure I’ve always yearned to touch his beautiful lips, to feel them against mine but I didn’t know how to do this. His face was still coming towards mine and mine was still going towards his and finally our lips met; His lips were as soft as they looked. I didn’t know what to do but our lips were moving together. They moved like two puzzle pieces being put together; perfectly. My hands twisted in his shaggy hair as his hands sled to the small of my back and the back of my neck. I felt his lips part as soon as mine did. We moved together. He stopped kissing my lips and went to my neck. He kissed my neck tenderly from the arch to the tip of my shoulder. I shuttered. It was like nothing I’ve felt before. I pulled his face back up and kissed his neck just as he did mine. He shuttered as well. Then as if we could read each other’s minds our lips met again. I heard nothing but our lips moving together and our hearts beating too loudly. Below was silent. But I didn’t have time to care. My mind was thinking of what this meant. Is this why it hurt so much to let him go? Was it because I loved him? I felt our breathing slow as our lips moved slower and slower until we stopped. I felt his fingers wipe away the tears that were flowing slowly down. He pulled my face towards his so he could look me in the eyes. I looked at his face and it was so peaceful. One of his hands slipped from holding my face, to trace my lips. I lifted my hand to caress his beautiful face. He looked at me with some new emotion in his eyes; love. I dropped my hand to his neck so I could bring myself closer to him, but before I could he picked my hand back up and placed it on his cheek and leaned into it. He smiled at me and I smiled back. He bent his face down to mine and we kissed intensely once again. Then he straightened up and smiled at me and said “We better go down.” I nodded. He took my hand and led the way. I was suddenly very scared. I didn’t know what everyone’s reaction was going to be. I slowed as the light grew brighter. He felt me slow and turned to look at me and said “What’s wrong?” I looked down at our hands intertwined and then to the bright light where everything was quite. Jacob chuckled and said “They knew it was going to happen so there not shocked.” I looked at him confused. How did they know? Jacob looked at me and laughed and said “Come on,” and urged me forward. I took a hesitant step then I realized I didn’t care. I loved Jacob and he loved me and if someone had a problem with it, then they would have to deal with me. This time I lead the way. We walked into the bright room to find everyone sitting. Everyone looked at us with different emotions. Mom with a happy expression, Dad with a slightly upset expression yet peaceful at the same time, Aunt Rosalie grimaced, Uncle Emmett trying to hide a mocking grin, Grandpa Carlisle relieved ,Grandma Esme relieved and excited, Aunt Alice somewhat upset also but very relieved and Uncle Jasper well he looked…just sick. I had to laugh at his expression. As soon as I laughed, everyone relaxed. I felt Jake turn toward the door. I knew then that it was time for him to go. I sighed. Everyone seemed to pick up on my mood and started their good-byes. Grandpa Carlisle was the first to speak. He said “Jacob to the best of luck.” Esme spoke next saying “Jacob, please be careful. You have things to worry about now.” She looked at our hands to make her point. Aunt Alice spoke next saying “Listen to Esme. She is right. You have priorities now, Dog.” Jasper chucked and said “Travel well Jacob.” Aunt Rosalie glared at him and said through her teeth “You had better come back.” Uncle Emmett said “Good luck Jacob. I guess I’ll be seeing you around then huh?” and laughed his loud laugh and made