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“betrayal”, “cheating”, an abrogation of the exclusivity clause he had
with the narcissistic Primary Object.
This is the big difference between narcissists and their inverted
version. The former REJECTED the Primary Object in particular (and
object relations in general) in favour of a handy substitute:
themselves.
The IN accepted the (narcissist) Primary Object and internalised it -
to the exclusion of all others (unless they are perceived by him to be
faithful renditions, replicas of the narcissistic Primary Object).
Criterion ONE
The IN possesses a rigid sense of lack of self-worth.
The narcissist has a badly regulated sense of self-worth. However this
is not conscious. He goes through cycles of self-devaluation (and
experiences them as dysphorias). The IN’s sense of self-worth does NOT
fluctuate. It is rather stable - but it is very low. Whereas the
narcissist devalues others - the IN devalues himself as an offering, a
sacrifice to the narcissist. The IN pre-empts the narcissist by
devaluing himself, by actively devaluing his own achievements, or
talents. The IN is exceedingly distressed when singled out because of
actual achievements or demonstration of superior skills.
The inverted narcissist is compelled to filter all of his narcissistic
needs through the primary narcissist in their lives. No independence is
permitted. The IN feels amplified by the narcissist’s commentary
(because nothing can be accomplished by the invert without the approval
of a primary narcissist in their lives).
Criterion TWO
Preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance and
beauty or of an ideal of love.
This is the same as the DSM-IV-TR criterion for Narcissistic
Personality Disorder but, with the IN, it manifests absolutely
differently, i.e. the cognitive dissonance is sharper here because the
IN is so absolutely and completely convinced of their worthlessness
that these fantasies of grandeur are extremely painful “dissonances”.
With the narcissist, the dissonance exists on two levels:
Between the UNCONSCIOUS feeling of lack of stable self-worth and the
grandiose fantasies AND between the grandiose fantasies and reality
(the Grandiosity Gap).
In comparison, the inverted narcissist can only vacillate between lack
of self-worth and reality. No grandiosity is permitted, except in
dangerous, forbidden fantasy. This shows that the invert is
psychologically incapable of fully realising their inherent potentials
without a primary narcissist to filter the praise, adulation or
accomplishments through. They MUST have someone to whom praise can be
redirected.
The dissonance between the IN’s certainty of self-worthlessness and
genuine praise that cannot be deflected is likely to emotionally derail
the inverted narcissist every time.
Criterion THREE
Believes that he is absolutely un-unique and un-special (i.e.,
worthless and not worthy of merger with the fantasised ideal) and that
no one at all could understand him because he is innately unworthy of
being understood. The IN becomes very agitated the more one tries to
understand him because that also offends against his righteous sense of
being properly excluded from the human race.
A sense of worthlessness is typical of many other PDs (AND the feeling
that no one could ever understand them). The narcissist himself endures
prolonged periods of self-devaluation, self-deprecation and
self-effacement. This is part of the Narcissistic Cycle. In this sense,
the inverted narcissist is a PARTIAL narcissist in that he is
permanently fixated in a part of the narcissist wheel, never to
experience its complementary half: the narcissistic grandiosity and
sense of entitlement.
The “righteous sense of being properly excluded” comes from the
sadistic Superego in concert with the “overbearing, externally
reinforced, conscience”.
Criterion FOUR
Demands anonymity (in the sense of seeking to remain excluded at all
costs) and is intensely irritated and uncomfortable with any attention
being paid to him - similar to the Schizoid PD.
Criterion FIVE
Feels that he is undeserving and not entitled.
Feels that he is inferior to others, lacking, insubstantial, unworthy,
unlikeable, unlovable, someone to scorn and dismiss, or to ignore.
Criterion SIX
Is extinguishingly selfless, sacrificial, even unctuous in his
interpersonal relationships and will avoid the assistance of others at
all costs. Can only interact with others when he can be seen to be
giving, supportive, and expending an unusual effort to assist.
Some narcissists behave the same way but only as a means to obtain
Narcissistic Supply (praise, adulation, affirmation, attention). This
must not be confused with the behaviour of the IN.
Criterion SEVEN
Lacks empathy. Is intensely attuned to others’ needs, but only in so
far as it relates to his own need to perform the required
self-sacrifice, which in turn is necessary in order for the IN to
obtain his Narcissistic Supply from the primary narcissist.
By contrast, narcissists are never empathic. They are intermittently
attuned to others only in order to optimise the extraction of
Narcissistic Supply from them.
Criterion EIGHT
Envies others. Cannot conceive of being envied and becomes extremely
agitated and uncomfortable if even brought into a situation where
comparison might occur - loathes competition and will avoid competition
at all costs, if there is any chance of actually winning the
competition, or being singled out.
Criterion NINE
Displays extreme shyness, lack of any real relational connections, is
publicly self-effacing in the extreme, is internally highly moralistic
and critical of others; is a perfectionist and engages in lengthy
ritualistic behaviours, which can never be perfectly performed
(obsessive-compulsive, though not necessarily to the full extent
exhibited in OCD). Notions of being individualistic are anathema.
The Reactive Patterns of the Inverted Narcissist (IN)
The inverted narcissist does not suffer from a “milder” form of
narcissism. Like the “classic” narcissists, it has degrees and shades.
But it is much more rare and the DSM-IV-TR variety is the more
prevalent.
The inverted narcissist is liable to react with rage whenever
threatened, or…
…When envious of other people’s achievements, their ability to feel
wholeness, happiness, rewards and successes, when his sense of
self-worthlessness is enhanced by a behaviour, a comment, an event,
when his lack of self-worth and voided self-esteem is THREATENED.
Thus, this type of narcissist might surprisingly react violently or
ragefully to GOOD things: a kind remark, a mission accomplished, a
reward, a compliment, a proposition, a sexual advance).
…When thinking about the past, when emotions and memories are evoked
(usually negative ones) by certain music, a given smell, or sight.
…When his pathological envy leads to an all-pervasive sense of
injustice and being discriminated against or treated unjustly by a
spiteful world.
…When he encounters stupidity, avarice, dishonesty, bigotry - it is
these qualities in him that the narcissist really fears and rejects so
vehemently in others.
…When he believes that he failed (and he always entertains this
belief), that he is imperfect and useless and worthless, a good for
nothing half-baked creature.
…When he realises to what extent his inner demons possess him,
constrain his life, torment him, deform him and the hopelessness of it
all.
Then even the inverted narcissist rages. He becomes verbally and
emotionally abusive. He uncannily pierces the soft spots of his target,
and mercilessly drives home the poisoned dagger of despair and
self-loathing until it infects his adversary.
The calm after such a storm is even eerier, a thundering silence. The
narcissist regrets his behaviour but rarely admits his feelings, though
he might apologise profusely.
He simply nurtures his feelings as yet another weapon of
self-destruction and self-defeat. It is from this very suppressed
self-contempt, from this very repressed and introverted judgement, from
this missing emotional atonement that the narcissistic rage springs
forth. Thus the vicious cycle is established.
One important difference between inverted narcissists and
non-narcissists is that the former are less likely to react with PTSD
(Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) following a relationship with a
narcissist. They seem to be “desensitised” to narcissists by their
early upbringing. Whereas the reactions of normal people to
narcissistic behaviour patterns (and especially to the splitting and
projective identification defence mechanisms and to the idealisation
devaluation cycles) is shock, profound hurt and disorientation -
inverted narcissists show none of the above.
The Life of the Inverted Narcissist (IN)
The IN is, usually, exceedingly and painfully shy as a child. Despite
this social phobia, his grandiosity (absorbed from the parent) might
direct him to seek “limelight” professions and occupations, which
involve exposure, competition, “stage fright” and social friction. The
setting can vary from the limited (family) to the expansive (national
media) - but, whatever it is, the result is constant conflict and
feelings of discomfort, even terror and extreme excitement and thrill
(“adrenaline rush”). This is because the IN’s grandiosity is “imported”
and not fully integrated. It is, therefore, not supportive of his
“grandiose” pursuits (as is the case with the narcissist). On the
contrary, the IN feels awkward, pitted on the edge of a precipice,
contrived, false and misleading, not to say deceitful.
The inverted narcissist grows up in a suppressive environment. It could
be an orthodox, hyper-religious, or traditionalist culture, a
monovalent, “black and white”, doctrinarian and indoctrinating society
- or a family which manifests all the above in a microcosm all its own.
The inverted narcissist is cast in a negative (emergent) role within
his family. His “negativity” is attributed to his gender, the order of
his birth, religious, social, or cultural dictates and commandments,
his “character flaws”, his relation to a specific person or event, his
acts or inaction and so on.
In the words of one such IN:
“In the religious culture I grew up in. Women are SO suppressed, their
roles are so carefully restricted. They are the representation, in the
flesh, of all that is sinful, degrading, of all that is wrong with the
world.
These are the negative gender/cultural images that were force fed to us
the negative ‘otherness’ of women, as defined by men, was fed to me. I
was so shy, withdrawn, unable to really relate to people at all from as
early as I can remember.”
The IN is subjected and exposed either to an overbearing, overvalued
parent, or to an aloof, detached, emotionally unavailable one - or to
both - at an early stage of his life.
“I grew up in the shadow of my father who adored me, put me on a
pedestal, told me I could do or be anything I wanted because I was
incredibly bright, BUT, he ate me alive, I was his property and an
extension of him.
I also grew up with the mounting hatred of my narcissist brother who
got none of this attention from our father and got no attention from
our mother either. My function was to make my father look wonderful in
the eyes of all outsiders, the wonderful parent with a genius
Wunderkind as his last child, and the only child of the six that he was
physically present to raise from the get go. The overvaluation combined
with being abjectly ignored or raged at by him when I stepped out of
line even the tiniest bit, was enough to warp my personality.”
The invert cannot, or is prevented from developing full-blown secondary
narcissism. The invert is so heavily preoccupied in his or her
pre-school years in satisfying the narcissistic parent, that the traits
of grandiosity and self-love, need for adoration and Narcissistic
Supply from ANY viable source remain dormant or repressed.
The invert simply “knows” that only the narcissistic parent can provide
the requisite amount of Narcissistic Supply. The narcissistic parent is
so controlling that any attempt to garner praise or adulation from any
other source (without the approval of the parent) is severely punished
by swift devaluation and even the occasional spanking or abuse
(physical, emotional, or sexual).
This is a vital part of the conditioning that gives rise to inverted
narcissism.
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