There's Only You, Katie [that summer book .txt] 📗

he dated such a bitch.

"Well, yeah Tommy, that's right, the asswhole douche. Yeah no, that didn't work. You know he actually begged me to stay with him when i was breaking up with him. He said he loved me. I think he just wanted me to put out." my eyes almost popped out of my head when she said this. Tommy had said that they did have sex. Several times. How many other guys had talked shit about Amy?

"You mean you didn't..." I couldn't finish my sentence not knowing how to ask her if she had actually not had sex with Tommy, or any of the others. I almost didn't want to know.

"Ohh, god no. Not with Tommy, not with anybody. Despite what everybody says," She gave a small laugh and i let out the breath i was holding. "No, Jake, i'm a virgin. Don't worry. I am just very indecisive, if i can't choose a guy, why would i let anyone of them have it right?" Her face was such a bright red. I wasn't sure why she felt she could tell me any of this, maybe it was because we used to be so close. Whatever the reason, i'm more than glad she still trusted me. I turned back towards her letting myself get closer again. Inhaling her scent.

"Well, i mean i'm glad of course, i won't have to kick anybody's ass now." I tucked a stray curl behind her ear and stroked her cheek with my thumb. When she closed her eyes it sent my heart racing. Was this an ok to kiss her? She hadn't brushed my hand away. She even leaned into my hand just lightly, but i felt it. Her Skin is so soft. Her lips look even softer. I leaned in closer towards her and just before our lips met she opened her eyes. They seemed so much more green then i remembered. I let my hand skim down her throat and felt my heart match her pulse. With both of our hearts racing I went the rest of the way feeling her lips were softer then they looked.

Amy's P.O.V.

OHMYGOD! I'm kissing him. I'm actually kissing Jake. Sometime after he started the kiss his fingers tangled in my hair digging threw my curls as i tugged him closer to me. I felt his heart race just as fast as mine maybe even faster. It was a blessed thing we were in school other wise i would have made a very bad decision to get myself even closer to him.

Almost as if he heard what i was thinking he pulled me up and on his lap. Needing to breath i broke away from him as he kissed down my neck. I should stop him. He is dating April. God, April. I hate that girl to my very core and have since 3rd grade. It only went deeper after she stole my Jake from me. It still didn't make this anymore right. Only made it more wrong.

"Jake." His mouth covered mine again, i suppose it was my fault, i more moaned his name then sounded like i wanted him to stop. settling even closer to him now i felt my heart tugging me back and away from him. I had to stop. I had to leave and go. I just have to think of April. "Jake, god Jake, no. Stop." I pushed myself up and out of his grasp. At first he didn't let me go, but after looking at my face he just watched me pace in front of him. I didn't know what to say.

"I, I'm sorry Amy." He dropped his head in his hands and went silent. Why did he have to wait til now to kiss me? Why couldn't he kiss me back in 8th grade?

"No, sshhh. It's ok. I get it. It was a mistake ok. Really. Don't feel bad, i'm not going to tell anybody i promise. We both just got really worked up," I stopped pacing and looked at him as he tried standing up and walking over to me. I didn't want him to touch me again, i would melt. "No, don't get up. really i'm just going to go. No, worries though Jake, nobody but us will ever know about this ok?." With that i sped off towards the school running blindly threw the empty halls as the tears began to fill my eyes.

How, could i be so stupid? He had April, he would never leave April, especially not for me. I was just Amy, i wasn't head cheerleader or perfect. I was just me. I sat there in the stall for the rest of my free period crying my heart out. I felt weak and tired by the time i realized i had to go to my next class. I just hope i don't see Jake the rest of the day. It's bad enough i will have to see him every morning in homeroom. See him with April, happy, not even sparing me a second glance or thought. It was too much. i love him, no. I would just find myself a new 'toy'. That was exactly what i needed. It would help me get my mind off Jake and that kiss.

Chapter Three

Jake’s P.O.V.

It’s been almost two weeks since I kissed Amy. Two very long depressing two weeks. She hasn’t even tried to talk to me. I on the other hand have gone out of my way to try and talk to her. I almost had her talking to me, but of course April had to ruin it for me. I just wanted to tell Amy that I didn’t think for one second that it was a mistake that we had kissed. It wasn’t even close to a mistake. It was a wake up call if it was anything. I never had the same kind of reaction, not even close, with April.

With April it was always if I kissed her enough and well enough she’d put out, but with Amy, it was like all my senses exploded, I didn’t even think about having sex with her. Well, that’s a lie, I did, but not while I kissed her. While I was kissing her all I could even begin to comprehend was that it was Amy in my arms. My Amy. I’d dreamed of kissing her for years and I finally did it. I finally got the courage to take the plunge. And she still pushed me away. Even more than back in 8th grade.

Amy wouldn’t even look at me during homeroom, I had even over heard people talking about over hearing her asking to change homerooms. I’m not even going to lie, it pissed me off. I had to find a way to talk to her. I know I can’t after school, because of football practice, and then I have to drive April home. I mean really I didn’t have to drive her home, but she was still my girl and I couldn’t just leave her stranded could I? No, sadly. I was walking to my locker during my free period and I saw her leaving the girls bathroom. I took my sign from god and followed her.

“Amy, wait up.” I called after her but she only walked faster. Ok, now this was taking it too far. She couldn’t avoid me the rest of our lives. I ran up next to her an grabbed her wrist. “Amy, will you please stop. Talk to me please.” It literally killed me to see the hate mixed with pain and love on her face and in her eyes.

“I have nothing to say to you Jake. Let me go. I have things to do. I’m late.” She yanked her wrist out of my grasp, but when she tried to walk away I blocked her path with my arms. She was not getting away that easy. She was going to talk to me, I needed her to talk to me, explain to me why she was doing this to me. I needed her in my life.

“Amy, please, I just want to talk, please talk to me.” I pleaded with her and maybe she felt bad for me, but she slowly nodded her head and allowed me to take her hand and lead her down the hallway. I wanted to talk to her somewhere more private, where nobody could even by chance walk by and overhear us talking.

“Where are we going Jake?” She asked me impatiently, but she kept her hand in mine as I walked out to the parking lot. I kept quiet until we reached my car and she eyed me nervously and I only smiled and opened the door for her.

“Don’t worry, Amy, I’m not going to kidnap you. I just want to talk where nobody will hear what we are talking about. I hate eavesdroppers.” And I really don’t need April knowing what we were talking about. I will deal with April without the help from the gossip pool.

“Ok,” She got in and I closed the door behind her. After I climbed into the car I just looked at her. Something was different about her, off almost. It was her eyes. Her eyes were missing the light they usually held even when we were kids. “Well, are you going to talk, or just stare at me like an idiot?” I knew she meant it as a snappy comeback, but the smile lit her face after I shot her a crooked grin. I reached for her hand on her leg, but she pulled it away just in time and so I settled for her leg. I traced little patterns on her thigh as I thought of what exactly it was I wanted to say to her. I knew I wanted to talk to her, but as soon as I saw her, I couldn’t remember why.

“It wasn’t a mistake.” Was all I could come up with as I watched my fingers on her thigh. She stiffened and was really silent for a long time before she finally spoke.

Amy’s P.O.V.

I didn’t know what to say. It took him two weeks to tell me our kiss wasn’t actually a mistake. Well, I did kind of purposely avoid him. Still, he could have done what he just did sooner. I watched his fingers trace nonsense patterns on my thigh, giving me goose bumps.

“I dunno, I mean you’re with April. We should have never kissed.” He yanked his hand away from my leg so fast and then punched his steering wheel causing me to jump two inches off the seat. Jake looked so pissed, but I couldn’t lie to him, he was with April, still even now, and kissing was cheating on her.

“Fuck April ok. For just one minute forget her. I have been waiting since 3rd grade to kiss you Amy. Don’t even look at me like you never knew! I was in love with you Amy, I always was in love with you.” His hands shook as he took mine in his. Why was he telling me this, why now? After all this time? He’s with April. I can’t forget that. Not now, not until he left her, if he left her. I can’t just let him make me his puppet, the girl he goes to because he knows I won’t tell anybody. The girl on the side that he tells he loves and wants to be with more than anything, but it’s just not the right time to break up with his actual girlfriend. No, she wasn’t going