Enemies with Benefits, KiKi XoXo [reading books for 4 year olds .txt] 📗

eyes. I want to hold his hand like we do during role call, and hug him. Hold him and have him hold me. I'm falling in love. That is the one thing everyone knows if off limits. Falling in love with Jake Lincoln. He is uncapable of falling in love or feeling love. Accept his family, as I saw at his house.  

 

Laying my head against my door as I close it. Me the one girl who said she would never fall for a guy like him, is falling fast and hard for the worst one there is.

Chapter 32- Needs

Jake's POV

 

Am I using her? I know that is what it probably seems like, but is that really truly what I am doing? If I was I wouldn't keep going back to her, I also wouldn't want her so much. It seems like I can't get enough of her! I know I need her, but before all off this sex stuff started happening it was because she knew who I really was. I just wanted to her to be around so I could be myself. She brings out the best in me. Now though, I need her on a whole new level.  Not only do I need to be around her, I need to be close to her touching her. Feeling that skin to skin contact. It's not your normal fire work, this is more like a huge ass bomb explosion! After I finish showering, I get dressed unsure if I should be upset she left me again. 

 

What is happening? I already know I'm getting soft for her, but this is more. It has to be. She is different from everyone, and honestly I'm very mad at myself for not noticing her sooner. I wish I would've paid better attention in middle school, then maybe thing between us would be different. Maybe I'd be in Robbie's place... no I wouldn't want that. He is friendzoned, and apparently has some other issues going on with him as well.  Maybe though if I paid just a little bit more attention to her back then, she wouldn't feel the way she does about me. I don't understand how I didn't remember her at all, or how I haven't seen her at all before. I've always had an eye for spotting girls, but she slipped through some how... it makes me wonder how. 

 

Deciding that I wont dwell on it, even though I know I wont be able to fully push it out of my head, I try and get a group of guys together to go down to the field do play some baseball. I get ahold of a bunch of my friends and we all meet up at the field, I wish that the baseball field wasn't right next to all the animal housing. It always gives it a funny smell. Horse and cows on one side, and the reptile center on the other. Yes, we have reptile area. That' just how 'upper class' this damn school is. It drives me nuts. I wish I went to a normal school everyone in a while, but then again I'm happy to be here as well. I do have good friends, and coaches. Beside, my family is one of the big investers in this school, so of course I should go here. 

 

After a couple innings we all take a break, and talk about just how school is going. Jason comes into the conversation sense he is the new coach for baseball, and I slowly take myself out of that conversation. 

 

"Jake, is it true that Jason is here for one of the students?" Peter asks, I toss a by up into the air catching it without thinkng about it. I think about it for a minute. I don't know... it could be I guess. I thought he came here to go after Paige, but I don't think so anymore. He hasn't really mad any moves on her, and he practically told me I should go for it.  

 

"I don't know... I think he has some kind of motive like that.  I don't think he's after one student though... he is just trying to make sure I don't kill his reputation." I sigh, I could really careless if I pass his reputation or not. That's the last thing I need to worry about. 

 

"Dude you've got too! This place needs a new legacy man, and second generation Linlcon sounds like a great canadite!" The guys agree giving me pats on the back, and talking about what I can do to surpass my brothers awesomeness. We get back to game, then and we also send Wyatt out to get us something to eat. We mess around waiting for him, and once he is back we all sit by the pitchers mound and munch on the cheeseballs, mini tacos, french fries, and other snacks we got. I glare at the piece of rubber where the pitcher stands, even though I not made at the rubber I'm mad at the pitcher. Robbie, has really been getting on my nerves. All of the drama with Paige is enough to tick me off, but having sex with my friends girl friend I'm not okay with at all. Even though I'm partly sure I've slept with girls who were in relationships. Wyatt really likes Carmen, and I don't want to tell him what I know. If Carmen is cheating on him he should know. Also Carmen isn't a good enough girlfriend for Wyatt if she is cheating one him!I look away from the mound unsure where my thoughts on the whole mess stand. 

 

"Where is Schroeder?" Daniel, asks. Speaking of the devil. 

 

"He is probably tired from performing that play." Peter jokes, "By the way that play was actually pretty cool. I didn't know you could act like that!" He compliments me. 

 

"That girl too!" Manson sit up, he was laying down on his back. "who ever played that Meg girl. You had to come out with her! She was hot."  I lay back now trying to not seem at all interested. I'm not a fan of all the guys hitting on her in anyway, but I don't want to give anything away with what's going on. 

 

"That's Carmen's friend Pagie." Wyatt speaks up, I glance at him and he wiggles his eyebrows at me. He know about the tutoring thing. He knows to keep his mouth shut. 

 

"Jake how was she?" Peter asks, assuming we've been together. I shrug my shoulders, and they all stare at me now. "You haven't done her yet?" 

 

"Nope.." I say, "I've got a long list to get through before I get to a musical geek." I explain.  I know she isn't a musical geek, I'm just trying to keep their attention off of her. 

 

"Oh, she can't be that bad! She fucking hot man, who cares anyways?" then they all start agreeing with Peter. "Hey man, you get first picks... but if you don't hurry up I'm gonna beat ya to her." I don't want to listen to this anymore. 

 

"Oh shit.. speaking of the musical.. I have a private rehearsal. I have to go." I get up, as do the others. We all clean up the food, and I wave bye to the guys saying I take care of the gear. I don't have a reahersal, I just didn't want to talk about Paige any longer.

 

"No! Stop. Jason, put it down!" I hear her voice, I imediately sit up looking in the direction. I see Paige with Jason, and he is holding a snake. "Put it back!" She says, again. Jason hands it back to the student, and he apologizes to her.  They both start laughing about it, and then start walking this way.  "You're such a jerk sometimes." she says, and he stretches his arms out.

 

"I try my hardest!" He sighs. What are they doing? Why are they together? Something isn't right with this. Why would Paige be with him? It's almost as if they know each other.. more then only seeing each other twice. Once at my house, and the other time at the gym.  

 

"Alright what did you think of the musical?" she asks him. They turn towards the shed that holds new bases and chalk for the diamond. I stay quiet and still so I can hear them

 

"Robbie's pretty good. I didn't know he could sing." Jason replies, "My little brothers got some skills too. But you must've taught him everything he knows."

 

"No... he was actually pretty good at it. Kind of like you and dancing... it just came naturally." She says, it gives me a hint of smile. She complimented my skills. 

 

"I have to say though... you were probably the star of the show. Not only did you look hot, you sang and danced. Also handled youself between to guys who were obviously trying to pine for your attention. I role my eyes at him. He called her hot, that's pushing limits for what teachers can say to students. Also I wasn't pining over her, he is just trying to put that image into her head.

 

"Robbie has always kind of been like that." She says, and I can tell Robbie is still a very touchy subject with her. "He has really been pissing my off lately...." 

 

"What? Robbie Schroeder your middle school crush pissing you off?" Jason asks. 

 

"I don't like him like that anymore." she says sternly. 

 

"No, now you like my brother." Jason smiles down at her.

 

"I do not!" she stops walking, crossing her arms. "He is a huge jerk. A good looking jerk don't get me wrong but..."

 

"You mean to tell me, that you haven't fallen for the Lincoln charm yet?" He looks back at her, she just shakes her head. With me knowing the truth that she has it makes me smile. "I know you have once."

 

"No.. not once." she says walking back to get next to him. 

 

"Ah yeah, once. Although... I guess there wasn't really much charming going on there... just the curious mind of a girl."

 

"I was wondering when you were going bring that up... can we just forget it.. is was like years ago."

 

"No way am I forgetting that. I take pleasure knowing in knowing that I was your first." Jason smiles at her, she just roles her eyes. My stomach clenches and I feel like I'm going to be sick. He was her first? They go into the shed and I can't here them anymore. What does that mean? How do they know each other? Years ago? I don't understand. 

 

I know what I need, and I know what I want. I need Jason gone, out of this damn school. I want Paige. I just want her with me where I know no other guys are trying to get her. Aparently though she has fucking history with my brother! How though? They're years apart, we were in middle school and he was in college. Her brother was in college then too... that must be it. They meet some hoe back then. I go back to my room, totally pissed off. I should've stayed to see what they were doing but I didn't need to see any more of him trying to get with her. I was wrong he is here for