Renesmee, L.Perez [the first e reader .TXT] 📗

“I’m completely fine Dad, stop freaking out,” and as soon as my foot touched the lawn, the door opened. Dad was there, sighing loudly, Mom was right beside him. They embraced me and took me into the house where everyone was sitting, waiting. Mom and Dad squeezed me between them in the love seat while everyone else disappeared. I guess once they saw that I was alive they could leave. Dad looked at me and said “Renesmee, didn’t I tell you not too long? I almost went crazy!” I sighed. Mom took my face in her hands and said “Nessie, we were so worried about you! We were going to call Billy!” Speaking of Billy brought back that conversation. Dad hissed and said “Curse Leah to the pit of hell!” Mom looked at him and with a worried expression. Dad looked at me then back to Mom. I turned to Mom; her face was paler than usual, her eyes bulged. Did I miss something?”Mom” I said in an alarmed voice “What’s wrong?” She coughed a little, like she was chocking, and shook her head. Finally she cleared her throat and said “Nothing you have to worry about now.” I sighed and got up. “I’m going to bed.” I didn’t feel like being around everyone. I heard Mom start to get up but Dad grab her hand and whisper “Let her be.”Mom sighed and sat back down. I went to my room and lay on my bed. I could hear Dad whispering something to Mom, much to low for me to hear. I laid there for a while just thinking about everything, when my hand felt over something in my pocket; my phone. I took it out and looked and saw that I missed Jacob’s call!

“Great,” I muttered, internally kicking myself. What if he was asleep? Would I be able to talk to him? I sat up and quickly re-dialed his number, crossing my fingers. It rang twice and then Jake picked up saying “Hello?” he said in a sleepy voice. “Hey,” I said trying to sound happier. “What’s wrong Nessie?” I rolled my eyes; he knew good and well what was wrong with me. “Jake I ran into Leah-“before I could finish he said “Renesmee whatever Leah says is a lie, don’t listen to her okay?” “I don’t see why I wouldn’t listen to her, seeing as your Dad stopped her just as you did.” Jacob was silent. “Jake, what the hell are you hiding from me? Why can’t you ever just tell me the truth?” I growled. He didn’t answer me. I felt the tears start overflowing and my breaths became hitched; he didn’t trust me enough to tell me everything. “Jake,” I said in a broken whisper “Please just tell me, please?” He didn’t answer me, though it sounded like he wanted too. I started to cry more because that silence hurt me more than anything else. “You don’t love me! You’re not over whoever she was! You lied to everyone including me!” I shrieked. I heard him say something but I didn’t care, I was so upset. “Well I hope you’re happy because you just proved to me that you love her more! Be happy with her!” and hung up the phone cutting off whatever he was saying. I threw the phone against the wall and wailed so loud; how could he love me if he still loved her? I sobbed into my pillows for who knows how long. No one dared come in my room. I cried myself to sleep. The next morning when I woke up the house was silent. Everyone went hunting and left me; probably didn’t want another break down. I got up and went to my window, careful to keep my eyes off the phone that somehow survived the vicious throw. I went into my bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror; I looked like hell. My eyes were puffy and still red, my hair stuck up in different, weird ways. I shook my head and went to take a shower. I let the water run across my body as I laid my head against the wall. I thought of Jacob. Maybe he was happier with her…maybe he was just with me because he needed someone to replace her. Ha, great I was the second place half breed. The warm water started to remind me of Jacob’s always warm hands so I quickly shut it off and grabbed my towel. I got dressed in a daze, not really seeing what I put on. I walked right past the window and phone and went down stairs. I went and tried to fix me some breakfast but I really didn’t have an appetite. I couldn’t clean the house because Aunt Alice always kept the house clean, I didn’t play the piano because I knew I would start playing of me and Jacob, I couldn’t go outside because it looked just how I felt; empty and lonely. What else was there that I could do? I sat in the living room and looked around, irritated. How come when I didn’t want something to do I had so much to do but when I really wanted some back-breaking work there was nothing at all! I sighed. “Think of something,” I told myself. “What can I do today?” I thought. A small voice, from the back of my mind said “Go look at your phone.” “NO!” I exploded back at it. “Why would I do that?” “Because you know you want to!” The voice answered with more volume. I sighed. The voice was so right. I sighed and walked slowly up the stairs to my room. I sat on the end of my bed and stared at the phone, laying face down, next to the rocking chair. I sat there for nearly an hour and a half, deciding wither or not I should go pick it up. I decided I was not going to go pick it up; I was going to find something else to do. I got up, made my bed, vacuumed my floor, the stairs, Mom and Dad’s room, the living rooms, the family office, Grandpa Carlisle’s office, Aunt Rosalie and Uncle Emmett’s room, Aunt Alice and Uncle Jasper’s room, and then the guest rooms. Then after that I scrubbed all the marble counter tops, the floors which included bathrooms, and the wide walls of glass we called windows. After that I washed all my clothes, dried, pressed, ironed and hung them all. I also did that for everybody else’s clothes too. I’d completely cleaned the house and it hadn’t even been two hours! I sighed again. What else was there possibly to do? I walked up the stairs back to my room. I opened the door and headed for the bathroom when I heard my phone go off. Someone was calling me. I ran to pick it up. I held it face down, afraid of seeing who it was. I sighed and said to myself “Don’t be a coward,” and turned the phone around; even though I knew who it was going to be, I hoped for something different. Incoming call Jake. 

Chapter Five: Roller Coaster Ride.

 “What?” I said with the rudest voice I could manage. “Renesmee come on! Don’t be like that!” Jacob whined from the other line. I snorted and said “Why not? At least I’m straight forward with you.” He sighed and said “Nessie, I know I’m not being fair but…Renesmee I love you. I really do!” Even though I was supposed to be mad, hearing him say that made my heart flutter. I shook my head feeling dizzy. “What do you want Jacob? I really don’t have the time for your lies,” I said angrily. He hesitated and said “Renesemee…I did love her but it was nothing compared to what I feel for you, nothing at all!” He waited for me to speak. “Well then why did you never tell me about this girl? Why are you always keeping something from me?” I questioned. He sighed and said “Renesmee…I’m sorry I never told you…I really am…it’s just…I’m scared you’ll end up hating me.” I was perplexed. “Jacob I would never hate you, ever. You know me better than that.” It was silent. “Yes you would…you would probably never want to see me again…you would probably feel sickened by me…” Jacob whispered. I shook my head, forgetting that he was not able to see me. “I would never Jacob.” He groaned “Oh come on Nessie! Call me Jake like you always do!” I half-smiled; He knew if I was mad at him I called him Jacob not Jake. I sighed. “Nessie…I promise I will tell you someday, I will, but just not now okay?” I sighed knowing that was all I could ask for. “Okay fine, fine! But pinky promise me that you will tell me someday.” He laughed “I would but I’m not there.” My eyebrows raised up “Are you avoiding the promise?” Jacob laughed again and said “Pinky swear Nessie.” I nodded and said “Okay then.” “Can I apologize?” he said in a soft voice. My heart melted hearing him say that. “No apology needed,” I said in an adoring tone. “Still, may I?” he asked. I sighed and said “Sure.” “I’m sorry Renesmee, I’m sorry that I’ve caused you so much stress and pain and that I’ve lied to you so much. Will you forgive me Renesmee?” We both laughed. “Of course Jacob, I’ll always forgive you, no matter what you’ve done.” We both laughed again. Then he said “Can I get my name back please?” I laughed. “Yes Jake, you’ve earned it back.” He laughed and sighed and yawned. “Jake now can I apologize?” He seemed surprised “Apologize for what? You did nothing wrong.” “Jake I’ve kept you up all night! I did do something! Now can I apologize please?” he chuckled and said “Go ahead.” “Jake…I’m sorry I’m being so emotional. I’m sorry I kept you up all night, and I’m sorry that I’m probably causing you so much stress. Will you forgive me for being an over reactive girlfriend/best friend?” Jacob laughed. “Most definitely, you know you were forgiven before you answered the phone.” I laughed. “Jake when are you coming home? I miss you,” I whispered the last part. He laughed and said “Not sure but I’ll let you know as soon as I know kay?” “Okay.” And from there on we talked about everything and anything. I don’t know how long we were on the phone for but when I heard him talking nonsense I knew he was asleep; exhausted from staying up so long and running patrol all night. “Good night Jake, love you,” I said. I heard someone pick up the phone and then a familiar voice came on “Hey Nessie.” “Hey Embry,” I said. “I was just about to use the phone when I heard Jake mumbling,” Embry said. I laughed out loud. “Yeah, sorry about that, I’ve kept him up all night. Tell Sam I said sorry kay?” He laughed and said “Just happened to Quil yesterday so he won’t be mad.” I nodded and said “Is there something more that you want to tell me Embry?” I asked. He hesitated and said “Um…well…I was gonna ask you something…” he trailed off. “Uh-huh?” I prompted. “Well…I called Sarah before Jake called you and…well we kinda got in an argument…and uh…she hasn’t answered my calls…I was wondering if uh…she called you and told you anything yet?” I smiled and said “Embry she hasn’t called me yet but do you want me to talk to her?” I heard the relief in his voice “Thanks Nessie, I’ll own you big time!” I laughed and said “Stay by the phone she’ll call you soon kay?” “Kay. Thanks again Nessie.” I laughed and hung up. Then I dialed Sarah’s number and called.

“Hello?” A dull voice answered. “Can I speak to Sarah?”