There's Only You, Katie [that summer book .txt] 📗

and she only knew this because me and my mom were close. We shared everything, especially since my father had died when I was 5. It was hard on her more than me since I didn’t remember him, but I tried to help her by not pushing her away as most teens did their parents. My mom was pretty much my best friend, especially once Jake walked out of my life.

“I know, I’ve missed her too, more than I think she knows. I think about her all the time, I don’t know what to do.” Jake sighed and I could picture him as he said this to my mom, he would probably look lost and confused and amazingly adorable.

“You be her friend, Jake, just like you used to be, and you tell her how you feel about her. I could see it you know, when you two were up there, you guys are good together, you always have been.” I smiled to myself as I thought of just how true my mom’s words were. I tried to shake everything from me so they wouldn’t know I was listening before I walked into the kitchen all smiles.

Jake’s P.O.V.

Still thinking about what Amy’s mom had just said to me, I looked up as I watched Amy walk into the kitchen, with a bright smile on her face. As I watched her, a felt something, like a jab and I smiled at her. I love this girl. I always have. I don’t know how I let her get away from me for so long. All I had to do was tell her how I felt. I had to leave April and finally be with Amy, the way I have wanted to since 3rd grade. Seems silly to me that I would love Amy for so long. And what had almost happened up in her bedroom, had my heart racing so fast still, it hadn‘t slowed once since she kissed me. She down next to her mom and looked over at me, like she was waiting for something.

“You know what, I think I really should get back home, I am so sorry I can’t stay for dinner Mrs. Carter. I will see you in school tomorrow Ames.” I reached across the table and squeezed Amy’s hand and smiled at her mom before I got up and walked out. I’m sure Amy wanted some privacy when she told her mom about what happened and all I could think about was going to April’s and telling her how I felt, I couldn’t put it off any longer. I put it off for almost five years now. Five years way too long. I sped the couple blocks over to April’s house and ran up to her doorstep and banged hard until April answered.

“Thought you had to baby-sit for your mom?” She looked at me and I could tell she wanted to be pissed, but it soon left her face and she hugged me. April really was a special girl, but she just wasn’t for me. I can’t believe I let this go on for so long. It’s now or never. I took a deep breath as she let me in and we walked into her bedroom. We sat down on her bed and I turned to look at her.

“April, babe, we gotta talk.” A look of terror crossed her face after I said this and she immediately shook her head and pushed me back until I was laying down and she climbed on top of me. She kissed me hard trying to force my lips to part for her and try and make me forget everything but kissing her. Not tonight.

“No, baby, we don’t have to talk, you don’t have to say anything, just kiss me baby.” She tried again to kiss me but I didn’t kiss her back and she even went as far to try and reach down into my pants, that was when I pulled her off me. I pushed her back a safe distance as she pouted at me. She didn’t want to hear it I know, but I can’t just stay with her because she didn’t want it to end. It wasn’t fair to either of them.

“Really, April, no, I mean it. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t do us anymore,” I saw the tears start to fill her eyes and I looked away from her, she always knew crying undid me every time. “Please, don’t do that. It won’t change my mind, not this time. We can’t be together anymore. I can’t be with you. I don’t feel that way for you April. I am so sorry.” I reached over to her to wipe a tear off her cheek and was surprised to see the anger there in her eyes. She recoiled from my touch as if I had burned her and narrowed her eyes at me.

“There’s somebody else isn’t there? You hooked up with some slut in school didn’t you?” She reached her hand up and I caught it just in time before she could slap me. What the hell was she talking about?

“No, April, I didn’t hook up with anybody ok?,” Almost did, but didn’t in the end. We only kissed, but I wasn’t about to tell April this so she would hate Amy, since I planned to let the whole school know how I felt about Amy tomorrow when we walked into school together, if Amy would walk in with me that was. “And really if you want me to be honest April, there was only ever her for me. I didn’t realize that until now, it took me this long to see it, but there’s only her. I’m sorry.” Looking more and more angry April shot me a death glare and so I took that as my queue to get up and walk out and leave. I can’t believe I finally did it, I finally freed myself from April, now I could have Amy, really have Amy. I couldn’t keep the smile off my face as I drove home.

Amy’s P.O.V.

Having dinner with my mom was so nice for a change, I almost didn’t want to tell her about what had happened, or well almost happened if Jake hadn’t shown up. I have to though I know that much, before she hears of it from somebody else.

“Mom, something happened today, after school.” I wasn’t sure how to go on and I was glad when she put her hand on mine and smiled softly at me.

“I know what happened honey. The police called me, don’t you worry we don’t have to talk about it now, when you’re ready. I am just grateful Jake was there to save you. I am so sorry.” As tears welled up in my moms eyes I got up as she did and we hugged and cried together. I was so glad she wasn’t angry with me, it was just as much my fault for allowing Sam over here, even when I didn’t know him. It was stupid. And she was right I was lucky Jake came along. And god he must have thought I was such a slut with the way I threw myself at him, especially since he just got up and left as soon as I came into the kitchen. I helped my mom clean up and then went up to my room to do my homework and shower before I went to bed. It seemed as if nothing was quite making sense to me though, because no matter what I was doing, I kept replaying how I threw myself at Jake.

I felt like such a slut. I can’t believe I acted like that. Well, he didn’t have to worry, I wasn’t going to so much as kiss him anymore. It was so wrong, to think about wanting to kiss him. I’d be lucky if he even talked to me. I can’t talk to him though, not after tonight. I don’t think I even want to go to school tomorrow, but I can’t just skip because I don’t want to face Jake and see what he thought of me in his eyes. I didn’t want to see the accusations in his eyes. And god what if he felt guilty and told April? My life would really be over then because then April would tell the whole school and the whole school already thought I was slut, and then to throw myself at a boy that was clearly taken. Wow, how exactly did I ever get myself in this mess? As I fell asleep I made up my mind that I would go to school and ignore Jake and everybody else.

Jake’s P.O.V.

As soon as I woke up in the morning my thoughts were already racing. I showered and dressed as fast as I could tripping as I ran down the stairs and grabbed my car keys and jumping into my car. I couldn’t remember the last time I was so excited to get to school. All I could think about was seeing Amy and telling her I broke up with April. I couldn’t wait to tell her and then kiss her. In front of everyone and not caring who the hell saw us. I just felt so completely energized thinking of everything. I pulled into my usual spot and waited looking around for her car. I switched on the radio when I got bored sitting in silence and sang along when ‘Risque’ by Cute Is What We Aim For, came on.

I got birds in my ears
And a devil on my shoulder
And a phone to the other
And I can't get a hold of her
And what's a crush to do?
And what's a crush to do when he can't get through?

Medically speaking you're adorable
And from what I hear you're quite affordable
But I like them pricey
So exaggerate and t-t-t-t-t-t-trick me
Pretty please, just trick me
Pretty please

I got birds in my ears
And a devil on my shoulder
And a phone to the other
And I can't get a hold of her
And what's a crush to do?
And what's a crush to do when he can't get through?

I'm obsessed and stressed with this mess
I can't think of things
To write down, to type down
And these fingertips are moving faster than these lips
So you can only imagine how jealous my mouth is
So you can only imagine how jealous my mouth is

I got birds in my ears
And a devil on my shoulder
And a phone to the other
And I can't get a hold of her
And what's a crush to do?
What's a crush to do?

I got birds in my ears (I got birds in my ears)
And a devil on my shoulder (And a devil on my shoulder)
And what's a crush,
And what's a crush to do?

Ahhh...
I'll turn on a dime, spin you 'round
So you can shine, shine right now
We'll even have a crowd
We'll make this purchase count

Medically speaking you're adorable
And from what I hear you're quite affordable
But I like them pricey
So exaggerate and t-t-t-t-t-t-trick me

I got birds in my ears (birds in my ears)
And a devil on my shoulder (devil on my shoulder)
And what's a crush to do?
What's a crush to do?

I got birds in my ears (I got birds in my ears)
And a devil on my shoulder (And a devil on my shoulder)
And what's a crush,
and what's a lush to do?

I got birds in my ears (I got birds in