Amorous, Ameera Butt [reading women txt] 📗

breeze, than the hot sun heat. Everyone found me weird when I told them that fact, but then again I was very random and totally different to others. Most got the hang of my randomness. I used to love my sarcasm; many said sarcasm ran in my blood. Some said I was just strange, however who knew me well enough they knew I was random, unique, and different but that different was in a good way and you could say strange, but that strange was in a good way as well as being different.

One thing I really detested was having a sports lessons in the cold outside. Gosh! Football. I hadn't played football in such a long time. Personally I loved football, as a child I was such a tomboy as most would title me. I would always play with my cousin brothers and Cody. There weren't many girls in my family, so I just involved myself with the boys. In the icy, splatter and fast rain I remembered running around with them all, shouting like a little maniac and chasing after the ball. Running around the muddy grass, slipping after every few seconds. It always confused other girls, why it was so compulsory for every player to chase behind one ball. It kind of made the girls happy in someway, wishing they were the ball. It was pretty much disgusting! Every time a football game would come on the television, I would sit there ready to cheer for a team. I wasn't totally choosy on who was better on the other hand; I always had a better energetic cheer for when one specific team played, I assume they probably were my favourite. It was strange how being that teams fan I always had an extra cheer for another team. Everyone always argued saying how can I ever support two teams? But there’s never any harm. When my first team and second team use to play against each other, it used to be a toughie! I suppose I survived during them, in a better conclusion I think my team won any way. If team one lost I would still win because team two won and like wise for team two if they won.

As I was thinking about my childhood I was dressing myself warm for the lesson, it was icy outside. Even though winter had entered I didn’t think it would be this cold, still I didn’t mind or complain about the weather; I still managed to like it! As I ran down the stairs from the changing room and walked quickly to the football nets and held myself there in the cold. Sally came running for a cuddle, she was freezing. Sally always seemed to hate the cold, she loved the sun. Stacy and Abbey walked out and I could see them walking along side of each other holding onto each others arms, warming their hands. Shay didn’t really need anyone she was like an automatic heater, she was never cold. Sometime everyone use to worry about that statement.
Mrs. Yare walked across the big net towards us and gave a deafening whistle.
“Ow!” Shay grumbled. Sally went to grab a ball for our group; I really wasn’t in the mood for football.
“Ameesha, do you want to start the warm up?” Mrs. Yare asked. After a little stare she had realised I didn’t want to do anything really. Usually she would force me to do stuff I would reject to do, today was dissimilar. Whilst the lesson continued I was standing towards the side looking at everyone run around a ball. It was a total fail on how they played, it looked like twenty squirrels chasing and fighting over one nut, a bit pathetic!

I went and leaned against the black fence on the side and observed on the silly mistakes everyone were making. I don’t know why, but nowadays I always thought everything that happened around me was a sign to something. It always linked to me. Now I just felt like a pathetic squirrel, a squirrel that wasn’t actually after its nut, but was after love. A love that she couldn’t get, a hopeless emotion I couldn’t gain. I had imagined that Leah had taken that nut of me and kept it forever. Possibly that nuts wasn’t made for me, who knows? But I still had it in my mind that I wanted that nut, I wanted to win over Leah! But realising that the nut didn’t want me to choose it, I had to let go of it, even if that meant I would have to live on hunger for longer. How much I envied her at that moment. As I vision the horrendous condition a ball slipped out of the football bag and stopped against the side of my left leg. I looked down at it; it was a black one with yellow strips across it. The round ball reminded me of the one I use to have as a child, well it wasn’t exactly the same I had white strips on my black ball instead of yellow.

In the cold I was shivering so much, I was vibrating like a particle. That thought made me laugh at myself. I was shivering so much that I kept making the ball on the floor that kept hitting against me move about. I raised my right foot and placed it gently on the moving ball. As it stopped I started playing around with it, rolling it side to side. A few seconds went past and I turned around facing towards a side wall, showing my back to everyone else. Forcefully I kicked the ball against the rigid wall hoping that it will bounce back higher. Well that turned out to be a fail, it fell downward and rolled slowly back to me. Annoyed I tried to kick it against the wall again, in suspense if I would receive it back how I wanted it to. I seemed to not succeed again. Factually thinking of giving up, I stopped and puff out. If I couldn’t remember the football skills I use to do then how could I move on and not fail in big things I wanted to do in life. I closed me eyes tightly, and took deep breaths about 3 times and opened my eyes out extensively. Dragging the ball back to me and gave a physically powerful kick to it as it hit against the stiff wall and had bounce it high up towards me. Gradually a smile turned up on my face as I kicked the ball in the air. One time, second time, third time… A few seconds later, Sixth time, Seventh time. The ball hadn’t touched the floor as I kicked it up high seven times. Eventually it had hit the ground, I was a little disappointed because I was having my moment of happiness but then I become conscious that I just didn’t fail in that moment. That I had built myself up now, if I had tried hard I would be able to get somewhere and do what I desire.

As I turned back with a face covered with a big smile, I looked towards everyone. They had stopped playing the game and were starring and observing me. It felt very awkward at first but as I looked up at Sally she gave me a humungous smile in return and I knew I had done it, my friends had known that now I was ready to move on with my life. Even if it was because of a football.

“Amsh?” Sally asked in surprise.
“Yeah Girl?” I replied with an arbitrary laugh. In a sudden of moment, Stacy, Sally and Abbey came running towards and had attacked me with a full-size hug. Everyone were standing around us puzzled as I watched them observe the situation my eyes caught on Shay, her face was so hot red and I didn’t know what that represented in this moment. While getting the three girls of me I pushed myself back and looked at them continuing to smile. The whistle blew loudly again and it was end of lesson, end of the day really we had gone into end of college time in our lesson so we rushed to the changing rooms to change.

Today I had a sort of relief; I really didn’t want to go home after college, well not that early anyways. Suggesting that we should go to the radiators and hang there for a little while, we walked towards the radiator; it was on the other side of where the changing rooms were, a bit of a walk. There wasn’t much to complain about my college, even though many people would ramble on for years complaining. I couldn’t be much negative about it. As we walked down the car ramp Abbey started gossiping about what had happened in sports lesson to Sasha as a bright happiness appeared on Sasha’s face, I gave an awkward smile. I wasn’t use to of people making a really big thing of what I did. Getting near by to the radiators I saw Ella. “Hold up people, I’m just going to go to Ella for a minute.” I told the whole group and continued walking towards Ella.

As she noticed me she came running to give me a hug and spoke saying “Ameesha, hiya! Thank god I found you here, I’m so bored. I have to wait here because apparently I’ve been a bad girl and I have detention. It’s just so ridiculous; this teacher is just so stern!” Haha, stern? That word made me laugh thinking about it. Ella hated college, if she could she would just stick at home but then she would be just alone. She had got quite bored since her elder brother Simon had gone to America last year; he was doing his studies there. Simon was now twenty years old, I could say near about Cody’s age. He was learning performing arts in New York. He didn’t actually live in New York, somewhere close though. New Jersey to be precise. He was into his theatre and Broadway, I always found it amusing! I and he use to get along very well, in fact before he left he advice me about my future, I always wanted to be famous, actress being specific. He knew what I wanted as a future, he understood me when it came to career for the reason that we had similar field.

“Aw, how much can i sympathize you! I can’t really say much except call you a well, a loser!” I teased to her. “Anyways how was your day today?”
“My day?” she asked herself. “Well, it was utterly rubbish! I say these teachers are so annoying, I wish I could just be at home even if it’s so boring!” she criticized.
“Oh I think you need to enjoy the life you’re having at college, once you leave college you’re going to wish you had stayed here forever!”
“Pfftt, I rather get taught by a monkey!” it seemed like she was telling herself that. She looked at me in excitement as she continued. “Oh my, imagine that being taught by monkeys that would be awesome!” she expressed her thought, sometimes Ella freaked me out with what she thought, I guess she got her randomness from me. I laughed to what she had just expressed as she then continued speaking.
“Ella, honestly what am I going to do with you daft girl!” I imploded in laughter. “I’m going to go now, see you next week. Bye gorgeous!” As I gave her a warm hug I walked back to the others.

When I had got back to the others, they hadn’t realised I was back. They were so busy examining someone. As I reached forward