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he would be up for it.
"I wouldn't even know what to say to him. We haven't talked about that stuff in over a year and I bet he's moved on by now. I think it's just best if we stay friends."
"but.."
"No buts. We'll see where time takes us alright? Who knows, maybe we will be together soon."

"Do you need me to drive Jon, or are you ok to make it the last hour and a half?"
Jon yawns and says, "I think I'm fine. I've got my monster. I'll let you know whenever it's too much to handle."
"Ok, whatever you want."
I snuggle back into my blanket and pillow and try to get some sleep. Next thing I know, Danny is climbing from the front seat, over the middle seat and comes to the back by me.
"Ouch! That was my foot!" I whisper loudly as he tries to maneuver off of my foot.
"Sorry Mia! Here, try this." He lifts my feet up and puts them on his lap so I would be more comforatable.
I clear my throat, "Thanks."
"No problem" he says staring right into my eyes.
I clear my throat again. Then I close my eyes and try to fall asleep again. I open my eyes a little bit to see what he's doing and he's still staring at me! I close them quickly, turn onto my side, and put my face deeper into my pillow. I hear him chuckling but I try to ignore it.
I wake up suddenly, sitting straight up in my seat.
Ok, calm down. It was just a dream.

I think to myself and then plop back down on my pillow.
"Are you ok Mia?" I hear Danny ask me.
I stare at him for a minute and then say "Oh, Um yeah. I'm fine. Just had a weird dream."
"Do you want to tell me about it?"
"I don't know if that would be a good idea."
"Why not?"
"Because it's too embarrassing to say out loud." I say looking down and blushing.
Danny scoots closer to me and puts his thumb underneath my chin to lift my face to his level.
"You can tell me."
My heart skips two beats as I look into his eyes and suddenly I feel my body slowly leaning toweards his.
You know you want to. Just do it already.

"Mia?"
"This is how I'm telling you"
I put my hand on his cheek and lean into his body until we have no room between us. I don't move my eyes from his. Then I see it click in his head and he closes the space between us.
I don't know if it was this way for him but for me, something sparked. My stomach flipped and flipped and filled with butterflies. All I wanted was to be with him... for as long as he wanted me. His lips are so soft and warm. They feel like they were meant to fit with mine. I run my tongue along his top and bottom lip and I hear the faintest moan escape his mouth.
This time when I layed back down onto my pillow, I brought him with me. My hands tangled in his hair and he had his arms around my waist. He moved down my thigh, around my knee and went back up again to my ribs, back, arms. He never took his hands off of me, and I loved it. I needed more of him. I pull his shirt off and run my hands over his back, arms, abs, chest. I couldn't get enough.
"Mia" I hear him whisper as I kiss his neck and down his chest. I brought my lips back to his.
Danny pulls away and smiles at me.
"Do you know how long I've been waiting to do that."
I laugh a little and say "I always knew it was you."
He chuckles and shakes his head.
"Why are you laughing?"
"Because if that was your dream, I didn't find it weird at all." He smiles.
I giggle and say, "No, I guess it wasn't" and smile back at him.
He gives me one more soft kiss and I snuggle up to his chest as he wraps his arms around me.


Chapter 16


I wake up to find myself back home, in my bed, with an extremely sore neck and dry throat. I sit up and my head spins a little bit so I fall back onto my pillow. What time is it?? Where is everybody??
I turn over to find that its already 2:30 in the afternoon. I groan and put my arm over my face before I finally push myself out of bed and walk out of my room.
As the light blinds me for a couple seconds I start to hear voices coming from the kitchen and living room.
"Oh look who's finally awake!" I hear Klaire say from the couch. "Good afternoon sleepy head."
I groan and sit on one of the bar stools in the kitchen and put my head on the cool counter.
"knock knock. Who's ready for breakfast, or do you want lunch?" My mom says close to my face to make sure that I can hear her.
"Ummmm I'll just have an apple please. I don't really have an appetite right when I wake up anymore."
"But you always eat right when you wake up." My mom disagreed with me.
"I guess I just never had time in the morning at school so I grew used to not eating a lot in the morning."
"I see." she says as she hands me an apple.
I take a big bite out of it and it tastes so much better then this terrible morning breath taste. I walk over to the living room and plop down on the couch next to Klaire. I pull my legs up to chest and ask "So what are you watching?"
"I'm not entirely sure. I think it's a mystery but then again it's also a love story. I was just flipping through channels and this was the best I could come up with."
"hmm I've never seen this show on before, must be new."
I take a few more bites of my apple and get up to throw away the core. When I turn around I see Jon coming down the stairs the same way I probably did a little while ago. He looks exhausted and might just fall over any second.
"Morning" He says to me in a groggy voice.
"I think you mean afternoon." I joke "Did you drive the entire time last night?"
"very funny, and yeah I did. Those energy drinks work wonders."
I laugh, "I bet, so what do you want to eat?"
"Not really hungry. Can I just have some eggs with bacon and possibly a couple pancakes with hash browns on the side and a tall glass of orange juice?"
"Cereal it is!" I smile at him as I take his favorite cereal out of pantry, Trix are for kids.
"That works too." he laughs.
After I get Jon his breakfast I grab Klaire's arm and tow her up to my bedroom and close the door behind us.
"Klaire I can't believe I did that yesterday!"
"What are you talking about? Falling asleep with Danny in the back seat? Whoop-de-do! You are now considered a whore." She says with sarcasm leaking from every word.
"I didn't just fall asleep back there Klaire, I fricken made out with him for God knows how long with his shirt off and mine possibly off too!"
"Oh my gosh! I'm so oblivious!! Are you serious!?!? I thought you just went back there to talk and whatever, I didn't know you were going to try anything on him!"
"I wasn't in my right mind! I had a dream and I acted on it! I didn't mean to do that I swear!"
Or did I?

"Why are you freaking out? I don't care that you did that. I'm actually glad that you did. I could tell that you've been wanted to do it for who knows how long so now that you did you can finally make up your mind about him." She says with a triumphant smile on her face.
I hate when she's right. So I just shake my head and fall back onto my bed and put a pillow over my face so I can scream into it.
"I'm so confused right now. I wonder what he thinks about all of this. Should I call him?"
"Why would you need to call him? He's in your backyard swimming right now. He got up earlier then Jon and didn't want to go home so he went for a swim."
I fly out of my bed and yell, "Are you serious?!? He's here?!? right now?!?" and I run over to my dresser.
"Yeah, so stop flippin out and go talk to the boy because I'm sure he's just as confused as you are."
"I'm going, I'm going. I just have to change really quick." I say with a mischievous smile on my face and close the bathroom door.
"Oh man, what are you going to do??"
I walk out in one of my string bikinis. "I'm going to have some fun." I say with a wink before I leave the room.


Chapter 17


I run down the stairs as if I was flying. When I reached the bottom I headed over to the back door and peered out. There's Danny, swimming laps. Oh my gosh he looks so hot. That's something a stupid teenage girl would say but I can't help it if it's true!! My stomach starts to do little flips again and the same feeling from last night overpowers me.
I reach to pull open the door and the doorbells rings. UUGGGHHH. why now???

I'm only in a bikini right now so I yell up to Klaire to throw me down a pair of softy shorts. When I get them I slip them on really quick and then walk over to the front door.
I open the door to the last person I would ever imagine to be on my front porch right now....
"Kyle?"
He was turned around, facing the street but when he heard my voice he couldn't have turned around quicker. I saw him look me over briefly because of what I was wearing but then he closed his eyes and shook his head a little before looking up at me again.
I shifted my weight to one of my legs and folded my arms across my chest. I stood there feeling a little bit uncomfortable, waiting for him to speak. He just stood there looking into my eyes. His eyes said "desperation, wanting, and hurt"
I look down at the ground and say, "What are you doing here Kyle?"
"I don't really know. I just had an impulse to come and see you. I HAD to come see you. Mia I made a HUGE mistake. Breaking up was one of the worst decisions I have ever made. At the time I thought it was the right thing for us, but as time went on I started missing you more and more and I couldn't stay away. When I heard that you got home last night I couldn't stop thinking about you, I had to talk to you. I know I probably hurt you and I bet I can't really