Enemies with Benefits, KiKi XoXo [reading books for 4 year olds .txt] 📗

love your anger sex." She says and I can picture the smile on her face. 

 

"Paige and I working through it.." Robbie voice snaps me out of my little weird state. 

 

"You're such a panzy. Just tell her how you feel already." Carmen groans, not in a sexual way though. 

 

"No." He says, "Things are already hard enough for us. I don't need this screwing things up more."  He sighs, and I hear pants being zipped. 

 

"What ever.. until next time you need me." Carmen purrs and that's my que to leave! I zoom ot of the library, and run into Jason. I apologize and grab my book, and his paper work. Handing it to him, he studies me a moment. 

 

"You look like you saw a ghost." He takes a note. I just shrug, his eyes flick towards the bathroom behind me. "The guys room?" He raises an eyebrow. 

 

"Nothing happened." I role my eyes, of course the bathroom has the same reputation it did when he was in school.  "I'm so late!" I say going across the hall, even though history is now the last thing on my mind. Holy shit that was Carmen and Robbie! They were doing the dirty! Carmen has a boyfriend. Something about anger sex. Robbie likes me! Like likes me! I just take my seat in the desk, and I'm sure I still look a little white from everything, so Mr. Parker doesn't ask. Once class is over, I zoom out of the school completely not wanting to see anyone. I'm totally lost and disgusted right now! Sitting in my car trying to work through everything I jump when someone knocks on the window. 

 

"Mr. Parker." I say roling down the window. He looks at me funny for a minute, realizing he scared me. "What's up?" I ask, scratching my eyebrow. 

 

"Are you okay? You were quiet in class, and it took you fifteen minutes to get your book." He says leaning against the window frame. of course. I look at my book bag in the passenger seat, trying to think of an excuse.

 

"I couldn't get into my locker... I  had to go to the office." I say, that's never happened to me before. But it has happened in the school. Glancing at him, I see he doesn't believe me. "It's nothing really!" I say, trying to shrug it off. My phone starts ringing, looking at the caller I.D  I see Robbie's name come up. I ignore the call. No way do I want to talk to him, at the moment I don't even want to see him!

 

"Who was it?" He asks me, obviously he isn't going to drop this.

 

"Robbie." I say, not wanting to lie to him anymore then I have too. Now he is confused, and I really don't want to explain.  "I'm just not happy with him... that's all." I say wishing he would take a hint. 

 

"Why?" He asks, standing up and stretching. I realize how weird this must look. Him being a teacher and me a student.  The parking lot has cleared too. 

 

"He is being dumb... he found out about me tutoring Jake and isn't happy about it. Jealous." I say, realizing why he got so mad about it. If he likes me, then he is worried I'll fall for Jake. Well he was right to be worried. 

 

"To be honest I'm worried about you tutoring him too. Paige, he isn't a guy you want to get mixd in with." Now I'm getting the talk from Austin too. "We're just looking out for you."

 

"I know but you both think I can't take care of myself and I can." I say sitting back in my car not wanting to be here.  My phone beeps with a text message, and I look at it expecting it to be Robbie. 

 

Jake:  My dorm now. 3:53 P.M 

 

Realizing that Mr. Parker can probably read it, he probably already did, I shove the phone back into the outside pocket.

 

"Why do you have to go to his dorm?" He asks, not sounding happy. 

 

"Tutoring. He wants to do it everyday, so his grade will go up faster." I say, which isn't a lie. That was originally the plan. Now though, I think he means we need to talk.  "Kinda why I need to get going..." I add. 

 

"What ever." He says, "Bye." Then he walks back towards the school. He is mad. He doesn't believe me.  Roling up my window, I go straight to Jake's dorm. Going up to his room, surprised there isn't any guys just hanging out. I knock and I hear him say come in. Taking a deep breath, I go in.  

 

"Hi." I say quietly. He smiles, at me a real smile not one of his cocky  ones. Like he is actually happy I'm here. I suppose he is though, he probably wants me here to do certain things. I'm not gonna crack though. I stand by the door, not wanting to come into the room a whole lot. "What do you want?"  I ask, trying to not sound mad or scared. Which I am, but not with him. Well actually I am scared of him, I'm scared I'm gonna crack. 

 

"Are you scared?" He asks, instead. Walking towards me, I can see he is studying me, trying to figure out where my feelings and emotions are. I take a step back, and I feel the door behind me.  Oh boy do I regret coming here. I should've said some where in public, but then people would've been able to see and hear us.  "What are you scared of?" He asks, now directly in front of me. He moves a strand of hair, that was covering my face slightly. I look directly in front of me, which is his chest, but it's easier to look at right now then his face. 

 

"I just... umm.." I don't have any idea what to say. Being this close to him is making my mind run wild. What's goign to happen? I can't crack, if I crack then he'll no he effects me. "I'm not comfortable... that's all." I say, gaining a little courage. Although I am perfectly comfortable. I like having him this close, I'd prefer him actually touching me, whether holding my hand or kissing, any touch. I can' let him know that. 

 

"Well, what would make you more comfortable?" He asks in a whisper. I know that voice. I know what comes next. 

 

"You leaving me alone." I say slowly. That wasn't what he expected to hear. I look up at him through my lashes, and he looks like he is fighting some  internal battle. "I can't keep doing this... I'm not gonna be another girl you use." Even though I already have been. Looking him the eyes, I see him again. A little child, unsure and scared. I look away, a little confused and still scared. 

 

"I.." he begins, and it makes me feel worse. His pause, he doesn't know what to say. I'm calling him out on the truth. I reach behind me for the doorknob, not wantingto be here any longer. "Paige, don't go." He says, grabbing my hand. 

 

"I can't sta-" He cuts me off. Pressing him body to mine and joining our lips. Then from there things go downhill on my whole idea of not cracking. 

Chapter 31- Performance

Paige's POV

 

I lay in his bed, completely naked. Catching my breath. I cracked.  I cracked under pressure, I couldn't say no. Oh god am I in a lot trouble now. Closing my eyes trying to figure out what I should do, he gets up. Neither of us has said anything. It was like wild fire, the moment he did touch me. Uncontrolable and sadly awesome as hell. He goes to the bathroom, I'm up and throwing my clothes on before I even realize it. Then I'm down in my car and driving away. I go to my dorm, and lock the door behind me. Then I lock the bathroom door, and I take a twoo hour shower. 

 

I keep going back, and thinking, if he hadn't touched me, I would've been okay... I think. It was the damn touch that set me off and made me crack. I get dressed in my fluffiest and warmest pj's and snuggle under my blankets wanting the world to slwoly disapear. God, what's going to happen tomorow? I get up from the nest I made, I go down to the kitchen grabbing a apple juice and acontainer of rasberries. Super for the night. I snuggle in again, and watch what is on the T.V when I turn it on.

 

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I plop into a seat, in the audirotium trying to keep a low profile. I don't want to see Jake. I don't want to see Robbie. I'm gonna end up in both of there arms this morning and during school while we show the school today. Once everyone gets here we're all told we don't need to do costumes today, sense we'll be showig the school in costumes and makeup. Practice begins, and so far so good, apparently Robbie and Jake can tell I don't want to see either of them! After my first scene, with Robbie and he says my favorite line in the whole musical. I go off stage, and Jake is there waiting for me. I swerve around him, not wanting to deal with this. 

 

"You have a habit of running away don't you?" he asks following behind me. 

 

"I'm not in the mood. Now, leave me alone... for good this time." I whisper back to him. I see him reach for me, but I pull my hand away before he can touch me. "I mean it Jake. I'm done being your little pet." I turn facing him. 

 

"My pet?" He says bemused, I glance around the room we're going to draw attention to us soon. 

 

"Just leave me alone." I walk away, and that's that. He leaves me alone for the rest of practice. Robbie tries talking to me, but I ignore him, or pretend I have to use the bathroom. I don't know what to say to him, I don't want to tell him I know, but I can't pretend I don't. They way they talked made it sound like that wasn't the first time either. Carmen and Robbie have been having sex for a while now! Holy shit, and all this time I've thought they hated each other! What about Wyatt? I thought Carmen loved him? Apparently not. 

 

I'm just making myself even more mad. I shake myself trying to unclench my muscles, and get on with my day at school. I've been through all of my classes without issue so far, so I'm hoping that keeps up. Keeping track of everything as the day goes by I feel good for some reason. Yet, I can feel a sadness and a anger inside me wanting to bust through. Anger with my friends, and sadness for loosing Jake. I keep it bottled up, and I slowly forget about it.  It's friday, I get the weekend to forget all of this.

 

Then the musical cast gets called to the auditorium to get ready. I lay my head down on the desk begginf for someone to shoot me. Reluctantly I get up, and make my way there grabbing my dress changing. I get