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you came over on a hot summer afternoon
we had walked from the park because you still had no idea where i lived
i walked there
you walked there
we met up under the tree of our first hang out
you put me against it with a hug, you pulled away and gave me a sweet kiss
i smiled at your appealing face
you started to walk away
but i stood there against that tree, mesmorized
you turned around and of course asked me if my awkward self was coming
i snapped back into this nice reality and took your hand
we walked to my house
we entered my home with a greeting from my parents
they said hello to you
and you politely said hello back along with the questioning of their day
they started to talk but i squeezed your hand a bit tighter and told them we had to go
and we went
went to my room
the familiar place, where we shared our first kiss two days prior
i was going to kiss you
but not just that
i wanted more of you
and i had the strong feeling you wanted more of me too
we got to my room
and you took off your shoes along with me
we placed them by my closet door
and that's where they sat for the next two hours
i turned on a show
to drown out any possible noise
you laid on my bed
expecting us to take a break
from all the walking
but your expectations were denied
i climbed on top of you
you put your hands on my hips
i didn't grind on you
and you didn't make me
i bent down
and i placed my lips on yours
stealing a kiss away
but you didn't seem to mind
i sure didn't
i laid down beside you, ignroing my urges to touch you
we watched this show
by now i don't even remember what it was
i was too busy thinking about you
and me
you had your arm around me
and at first you were at my shoulder
it went down my arm
to my back
now it was on my behind..
you were giving me signs
on what you really wanted to do
i looked up at you
and you looked down at me
i smiled
you smiled
you knew
i knew
sad
it's sad when you get broken up with
it's also sad when you do the breaking
it's just sad in general
ending a relationship with someone
because you don't love them anymore
you'll sit there and wonder why you even dated this person in the first place
you feel like you wasted your time
you feel like you wasted their time
but in the end, you just forget each other
especially when you find a new him or her
when you're with another one it's like the before never existed
and that's ok
i guess
that's just how it works
can't really change that
it has todoes it have to be like this
i mean it doesn't have to be
but do you feel like it should
tell me what you think
say it out loud
i wanna hear it
i n e e d t o h e a r i t
i don't think it should personally
we don't have to be together
but do you have to treat me like that
yeah you're you
i'd do anything for you
for you
but i'm not just good for sexting and sex
you got needs
i can fulfill those
if you don't want me to
please leave
i'm better than this
but because you're you
i'm staying
and i'm giving
and i'm receiving
it's good enough for me
until it isn't
so please
make up your fucking mind
people get lonelylonely
it's a thing we all experience
some of us more often than others
and that's okay
to be lonely
we shouldn't let that loneliness
destroy us
it shouldn't have to be like that
but loneliness is a strong thing
that, we can't help
it's reasonable
i suppose
i've been destroyed by this thing called loneliess
too many times
my body isn't a sacred place like it's meant to be
it's on a display for any male passers to see
can you blame me
you could
i have an excuse
but is there really an excuse to whore yourself out
maybe that's why i have too many bad relationships
but whoring myself out
isn't how i got into them
that's not the only option i give myself when i get lonely
sometimes i look
for a person
who wants me
not just physically
but mentally as well
and sometimes i find them
and it's ok
for a while
until they slap you
until they touch you
until they leave you
but it's always like that
but it's not
it doesn't have to be
but it is for me
and i'd like to say
that's ok
but it's really not
too many times
too many times
and i'm still doing it
i think people would just call that idiocy
and i completely agree
fakecould you stand there
in front of a person who is hurting
and tell them you care
but you could give less than two fucks?
yeah
i'm a little hurt
simple
keep your words sweet and simple
that way you're understood
they would know at the least
if you spoke in complicated symphonies
you wouldnt be understood
they wouldn't know at all
you cant really be complicated
not with your words
not as a person
not with life
you wont be understood if you cant understand yourself
you cant expect that from someone
i learned that
what have you learned
nights
do you remember when you were so in love with someone
it was new
fresh
lovely
you couldn't get their face out of your head
the scent of their skin
the jolly taste of their lips
you wanted to see them as much as you could
you texted all the time
it was 24/7
was
it never stays 24/7
and that's ok
as long as the love
affection
adoration
and all the gooey stuff is still there
then it's ok
but you know there are times when that doesn't happen
and you stop seeing each other
you barely text at all
all that love is gone
it just slowly faded away
just how paper does when you set it on fire
slowly the paper no longer exists
but there are times
when you do see each other
and
you're happy
for a second
but then you get annoyed
disappointed
frustrated
you don't kiss anymore
you don't see their face anymore
you don't think about them
you can't remember the last they kissed you
you can't remember the scent of your skin after you hugged them
you can't remember when you loved them
and it hurts
not just you but them too
at least you would like to think
but who knows
we sure don't
but we don't talk anymore haha
when we do
it's just for favors
sexual favors
and we don't mind
but we do
at least i do
i mind
but does he?
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