Hidden Secrets, L.K Du Plessis [my reading book txt] 📗

with this conversation were starting to go thin and I’m guessing so was his. Problem was knowing the both of us and how stubborn we are neither was just gone give in. “Because this is going to end bad and we can’t risk you being involve” “You don’t know it’s going to end bad, stop being so negative John” He looked up at me and his whole expression changed and he lowered his voice. “Yes. I. Do know it’s going to end badly and I’m not being negative I’m trying to protect you. There are things you don’t know” “First of all you don’t care about me one bit so don’t pretend you do and second if there are things I don’t know then tell me” “I can’t” That is such crap “In that case this conversation is over, I’m out of here”       I turn to walk away but he still had a grip on my arm to stop me. “Don’t Lex, please don’t”

I really wish he would stop this pleading my heart wants to melt. “Are you going to tell me what’s going on?” he took an exasperating breath “Only if you promise not to say a word” Really if I didn’t know any better I would have guess he was stalling for something. “Dam it Jonathan what kind of game are you playing?” “It’s not a game it’s serious and by telling you I risk more than what you can imagine so I need your word you wouldn’t tell a single soul what I’m about to tell you” His entire body language change and he was being dead serious, do I really want to know what he knows. In all my years of knowing Jonathan I’ve never seen him this serious for the second time today. “I promise” “Ok now I’m trusting you with my life here.” “Gees John just get on with it already would you”   He runs his hand through his hair again as to weigh his option of telling me. ”Come on John I gave you my word surely it means something” This seems to change his mind.

“Me and Ant are undercover cops” I looked at him dumb folded, did I just hear him right. “COPS?” He covered my mouth with his hand. “Shhh yes cops” I moved his hand away and lowered my voice to just above a whisper. “What do you mean undercover, undercover for what? What does that have to do with this job and helping James?” “We trying to take down Mike Mcklouwsky, James don’t know, we warned him not to take the job to stay away from Mcklouwsky but he didn’t listen. We’re planning to use this job to move in on Mcklouwsky and take him down for good. That’s why we don’t want you involved” This sounds so unreal. “This is bigger than I imagined” “I know b” Did he just wanted to call me babe. I ignore it and continue with my questions.  “What about my family, Vince, dad, James what happens to them?” “We’re going to try and get Vince and your father out before it goes down, and for James if he turns witness he is save”

He gave me a time to proses the information and waited patiently for my next question. “So why tell me and not them?” This made him smile. “Because we can’t risk James tipping Mcklouwsky off and blowing this, and you don’t want to listen to stay out of it, you’re so stubborn.” That made me smile, me being stubborn is the one thing I wouldn’t deny. “Thanks for the heads up but if you and officer knuckle head haven’t realised I’m only in this because you have no other choice” “We will figure something out” I raised my eyebrow. “Like what? Come on Jonathan you and I both know there is no time to find an inside man you can trust with this, and even if you put another cop under cover you risk making everyone suspicions” He knew I was right but the stubbornness in him didn’t want to give in. “You don’t understand Lex, you are going to be the one dealing with Mcklousky when he comes to put his claim in if something goes wrong he goes after you first.”

No I might be a little worried. “Then you and Anthony better make sure nothing goes wrong, be honest John do you really have another alternative?” He shook his head. “Not really, but we don’t want to risk your involvement” we both thought about this, both sides made a valid point so what do we do. I might not know how real police work but I have seen a lot of cop movies. “So then wire me or bug my office or do what it is you do to make sure it all goes according to plan. “This time its Jonathan that raise his eyebrow at my suggestion. “Are you serious?” He looked at me as if I just spoke in a different language or something. “I’m as serious as a heart attack. Now go tell my brother the new plan, I have to go take a walk”  “He is not gone like this, this isn’t some cop and robber show on television”  “Him not liking it that’s your problem, and stop treating me like a kid living in a fantasy” I pulled my arm free from him cross my arms over my chest and waited for another disapproval from him. “When did you get to be this grown up” I just shook my head and walked away. I should have said about ten years ago.

I left Jonathan by the tree in the back yard, this was big. I had to get out of there just go for a walk and think this through. “Is everything alright Alex?” “Yes mom everything is fine, I’m just going for a walk?” “Of course, are you sure everything is alright? You are very pale” Today of all days my mother decides to take notice of my wellbeing. “Everything is fine mom just need some air and space” She wasn’t buying it but she let it go regardless. “Alright then if you say so” “Thanks mom I love you’’ I gave my mother a quick hug grab my jacket and head out the door and down the street, just aimlessly walking and thinking.

Cops, Anthony and Jonathan are cops if my family had to find out there will be hell. If James found out and turned on them they will be dead. Once again I was left caring a secret that wasn’t even mine to keep the story of my life. Before I knew it I was down by the river a few blocks from home I decided this might be a good place to think so I sat down with my back against an old tree. I thought about the secrets I keep of others and all the damage it will do if it ever came out. Then I thought of Jonathan and how even after everything that has happened he still gets to me, takes my breath away with that smile of his and those eyes that seems like they can see thru all the bulls*#t straight to heart of me, and I hated him for that for all of it. “Hi” I nearly jumped out of my skin when I heard the voice next to me and looked up to see Emily.

“Hi, what are you doing here I thought you took the kids for ice-cream.” “We did then we bought them to feed the ducks.” She pointed to the other side where Vincent was with the kids throwing bread crumbs to the ducks. “Any way I saw you sitting and figured I’ll do my sister in law duties and come see if you are ok” We both laughed at the ‘sister in law duties” comment and she sat down next to me. “So are you ok” I shrug. “It’s kind of a lot to handle.” She didn’t look at me just broke some bread of and threw it at the river. “Have you spoken to him, about why he didn’t say anything before he left?” She cut straight to the heart of it, I love this girl she knows me so well. “There’s nothing to talk about Em.” “He cares about you Lexi everyone can see it. They write it off as brotherly love but it’s clear as day.” “It doesn’t matter anymore.” She looked at me thought about what I said then shook her head as she got up. “I still don’t know all the details, but you should talk to him its better than hiding from it. And I should get back to my husband, you need a right back?” “No I’m good, I think I’ll stay a little longer if it’s ok.” She bend down gave me a hug. “of cause its ok we can handle the kids just be safe ok.” I nodded and watch her walk back towards the other side.

 I though about what she said and about Jonathan not wanting me to be a part of this because maybe he cared about me or maybe it’s just to make sure I don’t blow the case. But why tell me. Why didn’t Anthony tell me, didn’t he trust me? This whole thing seems so out of control. My head hurts from all the thinking, I thought this was gone help me clear my head instead it just made me tired and more confused.  I needed to head home and face all of this. I made my choice of helping now I have to stick to it no matter what.

I don’t know how long I was gone when I finally got back home, but when I realised it was getting dark I knew I was out to long. I noticed Vincent’s SUV was gone, they must have decided to go home. “Where have you been I was about to call the police to send out a search party for you” I couldn’t help but smile at the irony of her wanting to call the cops when she has two of them in her house and don’t even know it. “I’m fine mom I just lost track of time” “It’s not save to be out so late alone” “Mom I’m fine, I’m alive. Now I’m gone go shower” I heard whispers and remarks as I went upstairs “What’s biting her?” “No idea but she is moody” I didn’t bother to listen who said what I didn’t care much. I check the time; it was just after seven so I popped into the girl’s room before I went to shower.

“Hey guys” “Hey mommy” “Hi Lexi”  “It’s almost bedtime so you guys better start tiding away the toys” “But mommy” “No, buts, tomorrow is school no arguments” “Ok” “Ok mommy” I was rewarded with hugs and kisses from my two favourite girls."Is mommy always this bossy" My heart nearly came to a standstill when Anthony suddenly spoke behind me. "No mommy is the greatest" "Yes the greatest" both girls agreed I'm the greatest. "Lexi could I talk to you for a minute please" "Sure, you girls clean up and I'll be back to check in a bit ok" "Ok"  We walked into the hall way and I gestured we should talk in my room, I didn't want to take a chance of anyone over hearing us. "Are you ok?” He genuinely looked concerned. "I'm fine Anthony" "I don't believe you Lexi, if you were fine why did you disappear for so long?" I could give him the long version but that might reveal things I don’t want him to know so I’ll just give him the short almost truth.

 "Come on Ant give me a break, I didn't disappear I went for a walk. In my defense it was a bit of a shock finding out my one brother and his friend is undercover cops and their mission just happen