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personal history, or to some of their behaviour patterns. Yet others
feel content with who they are and with what they are doing.
But one group of people seems distinct in its mental constitution -
narcissists.
According to the legend of Narcissus, this Greek boy fell in love with
his own reflection in a pond. Presumably, this amply sums up the nature
of his namesakes: narcissists. The mythological Narcissus was rejected
by the nymph Echo and was punished by Nemesis, Consigned to pine away
as he fell in love with his own reflection. How apt. Narcissists are
punished by echoes and reflections of their problematic personalities
up to this very day.
They are said to be in love with themselves.
But this is a fallacy. Narcissus is not in love with HIMSELF. He is in
love with his REFLECTION.
There is a major difference between True Self and reflected-self.
Loving your True Self is a healthy, adaptive and functional quality.
Loving a reflection has two major drawbacks. One is the dependence on
the very existence and availability of a reflection to produce the
emotion of self-love.
The other is the absence of a “compass”, an “objective and realistic
yardstick”, by which to judge the authenticity of the reflection and to
measure its isomorphic attributes. In other words, it is impossible to
tell whether the reflection is true to reality - and, if so, to what
extent.
The popular misconception is that narcissists love themselves. In
reality, they direct their love to second hand impressions of
themselves in the eyes of beholders. He who loves only impressions is
not acquainted with the emotion of loving humans and is, therefore,
incapable of loving them, or himself.
But the narcissist does possess the in-bred desire to love and to be
loved. If he cannot love himself - he has to love his reflection. But
to love his reflection - it must be loveable. Thus, driven by the
insatiable urge to love (which we all possess), the narcissist is
grossly preoccupied with projecting a loveable image of himself unto
others. This image has to be compatible with his self-image (the way he
“sees” himself).
It is maintained through the investment of a reasonable proportion of
the resources and energy of the narcissist. An image, which would take
most of the narcissist’s time and energy to preserve, would be highly
ineffective because it would render him vulnerable to external threats.
But the most important characteristic of such an image is its
lovability.
To a narcissist, love is interchangeable with other emotions, such as
awe, respect, admiration, or even mere attention. An image, which
provokes these reactions in others - is both “loveable and loved”, as
far as the narcissist is concerned. It satisfies his basic requirement:
that it should give him something to love which would feel like
self-love.
The more successful this image (or series of successive images) - the
more the narcissist becomes divorced from his True Self and married to
the image.
I am not saying that the narcissist does not have this central nucleus
of a “self”. All I am saying is that he prefers his image - with which
he identifies himself unreservedly - to his self. A hierarchy is
formed. The self becomes serf to the Image.
This is exactly the opposite of the common notions concerning
narcissists. The narcissist is not selfish - his self is paralysed.
He is not tuned exclusively to his needs. On the contrary: he ignores
them because many of them conflict with his omnipotent and omniscient
image. He does not put himself first - he puts his self last. He caters
to the needs and wishes of everyone around him - because he craves
their love and admiration. It is through their reactions that he
acquires a sense of distinct self. In many ways he annuls himself -
only to re-invent himself through the look of others. He is the person
most insensitive to his true needs.
The narcissist consumes his mental energy incessantly in this process.
He drains himself. This is why he has no energy left to dedicate to
others. This fact as well as his inability to love human beings in
their many dimensions and facets - transform him into a mental recluse.
His soul is fortified and in the solace of this fortification he guards
its territory jealously and fiercely. He protects what he perceives to
constitute his independence.
Why should people indulge the narcissist? And what is the
“evolutionary”, survival value of preferring one kind of love (directed
at a symbol, an image) to another (directed at one’s self)?
These questions torment the narcissist. His convoluted mind comes up
with the most elaborate contraptions in lieu of answers.
Why should people indulge the narcissist, divert time and energy, give
him attention, love and adulation? The narcissist’s answer is simple:
because he is entitled to it. The narcissist has an inflated sense of
entitlement. He feels that he deserves whatever he succeeds to extract
from others and much more. Actually, he feels betrayed, discriminated
against and underprivileged because he always believes that he is not
getting enough, that he should get more than he does. There is a
discrepancy between his infinite certainty that his is a special status
worthy of eternally recurrent praise and adoration, replete with
special benefits and prerogatives - and the actual state of his
affairs. This is the prima causa of the psychodynamics of the
narcissist’s mind. To the narcissist, this status of uniqueness is
bestowed upon him not by virtue of his achievements, but merely because
he exists. His mere existence is sufficiently unique to warrant the
kind of treatment that he expects to get from the world. Herein lies a
paradox, which haunts the narcissist: he derives his sense of
uniqueness from the very fact that he exists and he derives his sense
of existence from his belief that he is unique.
Clinical data show that there is rarely any realistic basis for this
notion of greatness and uniqueness.
Narcissists do hold high positions and, at times, are achievers with
proven track records. Some of them are respected members of their
communities, some of them even leaders. Mostly, they are dynamic and
successful. Still, one thing separates them from persons of similar
circumstance: the pomp.
They are ridiculously pompous and inflated personalities, bordering on
the farcical and provoking resentment.
The narcissist is forced to use other people in order to feel that he
exists. It is trough their eyes and through their behaviour that he
obtains proof of his uniqueness and grandeur. He is a habitual
“people-junkie”. With time, he comes to regard those around him as mere
instruments for his satisfaction, as two-dimensional cartoon figures
with negligible lines in the script of his magnificent life. He becomes
unscrupulous and suppresses all the discomfort that he might have felt
in the past concerning his conduct. He seems never to be bothered by
the constant use he makes of his milieu. He seems not to mind the
consequences of his acts: the damage and the pain that he inflicts on
others and even the social condemnation and sanctions that he often has
to endure.
When a person persists in a dysfunctional, maladaptive or plain useless
behaviour despite grave repercussions to himself and to his
surroundings - we say that his acts are compulsive.
It would, indeed, be safe to say that the narcissist is compulsive in
his behaviour. This linkage between narcissism and obsessive-compulsive
disorders sheds light on the mechanisms of the narcissistic psyche.
The narcissist does not suffer from a faulty sense of causation. He is
able to accurately predict the outcomes of his actions and he knows
that he might be forced to pay a dear price for his deeds. But he
doesn’t care.
A personality whose very existence is a derivative of its reflection in
other people’s minds - is perilously dependent on these people’s
perceptions. They are the source of its Narcissistic Supply (NS). Every
shred of criticism and disapproval is interpreted as a withholding of
this supply and as a direct threat to the very mental existence of the
narcissist. The narcissist lives in a world of all or nothing, of a
constant “to be or not be”. Every discussion that he holds, every
glance of every passer-by reaffirms his existence or casts doubt upon
it. This is why the reactions of the narcissist seem so
disproportionate: he reacts to what he perceives to be threats to the
very cohesion of his self.
Thus, a minor disagreement is transformed in his harried mind into an
ominous sign that he is going to remain devoid of his sources of
self-definition.
This is such a crucial matter, that the narcissist cannot take chances.
He would rather be mistaken - then null and void. He would rather
discern disapproval and unjustified criticism where there is none -
then face the consequences of being caught off-guard.
The narcissist has to condition his human environment to refrain from
expressing criticism and disapproval of him or of his actions and
decisions. He has to teach people around him that these will provoke
him into frightful fits of temper and rage attacks and turn him into a
constantly cantankerous and irascible person. The disproportion of his
reactions constitutes a punishment for their lack of consideration and
their ignorance of his true psychological state. In a curious reversal
of roles - the narcissist blames others for his behaviour, accuses them
of provoking him and believes firmly that “they” should be penalised
accordingly. There is no way to dissuade the narcissist once he has
embarked on one of his temper tantrums. Apologies - unless accompanied
by verbal or other humiliation - are not enough. The fuel of his rage
is spent mainly on vitriolic verbal send-offs directed at the (often
imaginary) perpetrator of the (oft imaginary) offence.
A coherent picture emerges:
The narcissist - wittingly or not - utilises people to buttress his
self-image and self-worth. As long and in as much as they are
instrumental in achieving these goals - he holds them in high regard,
they are valuable to him. He sees them only through this lens. This is
a result of his inability to love humans: he lacks empathy, he thinks
utility, and he reduces others to mere instruments. If they cease to
“function”, if - no matter how inadvertently - they cause him to doubt
this illusory, half-baked, self-esteem - they become the subject of a
reign of terror. The narcissist then proceeds to hurt these
“insubordinate wretches”. He belittles and humiliates them. He displays
aggression and violence in myriad forms. His behaviour metamorphesises,
kaleidoscopically, from overvaluation of the useful other - to a
severe devaluation of same.
The narcissist abhors, almost physiologically, people judged by him to
be “useless”.
These rapid alterations between absolute overvaluation to complete
devaluation of others make the maintenance of long-term interpersonal
relationships all but impossible.
The more pathological form of narcissism - the Narcissistic Personality
Disorder (NPD) - was defined in the successive versions of the American
DSM and the European ICD. It is useful to scrutinise these geological
layers of clinical observations and their interpretation. In 1977 the
DSM-III criteria included [the following texts are adaptations of the
original ones]:
_ An inflated valuation of oneself (exaggeration of talents and
achievements, demonstration of presumptuous self-confidence);
_ Interpersonal exploitation (uses others to satisfy his needs
and desires, expects preferential treatment without undertaking mutual
commitments);
_ Possesses expansive imagination (externalises immature and
non-regimented fantasies, “prevaricates to redeem self-illusions”);
_ Displays supercilious imperturbability (except when the
narcissistic confidence is shaken), nonchalant, unimpressed and
cold-blooded;
_ Defective social conscience (rebels against the conventions of
common social
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